Drinking to call myself

The first time for me to drink before others. That moment I just wanted to drink and didn't think about the effect. Several cups later the feeling was that I had came to myself. Rember the time of ours, my tears came. I didn't know why and I didn't why I asked  him to stay with me.He was very neverse,because he thought I drank too much.I just wanted him to talked with me,to tell me some story,because he was like him.