Many people have ever told me they want a real bosom friend,I think the same,too.Nice life would be more meanful due to a pure friendship.

But to be distressful,the feeling between friends would be changed because of the distance of getting on.It is certain it's hard to find a bosom friend in real life,and harder to do in a visional world.In common life.We need good faith to deal with others,while we needn't any sincere to get in return from others.In life,we often do things very carefully to please others or leave a good pression to others. Some people only want to have a best friend to comfort each others when they are in pains.Making other superficial friends is just for fun and a good mood in a nice interpersonal relationship.Yeah,a person can't tell his pains to too many people,or he would be hurt one day.So the only person who can tell his trouble and enjoyments to you is so rare,and you would exchange yours, too, to sublumate your friendship.

But can we confide our anything inward world to the other side?The answer is "We won't and wouldn't like to do that."Everyone will has his or her rest self-hide secrets and never tell others,even all his life.So we needn't feel ashamed while the other side tells you so much more than you have told him.On the other hand,after we confide anything of ours,what will the result of friendship be?Will it be the nicest and eternal emotion?The answer is "no",too.

Keeping our distance is the best for our friendship,not only the distance of our body,but also our psychologic.We can't put the friendship between us to the top,or feeling landslide is bitter.

So bosom friend is so untouble,it would change following the distance between us,the time of both getting on and the change of external environment.It always exists in a very short time and in a quite far space.Just like love,very short and precious.So we should hold such a mind-set:As long as experienced,it is enough.

In fact,lots of nice emotion on earth is so except blood relation.

Strange to say,this year is so important year for some people,even it may be their turning point of life.Of course,it is also our China's most twinkling time in about 20 days.

My paternal sister has already found a quite steady job in Tianjin,and ended two years of vagranting in Beijing.Of course,the next main thing is to find a suitable man to marry and love each other.It's certain, no those years' experience,then no this job and a good job predict a good future.I always keep beliving the end of predicament is better time,so I always use those words to encourage her to spend the hard time.To be ashamed,I have nothing to help her but some sentences.

Today,I eventually received a message from him on line,to be frank,I'm interested in him very much,even any information from him.He only wrote: My job is steady now and prepare for his baby.These are certainly good news,I am happy for him.And I know maybe it would be very quick to lose him on line,he didn't tell me much about his things.Maybe he has been in marriage,I hope it is a family with most happiness.

The last one is me,this year I changed my house to have a new start.To the same,we have experienced much pains those years,I hope this year,OG year would change us a lot,to say goodbye to bad luck and hardships,to welcome good starts.

Today is the sencond day listening lectures in No.5 Middle School.It rained almost the whole last night.When I woke up this morning,the first thing is to have a look at my plants through the window,they looked so green and grew much bigger.Soon,I was ready to go to class,but when I got on the road,I opened my eyes,I couldn't ride my electric bike at all.So I changed my idea to walk there.After sending my bike back to my home,then I was very happy to get into the cool water which was almost to my knee.All of cars in the water was like autoboats,so funny!It recalled up my childhood,I always like playing in the deep rain with other children.

The dull lectures were endless,the money malfeasants' lusts are endless.Why are there so many mendacious things,cheating each other.I never believe all those gold bricks,no lectures can give us too much useful things or no tests were formal or strict.So many poor teachers,I found them standing in the hot sun waiting for bus to go back home where is so far from the town.Why can't they get a good rest during the holiday?All ages are among the teachers,young and a part are very old.Does it mean to tell me that teachers earn too much?or teacher are too vacancy?So boring!!!!

Men can be divided into two types:one is open-minded,the other is narrow-minded.But actually no matter which type he is,it's certain that he has his definite nice things.

The open-minded man can give you a big limit,you feel swimming in the sea or flying in the sky,and you can confide anything to him,he won't angry at you forever,just say :Never mind and nothing.After relaxing so much before him for long time,even you will ignore he is also possible to angry or unhappy.You can say aloud anything you like without thinking about him.Yeah,he never lets you think too much on him or makes you unhappy.He is so lovely and always keeps a smiling face.

