I was confused

Firstly,thanks for all of you giving the praise words to me

In fact ,he said i like him before ,i don't know myself i had like him for so long time so that he want to make me angry and found out by myself that we are falling in love each other.At last ,i was defeat by him and now i had agree him to be his girl friend ,but i know that we also have many troubles between us which that i aslo can't clerify it clear,my roomates told  me it's my fault if i really miss him. I don't know what should i do ?It seems that i still not clear whether i love him or not,maybe in my heart it's just a custom that he can appear in front of me,or i really love him ,who can tell me how to know i had love him or not?

At the same time i found another boy love me very much ,but he is younger than me one year my classmate said i am just like a stone because she had been emtion by him as a out the circle,she hopes i can consider clear about him .It's a very obvious that it's impossibe to love him for me so that it makes i don't want to see him again even his name are out.

Between them i found i don't have the ability to love everyone because i really don't know myself clear in front of such kind of thing .who can transfer it for ?

what's my choose ?I want to be alone ,meanwhile i also hope someone can treat me very well just as a brother or friend.why they want me to be their girl friend ,i am not very well ,also not very beautiful ,there are many beautiful girls in our corp.when i asked them?The same answer ,

" because it is you ,your character" Who can tell me what should i do?i am really very confused by this condition now.