I have read haihaibs' article just now.A lot of thoughts occurred to me.Although I know very little about politics of each country.Lots of people like to compare our country to other country.Our country is a developing country,in the face of those developed country,much pressure is in front of us,some comments about our country from their mouths sometimes would make us farmisht.Sometimes we would doubt whether we are impressed deeply by educated at early age, which sent too much words of praise to our ears,what on earth is our country like?It's certain that each country will educate all of the people of their country to love her.In our early hearts,China has been a kind big family with enough kindness and doughtiness.

In fact,a country is just like a person,who always has both relatives merits.The importance is how to think of them.But the most important is to get rid of shortcomings to make more and more progress.Of course,leaderships are performing the most important roles.Having good leadships is our happiness and luck.But what unadvantages are there in a country?In a way,unadvantages may just be a kind of advantages.

Managing a country is just like in charge of a class with lots of students in it.The same justification they are!Lots of people from western country say that there is no human rights in our China.But what on earth is the real human right?No certain regulations.In fact,in all of humans' deep heart are full of lusts and evils in this money world.When in charge of a class,it is a clever decision to make strict rules for students.Maybe it is a bit uncomfortable for some students,but the class would be charged of very well by this.A good class can train lots of excellent students.Oppositely,if in a unconsolidated one,what would the students be like?The students will bring lots of requirements to make the teacher headache,however they would think them all earned,all of those should be agreed,or they will angry with teachers and be impolite.Yeah,they learn to haggle over price.

That's the truth,complete different reactions from a same group of students facing different teachers is the fact.We have to admit that different managements bring different effections.Sometimes we really like students to accept drilling education.

So for countries,I think saty and powerfulness are the most important things.Only in a safe country,people can live restfully with a good mind-set and try to make more greater developing.

Some more restrictions to its people are necessary in a country,there's no doubt.Of course,many people from other country is always gazing at these unadvantaged and try to waver our love to our country.Don't care too much about other country's high living level.It is so happy that we are always been a safe country no wars happening for many years.So we should be content.Don't always gaze at others' advantages,while looking at our shortcomings.But still something should be done to our country,why are there no enough inspection mechanisms to deal with so many malfeasants,it really effects much general mood of society.Too much unfairness in society make people get mad.

I am sure that the nice women in men's eyes are also women's favoured.

At first,she is educated,and has a kind-heart.But she is never inquisitive to others' affairs.

Second,she has a good mind-set,never have hemorrhage in public and never appears her jealousy.She is brave,but never publicize for showing her ability or beauty.

Third,she always says at the right time and makes no noise,never makes others be in a tumultuous passion.The things she gives others the most is smile.

Fourth,in the face of the old and some person need to protect,she always does well in humility.Her behaviours are also so polite.

Fifth,when coming across something terrible,someone treats her bad,although she is always good to the people around her.She would stand up and say aloudly about her justifications.

Sixth,she is so leniently and undividely to face her love while in love affair.But she would be away without a word when her lover doesn't love her again.

Seventh,she always likes reading to enrich herself.She has her own job and never depends on others too much. She always keeps her own thoughts on looking at thing things with wide heart.

Eighth, she knows much about romantic,and can give others surprises.She has a fertile imagination and makes her house just like nice dream place.

Ninth,she needn't to be surprising beauty,but she must know how to be pretty well.Each day of seeing her,she always be bright spot.Also,she will pay attention to health.

Tenth,she will treat her parents well,in her heart,trying to take good care of her parents is her original duty since she came to this world.But in future,she won't require her child to do anything as a mother.That is the greatness of a woman.

Of course,different favourite types are not the same!Yeah,I also try to do as these.

 

 

 

I can hear the sounds of time's passing by me every day. A day is running faster than another,can't hold anything.Everyday to do the definite a few things well,then reading is most necessary thing for me.Yeah,learning is endless,but forgetfulness is more serious.

In one class given a few days ago,I asked my students whether they had known I had a son.They said yes.Then I told them that one of my wishes was that I would let my son learn two kinds of foreign languages when he grows up.So I wanted to read more English books and then I could be his best partner in learning English.We will touch hands to make progress.Learning is an interesting thing,not a boring thing,try to love it and try to find real joyfulness from it,then you can understand my saying.Yeah,having books your favourite,you never feel loneliness.To rich our mind with knowledges,won't feel fickleness from deep heart.When they heard these,they were so quietly listening,maybe they could understand some of those words.And then,we have a harmonious class.

