These days I always think of him,where is he and how is he going on these days.He is so mysterious that he could disappear anytime.I need him-such a friend on line so much.Even I tried to send a message to him before,but no reply yet.In my guess,not because he is too busy to answer me,then because he won't attach importance to me-such a visional friend any longer. But I really need a pure-hearted heterosexual to confide and listen to each other on line.It's such simple thoughts in my mind and love nice things in the world so much.Yeah,that's because of me to lose him,however,I have just wanted to keep the friendship pure and longer.Maybe I have been in a wrong thought,but I can't change it yet.I still hope I can get imformation from him one day and wish him all luck.

He is so strange,his experience,the way of doing things and chatting.The last time of chatting with him,he said there was earthfall to his office,but his office is in Beijing,how could it be?Sometimes it made me woozy and couldn't sure whether his words were all true or not.Don't think too much,nobody only wants to chat with any heterosexual person on line for very long time and do nothing else.That is my reason indeed,but I still worry about him very much and will put him in my heart forever.He is a special person and do a big significance in my heart.

Today is the end of examination and raining again.I hate raining,but it is good for my planting indeed,thank rain,I have really taken a fancy to it.Experienced too much,I became strong in heart as well as timid,sometimes can't help worrying something.Try to loose my heart-set.Happiness belongs to me,it is also so hard to get and be held.God and father,thank you both,bless me please!I am strong outside,but very weak at heart.

Tomorrow is the start day to have a final examination for all middle school students.As a teacher--I,I am so ashamed that I spent lots of thoughts about buying house these two months.I just want to say sorry to my students,but I didn't.

These students I met this year are so good in my heart,but I say nothing before I could explain my thoughts.However,that the students nowadays are so lazy really makes me angry,why most of them have lost the interests in study?Maybe it is an easy problem,that is because most of them can't see their hope through study,Yeah,only a few students can go to a real college and get a good job.Most of their results are just to go to a factory or to be coolies.Most of classes have polarized on scores,and it is so serious.For the students who are lazy or can't study well,hope that they can learn some other skills when they grow up and can make a good living in the future.Maybe for lot of students,it is a wrong thing for them to study knowledges,they are not such good materials.Watching their painful expressions while studying,the teachers really don't know how to change them or hate them.Study should be an open gate for all the students and let all of them see their future's brightness,but the fact is not,most of them have seen their future which is not like something written in the books,in fact,so many students have given up study already!

I am happy these days,and today I bought two dress for myself again,I have thought I wouldn't buy any one,but I can't help.Maybe to save some money is my small aim for the future days,I will remember.Hehe,Chinese parents are so,I should save money for my son's future,Yeah,I should remember.But sometimes,I really yield to temptation.

Everyone has one kind of nice ideal life in their heart.Maybe he likes to live in a big or large busy city,because he likes the feel of living in developed environment,sometimes,some people can't suffer there is no sound and like to live in the place where he can buy and stroll easily.In fact,each one has different character,of course,how they choose their living environment would depend on that.

Some old man will choose villages to live,because They are quiet and fields makes them back to nature.Or some old people would think it is their best end-result for their old days.I also think that quiet living is suitable for the old and the children.

I will say I like idyllic living,too.These days of living new house made me feel I am in such feeling.I become a little crazy in planting flowers,and expect my vegetables I planted to grow,also I bought a black rabbit.I have kept a little white dog,but because it was a little hard and dirty to take care of it,I have sent it to others who could look after it well.

I like this house so much except its position,but I always think maybe it is my real house which is suitable for me.It is raining outside again,it has lasted the whole night till now.Some streets become deep holes,the whether of this year is really strange,can't it be that the god is making fun of Chinese?But it is so good for my planting,Yeah,I shoud have a look at them soon.

It is a long time these years since it rained so often.But this summer,once rain one day.It makes us really confused,after so many hardships for our China at preparing Olympic Games,why will the weather make trouble,too?Yesterday's rain was so heavy that I felt very frightened at midnight when I was waken up by the sound of the thunders.In fact,I don't like rain,snow or so on.They would make traffic hard and make my mood become bad.