The narrow-minded man is opposite.At the beginning of getting along,you may be careless at speaking and doing with him because you think he is a man who won't care much about tiny things.Yeah,from outside,he is no difference from others.But maybe one day through a tiny thing,you will change your ways of doing things with him,even you will pay more attention to the words you say to him.

This spring,I began to plant flowers in order to purify the air in the new house.However,I didn't tell my buying house to any colleagues in our office except four good friends,because I hate to send or receive money for exchange.

Once,I was so excited to find some green flowers outside teaching building.I disbranched one and planed to plant.Going back to office,one manteacher asked me for it,I said"no"with smile and explained how I was hard to get it,because of it,I cut my forehead on muricated flowers.He smiled and walked away,maybe he just wanted to make jokes.Some time later,another manteacher came up to me who is the same age as that teacher asked me for it,too.And I also smiled and refused him.But he didn't know someone had tried to ask me for it and was refused by me.He didn't appear unhappy at that moment, either.But in the later days,I found he was unhappy with me.Oh,little brother he is,so easy to be unhappy,just like a girl.In fact,he has always given me a good pression really,the best pression in all menteachers.

Since then,I tried to explain to him that I didn't give him that flower because XX had already asked me for it once and was refused by me,XX was just sitting in front of him when he asked for it.If I gave him instead of XX,XX would be hurt.Then he said:"But hurt me."

In fact,he is very a lovely guy with a short body.Because of his narrow -minded,more lovely he is.He can angry at anytime.yeah, he really looks like a child.Although,at the end of this term,I wanted to send it to him by stealthy,but he refused.Until now,I don't know whether he is still a bit angry with me or not,actually,I really didn't know he would be unhappy.Sorry.

Hope he won't be unhappy when he recalls this thing.

Staying alone is one of my ways of relaxing,think nothing,I like this kind of feeling.Before marriage,I have ever thought of how it would be if I didn't marry all my life,at that time,I couldn't get a certain answer for myself, willing but a bit afraid.

Now I have my answer now,it's that staying alone just can be the act of ephemeral and can't last long time.After busyness,to relax by staying alone by stealth.Everything is so quite,forget all worries,sometimes I feel it seems to separated from the earthliness.Maybe I am a person who likes tranquility.

Human-being can't be lonely forever.They need the same type to accompany and confide to each other,or all the thoughts of ours will change,even we ourselves can't realise ourselves one day.In fact,we each person are afraid of lonely so much,and I believe that we will be strong enough in heart if lonely isn't our enemy.Yeah,a man can suffer tiredness,but can't suffer too much lonely.Just as couples around us,most of them build their life on emotional beggar.If you ask them what the love is,I think they can't say out the feeling of love at all,just to say:couple is just to live together, solve problem together and become older and older slowly.

It's a simple answer,but that is the real life.Maybe it is the real happiness,some people think them boring and no happiness they have got,so then prefer to give up and try others.But looking back,everything has the same rule and discipline,that is to go back placidity.

These days I always think of him,where is he and how is he going on these days.He is so mysterious that he could disappear anytime.I need him-such a friend on line so much.Even I tried to send a message to him before,but no reply yet.In my guess,not because he is too busy to answer me,then because he won't attach importance to me-such a visional friend any longer. But I really need a pure-hearted heterosexual to confide and listen to each other on line.It's such simple thoughts in my mind and love nice things in the world so much.Yeah,that's because of me to lose him,however,I have just wanted to keep the friendship pure and longer.Maybe I have been in a wrong thought,but I can't change it yet.I still hope I can get imformation from him one day and wish him all luck.

He is so strange,his experience,the way of doing things and chatting.The last time of chatting with him,he said there was earthfall to his office,but his office is in Beijing,how could it be?Sometimes it made me woozy and couldn't sure whether his words were all true or not.Don't think too much,nobody only wants to chat with any heterosexual person on line for very long time and do nothing else.That is my reason indeed,but I still worry about him very much and will put him in my heart forever.He is a special person and do a big significance in my heart.