That's really a nice plan,maybe when I become a granny,I still practise speaking English with my grandson.haha.

I always complain the time's fast passing by and limilted time to read or to share.Sometimes feel very tired,really want to sleep and don't wake up.Maybe most of people are all in sub-health,me too.I should do more exercise everyday then have good spirit to read books.The effection isn't good while reading,need to change a bit.

Nowadays,many Chinese people desire the life outside their country,especially go to the western countries.It really becomes lots of people's dream and so hard to reach.

Our China is Communist Party,while those developed countries are democratic.In the face of those two political parties.Different people have differents thoughts on them.

In fact,those two political parties both have their own advantages and disadvantages,just like all of things on the earth with two sides.

If one person really yearns towards to have an open living environment,not only at sexuality but also thoughts on things.He must eager to live in the western country.Of course ,there living conditions and chances of getting jobs are so many.Living there,there's no need to thinking much how others think.There,no real strange things in people hearts,only fresh,irritative and obtaining enjoyment.In those countries,the human rights are emphasized aloud everyday,each person pays attention to their real feeling and the living way of being themselves.Maybe it would feel a bit cold between individuals emotions.

However in China,so many traditions effect our lives.If we want to be a so called "kind-person",so many loath things need to do and do anything so carefully.There are the aged above and little kid below us,this situation should take up the longest period in whole life for us.The happiness of people is so weak in our China.As it is,not because of Chinese people's frailness,frailness is the same on all humans in the world,oppositely, just because too many traditions and public opinions around us in life would make us can't breath in China.

With age,the things are more fussy and more misunderstood by me.That is the "Mendacious Social Relationship",Yeah,China is regarded as one of  countries with most emotions between individuals,for it has such a long history.For years,big families appeared with lots of relatives full of affections. Now,there will be less and less big families,but the tradions have been handed down.In this case,so many cacoethic affairs are seen everywhere.

For example,giving money as returns and presents is a serious thing in life.Of course,marriage is exciting and the happiest time to let people keep it in memory,we like to enter such a nice atmosphere and send in our best wishes and "money" to as our presents.But if in the face of moving house,one's death,kid's entering college and visiting patient,we also need to give money.How do you think of if?You may say that we can buy some flowers and other ture presents to send to the other side.If that's the case,others would see you as a strange person or think whether we are sick?

All the interpersonal relationships need money to maintain.That is one reason why leaders here are so easy to get rich.Haha,If only his mother's death,it will bring him a large amount of fortune.This is the real social phenomenon.

For most of ordinary people's come-and-go dealing things in life,who will obtain  the most benefit at last?That is restaurant,yeah,Most of he money received would be sent to the restaurants for a big meal together.That is why restaurant here is so prosperous.Yeah,there is only one or two person who don't do the same things as other doing in our school.Of course,it brought them lots of bad comments and lost good interpersonal relationship.What world is this?Yeah,that is caused by Chinese full of human emotions.

China is full of human emotions,could it be those mendacious emotions?Simply because of those mendacious emotions,bringing us so many worriments.There are many people being in the trouble of money strain caused by such things in life and complain much everyday.

Maybe nobody can spring it these years yet.Such affairs are becoming more and more serious at present.

The people in western country would laugh at us if after watching this and feel us so funny.Yeah,it is truely funny indeed.All of the people are trying to do the things which would make others speak highly of them.Yeah,only live for others.So lamentable!

Try thinking first what I do it for before you do something.Then you find that you are not you yourself.Are the things you really want to do?

But I can say that not all the things done mendaciously by us are for our own benefits and honors,some are for our family's nowadays life and the future.So that is our Chinese people who have much responsibilities.Yeah,not only laws limite our behaviours,the traditions do a lot to us as well.So When we do things,we always think for others first more or less.That is also Communist Party's calling for.

Domocratic Party more calls for the individual's feeling and rights.

Therefor,I can't say which is better between Communist Party and Democratic Party.Yeah,there are too many things we can't explain clearly.

When I was in school,once I watched a play called A Person Who is With the Cover On.It impressed me a lot.With 30 years' life,I have found the Chinese people are really just like the role in the play,maybe including myself as well.

Especially in some town or village,the people's ways of living can't be imagined by others living outside.Most people there always follow the ways of others' living around them. Once they strayed from others, they must feel upset just like losing the certre of gravity.

Some examples below:

Seeing others' early marriage.I should marry early,or no better one left for me when I am older.

Seeing others' baby's born.I should have one,too.Because if having no baby for a long time,would others think something wrong with me?

