My birthday again!!! But this time, i can't put smile on my face, at least a real smile from the bottom of my heart...
Because i know that i'm gonna lose one person who is very kind for me, for the little me!
She is so important, for me! For my cousin! For her sons! And also for my dear mum... ...
At this moment,i even can't control my tears cuz, whenever i thought that my next birthday will be without her, i almost burst into tears... ... ...
I wanna shout, wanna run, wanna cry, wanna fly, wanna bear the painess that she is bearing!!!
Oh, God! Who can help her, who can save her from such a painess and also save me from such a sadness, cuz i can't bear another family member gonna leave me! I've lost one, and this time i don't wanna lose another! My dear grandpa, do you hear me? I'm calling, and begging u could pray for her, pray for our beloved her! I need her, need her to see my excellent wedding in the future, cuz i've promised her that she'll witness her grandaughter as a beautiful bride! So please help me, help her to make it up!
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" Now, dear u, you know, you'll be fine! It's just a seriousless pain! We are here, and always be here and around you, your little grandaughter is smiling to you! You'll be fine, i'm sure, and will definetly be fine! Remember that deal we've made before? If you could run through 80 years old, you'll invite me and Bo, right? So, now, i'm still waiting for it, and so does he! Having us, you won't feel pain anymore, and i believe we could laugh together just like before soon, right? So, come on and get recovery, only you know how much i need you! So come on...my dear grandma!
Hppay birthday to me, and also to you-my beloved grandma!
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