Today is the end of examination and raining again.I hate raining,but it is good for my planting indeed,thank rain,I have really taken a fancy to it.Experienced too much,I became strong in heart as well as timid,sometimes can't help worrying something.Try to loose my heart-set.Happiness belongs to me,it is also so hard to get and be held.God and father,thank you both,bless me please!I am strong outside,but very weak at heart.

Tomorrow is the start day to have a final examination for all middle school students.As a teacher--I,I am so ashamed that I spent lots of thoughts about buying house these two months.I just want to say sorry to my students,but I didn't.

These students I met this year are so good in my heart,but I say nothing before I could explain my thoughts.However,that the students nowadays are so lazy really makes me angry,why most of them have lost the interests in study?Maybe it is an easy problem,that is because most of them can't see their hope through study,Yeah,only a few students can go to a real college and get a good job.Most of their results are just to go to a factory or to be coolies.Most of classes have polarized on scores,and it is so serious.For the students who are lazy or can't study well,hope that they can learn some other skills when they grow up and can make a good living in the future.Maybe for lot of students,it is a wrong thing for them to study knowledges,they are not such good materials.Watching their painful expressions while studying,the teachers really don't know how to change them or hate them.Study should be an open gate for all the students and let all of them see their future's brightness,but the fact is not,most of them have seen their future which is not like something written in the books,in fact,so many students have given up study already!

I am happy these days,and today I bought two dress for myself again,I have thought I wouldn't buy any one,but I can't help.Maybe to save some money is my small aim for the future days,I will remember.Hehe,Chinese parents are so,I should save money for my son's future,Yeah,I should remember.But sometimes,I really yield to temptation.

Everyone has one kind of nice ideal life in their heart.Maybe he likes to live in a big or large busy city,because he likes the feel of living in developed environment,sometimes,some people can't suffer there is no sound and like to live in the place where he can buy and stroll easily.In fact,each one has different character,of course,how they choose their living environment would depend on that.

Some old man will choose villages to live,because They are quiet and fields makes them back to nature.Or some old people would think it is their best end-result for their old days.I also think that quiet living is suitable for the old and the children.

I will say I like idyllic living,too.These days of living new house made me feel I am in such feeling.I become a little crazy in planting flowers,and expect my vegetables I planted to grow,also I bought a black rabbit.I have kept a little white dog,but because it was a little hard and dirty to take care of it,I have sent it to others who could look after it well.

I like this house so much except its position,but I always think maybe it is my real house which is suitable for me.It is raining outside again,it has lasted the whole night till now.Some streets become deep holes,the whether of this year is really strange,can't it be that the god is making fun of Chinese?But it is so good for my planting,Yeah,I shoud have a look at them soon.

It is a long time these years since it rained so often.But this summer,once rain one day.It makes us really confused,after so many hardships for our China at preparing Olympic Games,why will the weather make trouble,too?Yesterday's rain was so heavy that I felt very frightened at midnight when I was waken up by the sound of the thunders.In fact,I don't like rain,snow or so on.They would make traffic hard and make my mood become bad.

The town of this morning looked so funny,there were water everywhere and the cars became boats floating on the water.From today,I will last three days to check the paper of Grade Nine.Because of sending my son to nursary school this morning,I was late for the meeting before checking paper.The task of checking is to be attached importance too much.So each of teacher attending will be very careful and had much patience.Yeah,maybe one score will make one's future different or cost the different number of money to go to a good school.

My heart is always easy to melt while checking,I always gave them a bit higher score,because I check the English writing expression.Several days later,ones will smile,while other ones will cry,the Chinese examinations are so cruel.For the weak hearts of some students,can they accept it?This is their first turning point in their life.Wish them good luck.Even if it's certain that there are many failures and blows falling on some ones,I still think it will toughen them more strong.