Seeing others' son's born.Why didn't I have a son as well to carry on the Stewart time?Moreover,if I had a son,then I would have a dependence on my son when I am at old age.

Those are very funny examples,but they indeed appears in the town and villages.I am not living in the big city,I can guess there wouldn't be so traditional and absurb.I sometimes think them too foolish,even look down on them who keep these thinkings.

One of my younger sisters from my uncles' families married at her very early age,and she now is living near the town.Can you imagine that she has ever abortted for three times just for one son.In fact,she already has a 3- year-old daughter now.This year,she is just 26.

I have another younger sister from my uncle.She has a quite different situation.She is working hard in Beijing,now she is 27 without boyfriend yet.Of course at the beginning she began to enter the big city alone with some dreams in her heart,although most of things not only her job but also her marriage hasn't stabilized yet so far.She sometimes told me that she didn't know whether to continue her such a life.But I always encouraged her, at least there is hope and target in her heart to chase.I think she will be lucky in the future.These two ways of living,I prefer the second one.Although she always have to face many troubles and pressures from her family or surroundings,for she has nothing steady now.

In addtion:

If having a son just for a dependence or a honor,however killed two poor babies in belly.How would he treat his parents when he came into this world and after grown-up?When he think of his coming just for his parents' dependence or a honor,how would he think of that?So terrible! 

 

Everyday,while listening to others' judgements on someone's doing,they all showed out their own opinions with two words:right and wrong.I thought them very funny.Do they have a mind just like pair of scales?As a man,we are all a unity,with many different ideas on the same things caused by different family background, life experiences and their own characters.While they were saying out their opnions,how positive they were!In fact,they didn't realise all of their thoughts had been effected by China tradition cultures and their own way of doing things.I think they should add this sentence:"If in the old China" ,"In our China,we should."or "If it were me..." before they want to show their thoughts.

My god!They are saying the things which they feel right,while whether it is right or not can be proved by nobody.The more funny thing is whether they would do it as the way of they saying can't be made certain by themselves,either.

In the face of the same thing,even the opinions among different people are so far. Some people's right thoughts thought by them maybe are regarded as wrong one in others' minds.That is just like cooking,how to cook depends on their own taste,not others.So we needn't critize others by our opnions,and different ways are from different reasons of their own.

Saying no any criticalness is also my aim in life in future time.Saying more criticalness words is certain to give oneself a dinifit limited in doing the same thing.Moreover,there is no real anything right or wrong,it is usually caused by different years and ages of ours and cultures.Just do the things what you feel it right,not to pay too much attention to others' thoughts and comments.

No absolute standard for doing the things rightly at all.In life,understanding more is the most necessary for us.We shouldn't always say "our own general principles".

In face of other person around me are so easy for me to devide them into like or dislike in my mind.While even if before the person I hate,I won't show it out.I like peace atmosphere all the time,so I can get on well with others,moreover I won't let anything outside without relationship effect my mood and work.I feel the outside person fauser and fauser with age,that is maybe the worries of age's growing,the more I know,while the more I hate and see through.

Sometimes I ask myself whether I am fictive as well as those I hate in life?Later I thought it back that I shouldn't be a cold-feeling person,so I need to disguise myself with warmth dealing with others.Try to give the other side more help and concerns.

Am I a kind-hearted person?I always asked myself such a question?One sentence says in China,that is human is kind-hearted originally from being born.In fact,maybe it is just opposite.With lots of camouflages,nobody can't see through anyone's essence,moreover,only in facing of dangers and disasters can they be seen through.I like to help others with some small things I could do,but once the thing ranged over my benefits or my family's,of course I won't do it.Because I deeply know that happiness life is so hard to possess,also it is really hard to maintain.As a result,I think myself a selfish person.

Once someone shows unfriendly to me,then I won't give her a warm-heart.I always think I could live as well as before without her in the world,then I won't ignore her any longer,see her as air.But I will remember the person who has been treatig me well or having done good help to me.I will always keep them in my mind and to payback them if having chance.

Am I steady person in love?It is really hard to say so.I am sure I have a varietal heart because I am a lovey and dovey person from heart,although I am never thought  to be as such a person in others' eyes,with always quiet and decent aspect.I always think that I would change a lot not present aspect if having another piece of soil.

In fact,I like the life of varying too much.I always do things as the way in others' eyes every day,of course got much praised by some person often and also got much content myself in heart.

