the sun rise from my heart

The sun rise from my heart

I’ve not renewed my blog for a few weeks. I’m so exhausted, but I have no other option. Anyway, I get through it all, even if I didn’t do very well in those matters. I don’t know if I’ve tried my best to sttuggle for what I dream., I just feel tiredness during these days.

I come and go between two cities, my homehown and the other city, where is a place I study in college, for civil service examination, english exam and procedures of leaving school.

I exactly don’t know what’s going on with me. Going home and meeting the members of my dear family should have been a happy thing, yet I feel gloomy and can’t be myself. Leaving school which I’ve studied for four years should have been the sad, nevertheless, I feel noting, I just drink and smoke, while some of my classmates crying for the imminent departure, everybody looks upset and discouraged. “Yes, you are dead brutal”,said my adopted sister when I spoke this to her.

I guess, maybe I am. I’ve changed much, but I don’t know what changes to me. Are the changes good for me? Sometimes I consider myself as the same guy in quiet,yet that’s just imagination.

I’m not afraid to be changed by nature. I just hope I’m going in the right direction.which leads to bright future.

I’m still living, I’m still, my life is still writing chapters.I’m looking forward to my future., though which worries me a little, even troubles much, I know what the real right choice is,since I read this::There are two paths you can take in life. One is seeing life as a siries of problems, fears and failures. The other is seeing life as experiences, opportunities and adventures. It is exactly the same life. It’s just that the perpective is different. You can either walk path A or path B. The choice is always yours. Yep, the latter is just what I choose..

The day to leve school eventually up comes, Actually, it’s wished to come as soon as its possible. I’m dying to start my new life, even if it’s not the better one, yet I believe it’s true that what I’m trying hard to fight for will come to me some day..

Now I feel warmer and warmer, my heart is filled with passion, I guess the my sun is going to rise from my heart.