These days,I recalled something of ten years ago.When I was in school,in the foreign language school,I have ever fallen in love with a boy secretly who was also from the same county as me.At that time,I would always have him in my mind.That was a kind of pure affection.One of my best friends told him about it.But I didn't get a good anwer.The anwer was not like what I had ever expected.

In fact,I had no extra thoughts,only wanted to let him know I like him.Never thought of being in love or marriage was more impossible.But I really want his real anwer.He only told me that he would go on studying after graduation.I am always an intractable girl,I won't accept a person who doesn't care about me much,either.So we have never contact with each other beside those few words.In the end,when I was leaving that school,I asked a good friend to send my letter to him,nothing on it but some wishes.Soon,that friend asked me to go downstairs to meet him.I looked down from upstairs,there he was standing.I said no,I refused to meet him.Because I won't choose a person who doesn't like me,or even if he likes me,I won't accept a galoot,either.Indeed I have been such a person.That was end in school.

When I chose which place to start my job after graduation,I didn't go to the school which he was possible to work in the next year.So I decided to choose another school.

But about ten years later,in order to work near my own home.I was transferred to another school.In fact,I have already been several schools.When I stepped into the office in that school,I really got a start for seeing him sitting in the same office.Days later,I knew that originally,he was transferred this school at the same time as me.So funny!

Of course,he couldn't appeal to me now.I have no interests or any other feeling on him.Only I have thought was that I didn't want any other colleague know anything between us,hehe,as it is,there is nothing indeed at all.Until now,he and I still work in the same school,but different office.

During the later days working in the same office with him,I got to know that he had already divorced for two years until then.I was very surprised about that,too.And I knew that his the condition of his family was bad as well.Through longtime's getting long with him,in fact,he is not such a good person as good impression which gave me in the school.At then,I realised that all of my thoughts were untrue,which was made up by myself.But up to now,I still haven't known about his real thoughts about me.It is really a pity that I met him again,I always think it would be better if he always pressed me well in my heart.Although in my heart,he is still a bit special not like the common colleagues in my eyes.But back to the reality,all are so different.

I always think it not my first love,no start,no end,just a kind unrequited love.I always like recording all my true feeling and thoughts at any time,if they are precious.But the diary about him has already been tore up.However,I have still kept a diary,that is my first love.

  The professor liked to blend his theory into the ture experience and stories,and then we must have a good thinking of them,or we can get nothing but some jokes and smiles.Once he told us the trouble which they always met was how to make all attend their lectures and reach on time.Too few people really want to learn something from the speech,most of people won't like to do that in such hot weather.He told us some experience about this problem which happened in the city.   

  "That morning,the time of leacture was 8:00--11:30,then in the middle,there would be a break.I reached the hall before 8:00,but I found that there was only a few person there,I stood at the door to welcome the teachers,near that school was a big market.At 8:00,the teachers came forward to the hall one after the other,suddenly I opened my eyes wide in surprise:Some of them were holding a basket over their arm,oh,this is speech hall,not vegetable market,I know that they would run away when the break time or under the cover of going to WC to the market,until 8:30,there were only half full in the hall.But  time was limited,I began to trickle out,I said:'Today is my first time to give you lecture,and I wanna to change some rules,in order to not to waste your time,the mid break time will be cancelled,we can end the lecture at 11:00 in advance,you all know that there is going to be a examination to you at the ending of lecture,but I will have a little change. Now,I will give all of you the test paper,and we can put learning and testing at the same time,after the leature,don't forget to hand in your test paper....' just here,many teachers took out their phones to make phone calls to their colleagues who didn't come.My god,not more than half an hour,the hall was full,no one was absent.Then I began to give my speech formally.When we said goodbye at last,many teachers smiled and came forward to me asked:'TeacherX,your leacture is so great!....'  "

  I got too much laugher and sense from his speaking,I even carried out some ways of his teaching which fits me in my work,and got a good result.I thanked him too much,I learned that if we want to hold somebody,the first thing we should understand is what thing their real favourites or real fear are.

  The year before last,I also attended a training taught by three professors,it was also about Reform of New Course,and one of them was excellent and very humorous.  Original bald contents were transformed into interesting things.I think this method is called:深入浅出.His theory was learned easily by us,it seemed that we were listening to jokes.His lecture capacity crowded,His lecture on the first day,the person who didn't attend heard the news that there was a good professor teaching here,then all of them came to listen,of course later, no one was absent.When I came back to my home ,I would retell some to my family.Although it was too hot,but all of us like him too much,here are some snippets,although I have aready forgotten too much.

  When he would talk about teachers should respect students instead of hurting them,even if the bad words,he told us one of his son's stories.yeah,too many true things he told us.

  He began:"One day,I found my little son was upset,I asked him what was wrong with him,he disliked to say out at the beginning,at last,he told me it was about his teacher."