While it is not exactly what I want,for I like a open world,a real freedom world.Maybe I am too idealisation in life,while it's my real minds.

  Today,we spoke of divorcement in the office.That is a very serious topic,even though so many such things happied in every country,and the rate of divorments are increasing greatly in our China.

Of course,in each marriage,we mustn't optionally mention divorcement to our lovers,for that is a serious hurt to each other.My opinion is we can divorce optionally if having no kid.Marriage certificate is just a piece of waste paper before having no baby,however, when we have child who are given birth by us,its meaning is of great significance and difference.From then,we three would form a real family,each one including not only husbands but also wifes must be responsible for all things in marriage,especially for kids.

The purest hearts are kids',once they are hurt from their parents breaking up,then no way to make them up.Maybe some people say that many kids nowadays are quite open-minded dealing with such a thing.But who on earth knows about the real thoughts in their heart?When they face all the disasters which are brought from their parents,how much complainment and depression appear from the base of heart.What made such a thing which is not a serious thing originally become a huge disaster in front of many kids.I must say that is caused by "society environment"and"earthliness".

Why did I say it is originally a simple and not a serious thing,because the kids from broken families all still have the original mother and father,the only difference is not to live together.At many parts,they can also recieve real cares from their parents,their parents will love them as before even more.However at last,all kids will still be hurt much and even it changes all their minds in living and all their life.They are so innocent for their short coming to this world.Why shouldn't they hate their parents?If it were me,I would indeed.

If no responsibilities,please don't have any kids.All kids are not just a kind of creature,they are real angels with purest,lovely and full effections.I don't know why I will be so angry when I think of all those kids hurt.All of those terrible things are all caused by foolish,selfish and graceless parents.I hate them too much just like the kids hurt by them.Especially when I heard neither of parents wanted the kid after they broken up,oh,my god,are they still human-being?NO,I can be sure of that,they will be punished heavily for doing such awful things one day.

Tell all those women who wants a kid now,if you like kids indeed from heart,also,you have enough preparations to pay all of yours on your future's baby,please do.If you just want to have a baby for your husband's family or just for doing the same things just as all other families and can't stand to be laughed at because of no babies,please not.

As a mother or father,be sure not to do such terrible things to your baby,using your happy to exchange your baby's pains is not the right thing we should do as the person who gave them life.

These two days,the friends around me began to attach importance to their appearances,for spring comes with the moods' changement.My age is nearly in middle of theirs,so we should be at the same age.Maybe because of the dry weather and the strong winds of spring,they found they had many problems in skin,of course,some come with age. 

Wherever,cosmetics are so attrative to all woman including me.In face of many different kinds,which kind to choose became a problem among them.It is certain that most of them prefer the ones which are more expensive,but for the poor salary of each teacher,how can they decide to buy them?Bluntly to wash out that idea.

They are so hesitate in choosing,they read the instructions so carefully.Once in a while,someone shout aloud:oh,this is better in functions and a bit cheaper....even someone couldn't make up her mind which kind to buy the whole afternoon with a introducing book in her hands.And someone's decisions would be changed for many times a day.It is really interesting and funny.Sometimes,we can find out one's character through such a small thing. 

At last,I said:"Haven't you found those directions of each product are quite familiar?"Yeah",they agreed.I went on saying:" In fact,there won't be any thing which is perfect without any weakpoint.The better one will be much expensive,but it can't be regarded to be no a bit harm,maybe the most expensive things thought as the best thing by us would do most harm to us.

Yeah,where is the perfect thing or person in the world?None exists anytime or anywhere.There is no absolute standard for beauty,goodness and badness.It is too hard to measure a person which kind he is,and in any case how to distiguish the mixed things?Some things are good in current time,but it is not necessarily so forever,maybe quite contrary.

The most effectual cosmetics in soon time would hurt our kin most in long time,while the one which we feel no effects are maybe the most ones and do best for our skin in the future.The ones close to the perfect with less shortcoming must be too expensive we can't afford. That is why selections in life are so hard for us just like choosing cosmetics here.

I can say that the nicest things in the world would have most shady side.Such as, love and relations.

Love is so nice and makes everybody chase it hard even all life,but the pains brought to us by it also makes us can't breath.

Relations are so closest to us and so important for us,when we are unhappy and in difficultis,they will come to us at the first time and give us the biggest help,even their life.But when we lose them on Earth,it will bring us the biggest pains which we can't discribe.

Yeah,everything has two sides,the nicest thing for us maybe become the most terrible thing,and we can get or learn some from those terrible things,that is our life,all of those are caused that we have feelings.

