loser

i am now a tutor,yesterday i had three students,but today only two left,and it doesn't  feel good really.I quit one of the students,i use "quit" since i could not find a better word!

I have tutored him for quite a long time,but sadly there is no obvious improvement till now,you know what i mean,anyway.Maybe i am too strict with him,but i have met many students in the last three years,but it turned out to be that he is the most "difficult" one.He was cooperative during classes most of the time,yet i can not exactly find the effective way for both of us,to get better results.When i asked for advice,my teacher said,"how can it be? you know him so well,both the strong and weak points~~don't worry,take it easy and be patient~~" Well,knowing him so well may be the problem!how can i take it easy?how can i be persistant?etc.The anwsers are so hard to give,i am really worried about him,he did not take the important exam  in july,but chose to study for another year,another junior-three -year so that he may be able to attend a good senior high school,he has his aim,it is a prestigeous one.Actually i don't think it worthwhile,he got too much pressure upon himself,what is it that a so-called good school actually is like??After getting into a senior school,he then has to work harder and strive(struggle)for a good university,an endless journey,i know learning is a long journey for all of us, but his attitude~~these two days,i got very tired when having lessons for him,not physically you know.i felt depressed ,sad ,urh,i don't know why,and it occoured to me that i can find another teacher for him,and it may help,new teacher,new ways~~and i did,i recommended one of my classmates,i know i am not a responsible teacher in this way,but i do hope it will work.Something getting better but not worse.He seemed to be hurt when i came up with the idea,no preparations at all~~forgive me!That is why i refer myselfa total loser,and i begin to be afraid of teaching now,worst of all ,this september i will begin my filed work,God,i look forward for it,and at the same time,i do not want to face it!!long long way to go,and so much to learn.