This year,some of my favourite students are also waiting the score of this examination.Wish them to get their ideal scores.

Yesterday,I normally came into the new house for sleep.Watching the beautiful rooms,I really like them much.Today is my husband's duty day,so I asked my sister to sleep here with us together.

  I planted some vegetables outside the gate,there is only a small part of earth for planting,I planted a few tomatos,eggplants and some seeds of cucumber....So funny,so many kinds of vegetables I have planted.But whether they would grow out or bring fruit can't be sure.Just for fun,but I still expect their growing up.I really love watching their procedure of growing.It's a kind of happiness and comfort.However the time of my planting them were a little late.Next year,I will do it in time.Yeah,tomorrow I should take a photo of the buds I planted,good thing!

  I think I should take a good rest from now to get rid of my tiredness and worries.No tiredness and no worries from tomorrow.Yeah,happiness belongs to me.From lots things I have experienced made me realise that bad moods are always ephemeral,although the sad time is so hard to spend,I understand that it's certain to solve all the problems in heart by days.Yeah,time can change everything and water anything down.Sunshine and happiness are just in front of us,to get rid of worries on our own,if not,it is also taken away by days.

  So whenever we are in trouble,don't lose heart,to put your heart well.

I am always in good mood these two days,but now I feel so sad while thinking of my father.All the things which happened are just like a dream.He is always a very traditional man,and I think he must opposite me to change our house.My ways of doing things are always different from my father's.When I think of these,I feel very sad indeed,I always think about whether my father would be angry with me in buying house,also,I have used up his money.As soon as I think of these,I feel my heart aching and no way to control.

  Dad,sorry,maybe I did one more thing you wouldn't agree with me again.You are now in the heaven,can you hear me?Please forgive me.Dad,why couldn't I happy from heart since you left me?I am always in a trouble at mood,and each corner of my heart is some sorrow.Two years passed,only those months when busy buying house,your shadow was farther from me,however,after busyness,you are always kept in my mind anytime.

  Before,when I thought of the money from you was kept somewhere in my house,I wouldn't feel well.Now,it disappeared and blended into my new house,and now,I still feel very well,either,just because I love you so much,I should try changing my all these opinions,they are so harm to my body and mind.

  I would learn to be happy again and forget all the sadness. 

 I have wanted to be fatter these years,but it becomes farther and farther to my aim.hehe,I am thiner than before.Sometimes,I really hate my ways of thinking,I always like imagining and perfect things,so I always spend too much on them due to think too much and make me thinner and thinner.Maybe it is just me,a person who always persues nice things.I won't think too much about my weight,let it be!

  These two days,I always think of my father,I don't know whether he would be angry with me because I finished spending all his money he left for me.Father's Day has passed,I don't like to hear any words about "father",nothing I can do for my dear father,only doing something for my lonely poor mom.Tomorrow is Saturday,I will see her.I have thought my mom was not important in my heart at all before,and even thought there was nothing difference in having or no having her.But now,I will be heart-hurt and always worry about her when I think of her,yeah,she is my real mother after all.Yeah,there is nobody can compare to our relations.

  While summer holiday,I will fetch my mom here in my new house,originally,I have some thoughts for her living here.so I decided to buy this house which has a small yard and one more bedroom and WC.

 Yeap!the single shortpoint of this house is next to some factories.How I wish all the trouble would be gone in soon future,or it is so perfect.Or maybe I worry too much,maybe it isn't trouble at all,yeah,I always require too much,however I have no too much money.

Listening to the songs in front of the computer,the same house colour and the same corner in the room,yeah,this is my new house,which is like my previous one too much.Two of bedrooms are the same colour as my previous ones,one is pink,the other is purple.Maybe it is just the karma to me.Recalling the difficulties we have met in buying this house,they are just like dreams with lots of hardships.So I think even if there are some things I can't be satisfied since I moved into it,I should love it and contain it.Sitting here seems at the previous home.I will be more and more familiar to it and all of worries would be gone.But I have to admit I am a willful and always lacking of considerations in life.I will be careful about it next time.