Sometimes I feel a bit tired in the environment of working,and painstakingly to seek joys for myself. In order to get enjoyment,I have to disguise myself and try to adapt to others.

Sometimes I am so bored about the topics or the things they are talking about,however I still say something close to their talking.I don't know whether my doing is right or not,or there is no real answer at all.I know that I don't want to be isolated,also don't like to be a person who is hard to get on with or contact.

Even if these,I still enjoy quietness and dislike any boring conversations.Of course,they are completely opposite.Yeah,I can't live only in the world of my own.Sometimes I noticed some teachers say few words seated in the office quietly,they are so lovely indeed.In face of so many vainglorious women and boring topics,I feel those a few teachers who have never entered into comments of others easily, their smiles are so sincere without any words.

I should learn from them.To be a person who can find joys from quietness and loneliness.I am sure that they are not really loneliness in heart,just for they have realised the real importance,the real enjoyment and the real aim of their life.Yeah,that is.I will learn to be mellow one,too.

I found I had changed a lot as before,not only my minds,but also my heartworld is so different from before.Perhaps I have seen through too many things,also it has two sides,one is bad,the other is bad,that is I will lose much interests on more things and people.The people I have well- disposed on are less and less in deep heart.Perhaps I can say these are the real feeling between people in the society.

But the things around me indeed are not what I like.Among them,although many smiles are on my faces and carefully say out every my word to avoid to hurt any other person.No ture words and comments to each others.Getting more pallid laughters but no affections communications.

When I go back home,I feel the life at working place is boring and so false.To resume all quietness with a sullen face at my own warm nest with feeling so reality.

Now I know I should be a person~~a real I.

Many babies' nativities will bring much enjoyment to each family everyday.But they are crying when they come into this world.Many people have different ideas about their crying.Meanwhile,lots of people make high praises of mothers.Most of us regard mothers as the great figures on the Earth,and to praise mothers everyday in all beautiful words.

However,since I am as a mother,I have never thought of me great with giving birth to my son.Sometimes I feel I am a bit selfish for giving my son' life without his any admissions.So I decide not to require my son to thank me or demand anything for me forever.For a long time,life will be regarded as the nicest thing, so most of person will ask his or her kids to thank their mothers all their life.However,not each mother gives a birth to her baby all out of loving babies.In our China,having babies are out of many different kinds of reasons.Even some people are just for their affairs of living well in old ages.Some prefer to have a son just for present honor.Some are just for others have kids,they can't suffer the strange visions and different situations. There is a kind of feeling I can express them out in my heart.To live on the Earth and to no birth to us at the very beginning,which one is better?

I am thirty now,from all my experiences I have.Now my answer is the second thing.If my mother hadn't given me a life,maybe I were air or one granded dust on Earth,no pains,no difficults,no fearness,no depressions,no sadness,no disappoints....In a word,feeling nothing at all.If someone asks me why I don't think something good and nice about life?But the terrible things and  the happy things,which one on earth would we get more in long lifetime?I think it should be the first one.

But this being the case,we are living in the world,no way to complain!Just try to live happier.Try to make more joys then sadness.

If someone asks me about these, no brith to me at the very beginning is the best for me.

The first thing is there is no war here in our living area in present.Peaceful living can bring us too many nice dreams and make us to chase them with full confidents.

Sencond is we are now in good health,we have two legs and two hands,a brain and a pair of bright eyes,we can do what I wish to do.Failure is just a kind of experience in this long lifetime.

Third,we are still young,we can often appreciate ourselves through mirror,although it is a tiny thing,but it is a short and precious period in long lifetime.It is also a  kind os nice content feeling.Is there an old person always stare at the mirror?

Fourth,we are having a happy family,either a small one or a big one.It is always your place for resting your souls and there is allways a small room for yourself.

Fifth,it is a money world,although everywhere is the stink of money around.But still money can change into anything we like and eager to have,to bring us too much joyfulness.

Sixth,there are so many wonderful places are waiting for us to visit in the world,if you are the person who are brave and intelligent,you would taste some excitement and joy others can't taste.

Seventh,it is a world full of love,the sense of love is the most happiest thing on the Earth,while your tasting it,you seem to fly to heaven.

Eighth,we are not too old.There are always more happiness in youth period than in old period.Why not think of much happy things in youth time,or there would be less and less in later older time.