  Go on:"那天,下课铃响了,这时,语文老师站在门口 喊:"谁的作业没交啊?快点."下节课就是语文,他忘了他交了还是没交,就打开书包找,一会上课了,老师讲课时,看我儿子还在翻书包,大喊:"你在作什么?"  "我在找作业".  "你真不像话,上课找作业,到楼道找去!" 我儿子就到楼道,把所有的书本全倒到地上,蹲着找. 可找着找着,突然想起,交给课代表了啊,忙到教室门口:"报告,我想起来了,我交了."  "是交了吗?"老师问课代表,  "有,找到了"课代表翻着本说.  老师说:"那 进来吧,自己交没交都不知道,真是 老年痴呆!"

  "我立刻明白了老师的话伤害了我的儿子,我把儿子拉过来,轻轻摸着他的头发,突然发现了一根....白发."

  This was one snippet,in order to express it clearly and today's too long,I wrote it in Chinese,I know the the effections of writing here and told by the professor in person  are quite different.Until now,I can't forget him and his method of teaching.From him I learned too much,since then,I understand what the real teaching is.For teaching,attracting listeners is most important and most difficult,other sides are all less important.Of course,the teacher must be a person of profound learning to make listeners admire,in fact,the most importance is to possess personhood charm or attractive ways of teaching.He was just a man having all these,it was a pity that his lectures only last for three days.Compare with him,the other two professors were rather tame,and had some unhappy things during the speech.So at last,I learned a sentence: As a teacher or speaker,never to blame listeners or students for no interests on your course.

  One morning class,i was late,i am hardly late for the morning lesson which are very early to all teachers and students.When i entered the classroom and said:" Oh ,sorry,i am late,do u want to know the reason?"  "Yeah,we'd love to,"  all students were so excited,and held up their ears listened to me so carefully.

  "Yesterday,i came across some foreigner musicians' names,i couldn't understand them,but today i need them to do exercises with u,(i am always so honest,hehe),then i decided to took the book home to look them up on internet.It's very luck that i got all their meanings and copied them on the book,but i didn't put it into my bag at once,i wanted to do it the next day morning.when got up the next day too early,then i rode to school so slowly and sang songs in my heart,but suddenly,what happened?Do u know?"   "We knew that u forget to carry the book,hehe".

"Oh,u are too cute,yeah,i forgot,i turned bike back,and rode fast to reach my home again,parked my bike,ran upstairs in my the fastest speed,and rushed into my room to put my book into my bag,then 'Pang' closed my door and ran downstairs.The winter's weather was so cold,But when i was about to start,oh,what things happies again? can u guess?"   "We don't know."   "i left one of gloves in my room again."  "Hahahahhaha".   "But there was little time left,so i only could ride to school with one glove."   "Hahaha"the students laughed so spicily.

  I like to bring more joys to my students,in this way,we can have harmonious and happy atmosphere,although it would show the satire of myself,never mind,give them a little enjoyment during learning dull knowlege.

A lot of person like raising some pets or some other living things.Now i hardly do those things,because they have the same lives as  human-being's,but their lives' length are much shorter and weaker than ours.It makes me perfer loving and feeling pity on them to feeling that on man.But the only result from them is sadness,which is like the pain from losing good friends.Death and disappeared are the only results from them,i only can have sadness.

when was young,i have raised a nice dog once,and a nice cat once,at last they were all lost,since the cat has gone,i cried for several days.From then on,i have never raised any animals.

But when i saw the little chick were being sold,i couldn't help buying three ones five years ago.I forgot the unfit weather for the chicks,and at last although i tried all my best to treat them well,they left me one by one,i buried them one by one,i cried again.I told myself again never do that again.Until two years ago,i bought two chicks again,after raising about a month,one day i found they didn't look so spirit as before.I worried about them everyday,i was so afraid of seeing their death by my own eyes,so i thought of a good idea,yeah,the next day,i tried to find a nice strange grandma on a road and sent them to her.She had a countryard in her home,i thought she could raise them well.Oh,last year,i bought two again,because i put so much attention to them,and they grew so well,but i was so busy,at last ,i asked my younger sister to take them to my grandma in the country,until now ,one of them was still alive,and can lay eggs.I am so happy to hear that.But this year,i met the bad luck,two chicks  all died during a night.I won't cry again.but so sorry to them.Although they weren't bought by myself ,instead of sending to me by others.This is the last time,i am sure.I dislike crying,tears seldom belong to me since i was small,only a few times.Anything won't make me cry much.Sometimes i fear emotions a little,Living things possess emotions ,while emotions bring the living things pains.