  Unluckily,we can't sure whether there is something made my son sensitive in the room or something around outside.At the first two days,we slept in the new house together,while my son always coughed,and didn't get well until he took lots of medicine.So I felt so unhappy,until now,he lives in his grandma's home instead of our new house,and every night I will stay and sleep with him together.

  In my heart,my son is the most important,these days I always blamed myself,I really don't want to do something harm to my son just because I pursue something I like.Experienced the affair of buying house and the worries I am facing really make me lowering. I feel that all family lives together quietly and happily is so nice and it is really world heaven than anything else.I realise that now indeed.

  There will never be a good answer whether what we are doing right or wrong.Only a way before you,walk straight to share each day of sunshine.

For a long time I haven't been here because of busy moving days,and until these two days,we can go on internet in the new house.

  In fact,the first time to come here,I was attracted by the beautiful decorations in the room and it is a villa in a subdistrict.But now when we moved into it,we found there were some noises around because some factories nearby.Of course,I started to worry about the air pollution around,too.It is near economic development zone.You may ask me what I am thinking at the very beginning?Yeah,at the first sight of it,I like its everything,but throw all the situation of surrounding out of mind.

  Before several days,I was in such bad mood,but my husband like it very much.He persuided me a lot and let me not to worry too much.He said the pollution here was not serious here,because nearly peripheral our town is surrounded by factories and pollution can't only be a small part.Although he persuided me a lot,my mood isn't very bright.

  Sometimes,I blamed myself that why my present mood was so different from the beginning of planning to buy it.I have no leeway at all now,just to like it and regard it as our happy nest.I don't know whether I am regretting now or not?But I am so afraid to say my rue.

To my surprise,this morning the bank informed us that they had offered loans to us.It isn't a long time at all.I was so excited that I didn't finish my class to come back.After handling all formalities at the bank.This afternoon,we,with the seller together went to the bank and put the money into his account.I originally thought today would be the date of getting the keys,and only ten thousand yuan isn't paid.I hoped that he could give us the keys and I give one ten thousand yuan,then all things will be complete.But the other side said that he hadn't moved their things from the house away yet.

Although I was very worried and there is white and black words in the agreement,but I couldn't make a mess of things.But that old man is so terrible and didn't give us an exact date to move out,only said he would be quick.I don't know whether I should ask for my right according the agreement or kind manners are the best.

At last,I chose to wait for two days,that is until Thirsday.I hope all things could go on luckily.

I know god and father are helping me every minute,when I think of the experience of buying this house,it seems a miracle indeed.Thank you!Now,I feel me lucky indeed.

The rest things are giving keys and moving.,eventually,I can give some smiles.

 How I beg the bank could offer loans to us before this Thirsday,because This Thirsday is likely the date of moving out of my house.So we have already packed all the things in our house.God can give me a hand again?I hesitate to moving out,it seems that I am in mid sky and so sad to be apart of it.Yeah,I will cost some more money to beg the other side to allow us to stay a little longer in this house.

  We have trusted a person who is my best friend's family's friend working in the bank to give us some help at loaning.I believe he will do.Today is Monday,only three days left,originally it will be a happy time to get the loan and then move into a new house to start our life,however,I am not happy ideed.It's also a time to say goodbye to my original house.We experienced too much hardships during buying this house,I guess maybe it would also bring some trouble or unluck things in the end.But I always keep thinking it's all luck if we can get this house this month.All trouble won't matter at all only if good result belongs to us.

 Children's Day has passed,no mood to celebrate for my son or give him any present.But no problem,after moving,I will give my son a big surprise to make up all my carelessness to him these days.Sometimes,I imagine the nice coming summer holiday,playing with my son in that small yard,let him swim in a water pool in it,and bring my mother to spend time with us together.When night falls,we can go out for a walk facing cool winds.But I am still a little afraid,afraid of my dream's failure.yeah,don't think too much,both of good things and bad things,let them be!