Ninth,there are so many nice songs and so much music to make us imagine in blue sea.Although imagination is untrue,but it still a kind of nice thing.Once we lost all of abilities of imagination would be bald world.

The last one is we will or having our lives' continuing.From their bodies,you would find some aspects of yours,watching their growth,it is a kind of happiness.

 

Speaking of this topic,all of person prefer to choose both of them.But not everthing about love can meet everyone's needs.

A person who beats your heart is certain thought as your true love,as it is,he is just common one in crowds,but making you so excited at meeting him,of course because of excitements and nervous moods,feeling not close to each other's hearts,still you will be fan of him.You will dress up for him while he is around you.You can't allow to disappear your nice impression in his mind,even if it is only once.

You would be happy the whole day because of his some message or calling.Any information of him is more attractive than anything for you.You always want to do and act the best girlfriend or wife,if one day,you are tired,then all of pictures are damaged.

So tired! What you are doing is always about his like or joy.His short disappear will make you no ways to suffer.It seems that he is controlling all of your organs.Sometimes you will always be upset and lose when his love is not as much as yours.Even if he says lies to you,you always persuade yourself you are having a wrong thought on him.

You always wondering what you should do something else more for him to make him happy and let him know how you love him.His some careless makes you disappointed but you still believe he also loves you just like your love to him.

In a word,all what your done are all for him and revolves around him.Of course,he also says sweet words to him softly,but why you always think his sweet words are so far from you by what he does to you,OK,at last,you still succeed in consoling yourself:Maybe he is really busy,perhaps he is a bit careless.In fact,all of those things are due to his love is not as much as your love.....

However,It is very possible to get together with a person who is not deep loved by your soul,but oppositely,he would give you most concerns to you.the person who always watches you with his soft visions and pays the most patience to you,sometimes you will be moved about them.He always asks you what you like or how he can make you happy!You can feel enough sureness and warmth.

He would never blame you for anything and contain all of yours.Each time of unhappy,he would put how to make you happy to the first thing.He never complains you if you haven't got meals ready when he comes back home,oppositely,he will say to you with smiles that he would cook at once,wait a moment,it would start our dinner!

He will always tells you he is so happy because he is having you,and this small family,the most happiest time is to be with you.Sometimes,he will tell you that he loves you more and more.

While he is out,whenever you call him,him would hurry home soon later or bring the things you want in front of you.Whenever you advise him the ways of doing something,he will always agree with you saying:listening to my wife is quite good,and forever right.He would take the most care about your feeling in spite of happening anything.

He would always save money by no buying his clothes to ask you to buy your favourite clothes,because he knows that the things which women like most is clothes,and he says he so wishes his wife to become the most beautiful one among  women surrounding.He will never forget the dates of first meeting and marrying,on that day,he will never forget to send you a rose or a small gift.He will type those dates numbers in the computer as password.....

The two types of boyfriends or husband above,if you were only allowed to choose one of them,then which one would you like to have for your all life?

                                     
I always ask my husband such a question:"Am I special among most of women around me?When I am be with many ladies,would others think me special?"Why I always ask such a question is due to my own thoughts,the important reason is I have lost more and more interests in communications,many people I am familar with are so boring in my mind.I am sure I like the youngers indeed,but there are few in my working site.I dislike complications,but the older person would make me think much or change my ways of thinking.
In fact,I want to be a special person in others' heart,but I don't want to a lonely one,either.Maybe there is hardly boundary between them.
But I really don't want to become one of their kind.Maybe I indeed have something difference between them,I can feel a bit from others' mouths.
What should I keep?one kind appearance and one distinctive personality?
Perhaps it is a kind strange mental,or many others also have the same thoughts.

   

 

What is real joyfulness?

In fact,the real joyfulness is not only to request or gain.Oppositely paying out is a kind of real joyfulness,which may be regarded as a marvelous and strange thing by us,but its feeling is really so.

Perhaps it is only a tiny thing what we do for our favoured person,but it can bring the other side a happy time,however we would be even happier than them who got our love.

Before,I eagered so much to express my love to my father,although only once I have done to say love to my father,but I still remember my clear mood with happiness on that sunny day.

After each time of doing some housework for my parents,going back to my own home alone toward dark on the bike,my mood would be like flying,so happy,really want to sing a song for myself.Because I think my parents would be happy and comforted by my doing for them.I would forget all my tiredness at that time,such moments never disappear in my mind.

Each time of cutting my mom'hair by myself.So much plenum in my heart.Each time of buying something for my favoured person,how I wish they could know me how much I love them, while I am missing them,I also eager they would think of me at the same time.