  I still remember the happy days in school. At that time most of the lessons we took are about english.One day,our teacher came into the classroom with a book when the bell rang.She said nothing but saying"recite these proverbs,give u one class' time to recite them,next class i will ask somebody to recite to all class,no reminding." Then she wrote them on the blackboard,"Oh god,too many",at last,we counted them ,the number of them was over 40 all together."too difficult,no reminding,hehe?".No one wanted to waste time,all of them sorted out the proverbs in the same way,that was to put the proverbs together which had the same  beginning  letter ,to avoid leaving any one.Then they nestled their head to recite them hard.So big noise!and look at the mess on blackboard,I almost had headache.No a better way to finish teacher's task?we knew that each proverb was easy to recite,but if asking us recite them all at one time,it was hard.I didn't want to sort out the proverbs like them.Too boring and hard to recite. How interesting all the student reciting faces were!Yeah,i got one.

  The next day,at the beginning of the class,the teacher called someone to recite them,I was so nervous,"no calling me."said to myself.The first student who was called  stammered to say out all of them,sometimes the teacher had to give  her some help.yeah,the second one is me,I made a great courage,then i had a look at the first student in the first line,said out the first proverb,  then the second student, the second proverb,the third...my speaking was so fluently,all of them were so surprised,the number of the proverbs and the students were nearly equal,only one left,of course,i added it on our teacher.when i said the last proverb,i turned my face to my teacher,she opened her big and astonished eyes stared at me.Of course i finished my recitation very successfully by my own.In the end ,teacher asked me about my method.I told them" According to your each character or appearance to add a suitable one on each of u,hehe.""oh,hehe,so interesting."and after class, most of them jumped on me,"tell me,which one did u add on me?"they want to knew which proverb i added on them,but they placed me in a very difficult position,if i added a bad meaning proverb on someone,how could i tell him or her,they would beat me up.hehe,i only told some of them and i still remembered the proverb which i added on me was: Who is happy ,who is in content.

  When i was young,my school was about 1 kilometre away from my home,i had no bike at that time,i almost walk to school everyday.A man teacher who has been my father's classmate in the high school taught me Grade 4.He was so strict that everyone was afraid of him too much,especially me.In those days,my school were being rebuilt,all of the students must do the same hard work besides studying,no matter boys or girls.

  One day,before ending the class,he told us to bring bricklayer's cleaver to school that afteroon.After school,when i got home,there was no bricklayer's cleaver,i asked for it from others,but no one has it.Then i only could go to school without one.When i got to school,all of them had one except me.My teacher saw this,angry with me and said aloud:"go back to borrow one","but i have had my try"."Go back".I said nothing,then ran back home alone again.But i still had no ways to borrow one,when i was so worried and sitting in my home,i saw the kitchen knife,and i thought of some classmates brought the old kitchen knife,too.Athough my home's is new,that's a good idea.I took it and ran fast out of the countryyard,at the same time,my grandma through the window saw me running and carrying a kitchen knife.She was too surprised and too worried and ran after behind me.shouted aloud:"what are u going to do?" "To work at school"."Come back"!"No".Hehe,she followed me for a long way,but she was old ,at last ,she stopped chasing me.

  I was not blamed again,we were busy with fixing the bricks for a whole afternoon.I worked so hard,at the ending of the work ,i found my knife had a big nick.Now i am a teacher now,the students are quite different from the ones before,so ignorance , simplicity or foolish?

  One early morning,I was waken up by a phone call.The other side notified me that I failed the teacher's exam and had to take a make-up exam .My god ,Was it true? How come.No good ways but revised hard for some days.

The exam came,it was a cold morning in winter.I got up very early and hurried to the exam hall,oh ,dear,so many teachers there,most of them were trying to find their last scores in a crowd.I had an insane desire to  know it too.Luckily i was very tall and thin,then i elbowed so easily,Oh,I failed in the drawing part , not english part.I was too surprised ,i was very good at drawing,how come.

when the new paper was in my hand,i saw the drawing part carefully,It turned out i saw the title wrongly,simple drawing but substantial drawing.Hehe,How careless i have been,but finally i had honor again .Then i finished it in the shortest time.

An woman teacher asked me for a help,oh,She was that teacher who sat beside me at the last time  and  copied me a lot,even the drawing.Hehe,I spent much time to help her and got too much complimentson,so happy i was.

Then i left there to another school to get somehthing.I still felt the complimentson in my mind.When i passed a car which parked beside the road,the car's door was opened suddenly.Oh ,i was knocked heavily by the door   and it made my four limbs  onto the ground.i almost knew nothing about what happened.i tried to stand up quickily.Two person went out of the car and asked me if i was fine.I said I was still fine.Some hurt in some part,but i was sure nothing serious.Then went ahead ,but soon i found that my new trousers had a hole.when i went back to look for that car,it has already disappeared,Hehe,so quickily.

Such a terrible day just because of my carelessness.But i was still.I often told my students the stories about my carelessness to warn them not to be.They laughed a lot,their happiness are mine too.