  Maybe all of things are on the right path,merely I think too much and worry too much.Waiting...

Worrying and thinking of the house is the main topic in my mind.It seems nothing else can effect me to get rid of them from heart.Also seemed no good topic to update my blog.Today I went to my sister's and mother's homes and chatted with my sister very happily although raising old questions again,but still I felt some warmth from her.When I first mentioned about my buying house today,she was opposited to me which made me at ease.Yeah,I really look forward to each of members'supports in my family.

I am such a person who always likes new things and most like to possess the most beautiful house as my home.Home is so important for me of course including house we live.A few days ago,I asked my husband what we should do if we lost our home just in case there was something wrong during these days of buying house.He said:" There are family,there is home,our living together is the most important instead of living in the best house.After his words,I seemed to know more about the word"home".Yeah,each of relatives is absolutely necessary,without good house,there still will be happiness.

I am sitting here again to say to myself what I want to say.I more and more realise it is such a good thing I can self-confide,there is still a small space for me to open my the door of heart.So quiet and placid,whenever I am whiny,after confiding here,all of bad moods would go back to usual.

Several days,no music here for some reason which I didn't know.But now,I am listening it again,the blue song makes him come to my mind.Where is he now?How is going on these days?Has he solved all his problems yet?I have no answers to them as well.My lucky star disappeared?I really want to get contaction from him,Yeah,maybe he will appear when I need him next time.

I have always been such worrying,fretful and black days recently,the trouble from buying house,the earthquake.Also I felt something wrong with my some part of body made me so pessimistic those days,but today sunshine seems on me,because just now I have seen a doctor and was sure that there was no big matter with my body,only a foible.I become very happy now and look forward to the new start of living in soon days after moving.

I am a person who is always afraid of seeing doctor,the hospital is a so terrible place for me.Maybe everyone will have the same thought.But my husband me advised me to accept treatments at the earlist time whenever we don't feel well or find somethings strange and special things on our bodies.He told me that being treated in time was the most important thing at illness.At last I agreed with him,his words are very right.Illness will change to complicated from simple,also from an indisposition to a serious one if it isn't treated at the very beginning.So this morning,I asked for a time off after I had given my lessons to students and went to the hospital alone.Luckily,there were only a few patients waiting in the office,also,a woman doctor who knows me helped me have a check successfully without complicated formalities.Yeah,I cherish life so much now,there are too many things which people can't afford or suffer.Good luck to everyone all those kind-hearted living people in the world.

I am really happy now,although sandstorm is blowing outside,there is so much dust on the ground in our house.I am very sorry for no cleaning our house carefully recently.I will say goodbye to this house which I bought with experiencing a lot trouble as well and also took a lot of trouble to decorate 5 years ago.

Yeah,before moving out of this house,I will do once good cleaning.

These days I had no time to come here to update my blog because we needed to accompany my husband's father for my husband's mother's going out.The old man has been in illness but with a very good mind-set which nobody can compare with.

The days with the most worrying hearts have eventually passed at buying house.Last week the other side signed the house over to us,but we still haven't got the house certificate.Maybe the coming moving day is just the day when we can get it.I count the days of moving house every day,maybe in about three weeks or two weeks.I expect that day so much.

I also hope the date of moving out of the old house is just the one of moving into the new one,or we have to move to a temporary place to wait.Yeah,the affair of buying house will finish in soon days,but the last important things are waiting for offering loans and giving us the key.I hope both of them could be finished successfully at last.

Why did I say these?because there have been some divergences between both sides while dealing with it.Through those,I realised that it is so hard to come into contact with the people in the society.I felt very tired in mind and very sleepy.

Above all,I have set half of my mind at rest.Thank you,god and father,I know you are helping me every minute.Yeah,Dad,you will give me a hand no matter whenever I am in trouble,because I know you love me.God,I know since I came to this world,you always send sunshine to me,every terrible can be changed to better.

Nothing can be say out to express all of words from my heart.