Each time of buying back toy for my son which he wants.My mood is even happier than my son's.

Love and expression are nice things on the Earth,learn to express love,to express happiness,to express good moods.Even if it is only a tiny thing,it may be someone's great relief.Yeah,from them,we can also get our most joyfulness.To taste leerily,we can get it.

                                    

It is so natural each woman enjoy dressing up.Whether enjoy dressing up or not influences directly mental ages of theirs.Now I always wonder why women are pursuit of beauty.Who are they dressing up for?

If they are in the period of unmarried,they eager to have more their adorers with their pretty appearances.However,it is such a short time,so precious just like the dissilient flowers.But for so many marriaged women,what are they real aims and thoughts,nobody can say it out clearly.Some are for their husband,I can say that there are only some few.I can't answer well such a question,either.

Sometimes,I am also wondering why I alway spend much money on dressing up,is it right for a marriaged woman?Isn't it right that we should save more money for our kids.Even if I dress up very well,who would pay attention to that?We all know that in fact,each thing must has its aim.Yeah,the difference between animals and human is that we have important faces,even in some person's heart,it is higher than anything,the sense of pride is so important among human.What are we dressing up for? Or for someone outermarriage,or for the boring and ugly men around us?Of course,once there is a heart-beat person around,we can spend much on our appearace.Or because we can't be defeated by other women?or for give others more good and beautiful impressions?

I always think about such kinds of questions,because I enjoy making up a bit each morning.I perisistence so well every morning.Only staying at home,I won't do that kind of thing because of my idleness.That is always a strange thing,most of our making up is not for our husbands,but who on earth are we doing that for?

 

                                    

In real life,I only have one best friend who is also working with me,yet,because of many kinds of reasons,such as we have to take care of our own kids,we have no any more time to get together in holiday.But in school,we always stick together,thank her for so many days accompanying me during the sad days.Her laughters make me cheer up.Most of women who have married couldn't have much their own relaxing time.Yeah,most of us always expect more sleeping time or the time of staying alone.As if all of our life is taken away by family.

I would sometimes remember the time of being with the old friends,still there are much warmth in my heart.Because we had respective small families,we seldom contact with each other.But one friend is my forever friend in heart.How I wish she is beside me,too.And working in the same school with me together.Because of the friends who can close to each other's hearts are so few.When I am lonely now,I will remember her.Yeah,I should make a telephone to her or express something,because the true affections are too worthful.

Maybe no matter the friends anytime or anywhere I made,the motions between old friends are strongest.Even if the chatting friends on line,I found that more and more person I met in later time,but felt more and more lonely,I am wondering whether I am not so sincere as before or too few people can close to heart each other.I would think of the friends I made at the very beginning.I always feel they are so special to me,I paid much sincerty on them.They seem the strong tea,make me press close to them.Sometimes because of long time no contact,I would dele them.But now,how wish I can find all of them back.That would be another feeling.And then I won't lose them again.

Maybe I would like to keep old friendships in mind.

                                  

With so many years,I gradually realised more and more lamentable life.Life always bring us more sorrows than joys.If we live in a vaccum world,maybe more joys than sorrows.Yeah,most of them are caused by ambient environment.So many eyes watching you makes us uncomfortable,as it is,too few person have a real warm heart to you,they are not our true behaviour yet.Back home,take away all masks or ours.However,how about me myself,also do the same things like others.In this world lacking human interest,we always hide our true feeling to the upmost extent.Most surrounding  people are always expressing the opposing emotions.But why would they do like that?That is mainly for their own purposes,and some of them are for respecting the other side,or for getting more complimentson or great impression on others' mouths.

Natural things are always much nicer than false things for everyone,and the things with a definite purpose are so awful.However while I am criticizing those things,I am wondering whether I am one of those?Often I will also use my sweet or false to give others more joys or I can say doing that is for getting more good impressions.Saying something good is for avoid hurting someone.

My marrige also began with a hard seeking.Introduced by others,so in my heart,I wouldn't think it a romantic or braw start,although its procedure is better.Seeking someone painstakingly means with too much purposes,it wouldn't appear so-called"falling in love at first sight".It only gives us the better impression than some others,instead of "the love at first sight".With much purpose,we would become blinder and more worries in heart,many wrong feelings and aims are guiding us,also,we fear failures too much.we are always afraid of losing something or no getting the things what others are having.

