I  have  graguated    from  school,but I  don't  find  a  job.my  friend  and  I  go  to  yunnan  and  make a  business, i  find  I  am   so  tired now,in  fact ,it's  not my body ,It's  my  heart ,since  I come  here ,they  are  so terrible ,why  they  like this,they  think  you  are  so stupid ,everything  that  you  can't  do  it  well,and  if  they  are wrong ,they  always  put  the duty  to  others ,are  they  good  parents?  No  .i  don't  think  so ,then I  don't want  to  talk with  them ,they  are  my good  friend's  parents,then ,although   I have  some  pressure,I don't  speak  with  them and  put  it  in  my  heart ,because  my  good  friend can't  keep  the secret,they are her  parents,I  know  her ,so  I  don't  know  who can  I  tell.I  can't  stand  them   now  ,SO  i will  go  home,Or  I  will  be  ill.many  things   that  don't like  what  we  think.  It's  true.

  I    don't  why ,I   don't  like  staying  my  home ,because my  family  always  can't  understand  me ,they  think   i  am  lazy ,In fact ,i  only  like  lazy  sleeping ,I feel  that they  can't  stand  me .but  in  my frieds's  eye's  ,I am  not  like  this ,so  i  can't  communicate  very  well  with  my  family,sometines ,i  want  to  speak something  with them ,but  when i  look  their looks ,now   i  would  like  to  keep  the  word in  my  heart ,I don't  like to  tell them,maybe  each one in my family  just  like  this ,then ,I  have learnd  from them,of  couse  my  temper  is  not  very  good in  my home ,I don't   like  that ,but  ,I can't  control  myself ,I  really  want  to  treat  them  better.

   I must  face  the society. Sometimes I feel  I  hate it ,It's  so dark.but  I can't change ie,then I must  change myself ,the  most difficult  ia  that  I  don't  what I should  change .i  think if i have change d myself ,how  about others  will  think about me ?although  i am   an  opstimc from  my  face,In fact  I don't  know why my heart is  so  heavy.now ,i  must find my job ,I want  be a teacher,but  It's  so difficult,because  i  must take part in  the  exam ,it's  not  that  I don't  believe  myself ,and  just  like others say ,if  you  have  any  relationship i  the  society ,  everything  is  very  difficult .I  have  feel  it ,but  how  can  i  do ,just  try   my  best   to do  it .

     I   have  came  the  school   for   one  week.There  are  some  happy  things,but i  don't  feel  very  happpy.Because  sometimes  I don't know  how  to  communicate  with  the  older  people.I  am  afraid  that  i  can't  teach  the  students well,they  are  so  good. In a  word , I  can't speak out with my  words in the  bottom  of  my heart .in fact ,I want to do it very much.but i can't do it.I am  very dull.