I like to do things without a difinite purpose from now,not to care too much the opinions from others,try to think more for others.If someone has no much common tastes or the same opinions with me,please stay away from me!I needn't vexations or any other bad words,not to glare at me,I hate it much.Why doesn't everyone all learn to respect each other? Why do many people would think he or she is easy to be walked over others if he or she always contains them again and again?I really want to give her a top leer.But I have never.

We can't express our purpose too obviously while we are dealing with others,do somethings is OK,but when we touch upon the affections between us,it is really boring of doing like that.After all,humans all have emotions and feelings.I remember when chatting with others,some people would ask"I want a lover,would you?""I want a sexual partner,would you?""When shall me meet?""Do you like one night love?"and so on,I can say those are reality and true thoughts from someone's heart,but so directly,Don't tell me there is no pure things on the Earth?I didn't mean those things aren't dirty,but they aren't pure,either.All of things can't be all arranged by our humans.We also need to have a confidant to listen to each other except all those kinds of affairs.Because of the false ambient enviroment,we need to confide our thinking of heart.Everyone has a visional space to relax most of false things getting from real life.But I have found that the visional world are really operated by realistic people,so there is filled with awful lusts and purposes.So lamentable people are!

   Yesterday,I chatted with a foreigner on line.He is from England,I don't know his aspect,but I can sure that he is a man with much patience.His English is really pure English,yeah,just because he is a real Englishman.I know I should always chat with the people like him,but sometimes I can hardly know how to communicate with a foreigner,they are too frank,and of course most of them perfer sex thing,I almost can't accept that kind of topics.So Chinese men are my most choice for chatting.I will change my way from now.
 
He introduced me something about the ways how to teach or learn English.Although the ways he suggested are far from the real persent studying situation in China.But I also gave him much affirmation.And then he asked me what I should feel when the earth was up.I said I would knew nothing,just disappeared.I said that the god is not fair at all,even the life length of everybody's.He replied:"why would you think like that? when a man dies,maybe there would be another world to enter,maybe it is a much better one.Our living on the earth is just an ephemeral thing,a man's death will be real end-result,to a nice heaven." At that time,I realised that he must believe in some religion in heart,no matter which kind,it is really good for us people,I sudden understood the reason why some people in some foreign country wouldn't fear death.
 

Then he asked me whether I believed some religion or not.I said no,I believe nothing.At that time,I think of the reason why I felt much puzzlement in real life.Moral victory leads my soul often.Although like this,Chinese people always keep more tiring life and puzzle thought at one time.


Since I got his words,I have had another opinion on living.Yeah,when we lose some relative while we are in top pains,maybe it is a bright light,to make us go on living with more confidence.

  I often hear about the words “80后”，so I want to talk something about us the people in the seventies.We inherit the most traditional thoughts just as the ones in the sixties.Also,we are possessed of some new thoughts and melttles from 80s.The people on the seventies have much excellent feather on them.They have not only many responsibilies,but also a rich and active imagination.So it forms many conflicting philosophies.Their thoughts and actions are easily entangled together.They are neither traditional like 60s nor big-hearted like 80s.
  
   For they were educated by cultural traditions,they hardly could take the first step against traditions.Face their own marriage,they prefer to adopt a counsel that most of things must be for their kids,even if they are in a terrible situation.Two sides each thing must have,one is responsibily,the other is sorriness.But when they think of their lovely kids,they would feel all what they are doing are worth.But it's true that each kid now needs most the love from their parents in the world.They expects the warmth from his family.Once he loses these,all of his living attitudes would be changed,not by himself.Maybe there won't be real smiles from his heart with age because of our total society of our country.I always think that divorcement become a very common thing everywhere,maybe those kids won't be discriminated against or be hurt so much in present society.Only themselves can sense its pains instead of others,anything would touch him on a tender spot.How could he face the lack from his parents or the god in life.
  
    While love is anywhere or anytime, the people in the seventies,most of us have married already,could it be that we are already in vacuum life?The next life is long,we would come across many people,need we have some contrasekual friends?It is a complex problem to the people in the sevenies.I think that each man and woman all have a very simple thought on this,the people who they want to communicate with must be their favoured.Suppose if the man i feel him so so,even if I neither like nor dislike him,I have no thought of making friends or communicating with him at all.So frank and utilitarian I am.But once interested in someone,eager to communicate with him,how to deal with the affection.In a word,living on the Earth is really a complex thing,yeah,the most complex thing on the Earth is living.But it is not life itself making us complicated but ourselves.