The town of this morning looked so funny,there were water everywhere and the cars became boats floating on the water.From today,I will last three days to check the paper of Grade Nine.Because of sending my son to nursary school this morning,I was late for the meeting before checking paper.The task of checking is to be attached importance too much.So each of teacher attending will be very careful and had much patience.Yeah,maybe one score will make one's future different or cost the different number of money to go to a good school.

My heart is always easy to melt while checking,I always gave them a bit higher score,because I check the English writing expression.Several days later,ones will smile,while other ones will cry,the Chinese examinations are so cruel.For the weak hearts of some students,can they accept it?This is their first turning point in their life.Wish them good luck.Even if it's certain that there are many failures and blows falling on some ones,I still think it will toughen them more strong.

This year,some of my favourite students are also waiting the score of this examination.Wish them to get their ideal scores.

Yesterday,I normally came into the new house for sleep.Watching the beautiful rooms,I really like them much.Today is my husband's duty day,so I asked my sister to sleep here with us together.

  I planted some vegetables outside the gate,there is only a small part of earth for planting,I planted a few tomatos,eggplants and some seeds of cucumber....So funny,so many kinds of vegetables I have planted.But whether they would grow out or bring fruit can't be sure.Just for fun,but I still expect their growing up.I really love watching their procedure of growing.It's a kind of happiness and comfort.However the time of my planting them were a little late.Next year,I will do it in time.Yeah,tomorrow I should take a photo of the buds I planted,good thing!

  I think I should take a good rest from now to get rid of my tiredness and worries.No tiredness and no worries from tomorrow.Yeah,happiness belongs to me.From lots things I have experienced made me realise that bad moods are always ephemeral,although the sad time is so hard to spend,I understand that it's certain to solve all the problems in heart by days.Yeah,time can change everything and water anything down.Sunshine and happiness are just in front of us,to get rid of worries on our own,if not,it is also taken away by days.

  So whenever we are in trouble,don't lose heart,to put your heart well.

I am always in good mood these two days,but now I feel so sad while thinking of my father.All the things which happened are just like a dream.He is always a very traditional man,and I think he must opposite me to change our house.My ways of doing things are always different from my father's.When I think of these,I feel very sad indeed,I always think about whether my father would be angry with me in buying house,also,I have used up his money.As soon as I think of these,I feel my heart aching and no way to control.

  Dad,sorry,maybe I did one more thing you wouldn't agree with me again.You are now in the heaven,can you hear me?Please forgive me.Dad,why couldn't I happy from heart since you left me?I am always in a trouble at mood,and each corner of my heart is some sorrow.Two years passed,only those months when busy buying house,your shadow was farther from me,however,after busyness,you are always kept in my mind anytime.

  Before,when I thought of the money from you was kept somewhere in my house,I wouldn't feel well.Now,it disappeared and blended into my new house,and now,I still feel very well,either,just because I love you so much,I should try changing my all these opinions,they are so harm to my body and mind.

  I would learn to be happy again and forget all the sadness. 

 I have wanted to be fatter these years,but it becomes farther and farther to my aim.hehe,I am thiner than before.Sometimes,I really hate my ways of thinking,I always like imagining and perfect things,so I always spend too much on them due to think too much and make me thinner and thinner.Maybe it is just me,a person who always persues nice things.I won't think too much about my weight,let it be!

  These two days,I always think of my father,I don't know whether he would be angry with me because I finished spending all his money he left for me.Father's Day has passed,I don't like to hear any words about "father",nothing I can do for my dear father,only doing something for my lonely poor mom.Tomorrow is Saturday,I will see her.I have thought my mom was not important in my heart at all before,and even thought there was nothing difference in having or no having her.But now,I will be heart-hurt and always worry about her when I think of her,yeah,she is my real mother after all.Yeah,there is nobody can compare to our relations.

  While summer holiday,I will fetch my mom here in my new house,originally,I have some thoughts for her living here.so I decided to buy this house which has a small yard and one more bedroom and WC.

 Yeap!the single shortpoint of this house is next to some factories.How I wish all the trouble would be gone in soon future,or it is so perfect.Or maybe I worry too much,maybe it isn't trouble at all,yeah,I always require too much,however I have no too much money.

Listening to the songs in front of the computer,the same house colour and the same corner in the room,yeah,this is my new house,which is like my previous one too much.Two of bedrooms are the same colour as my previous ones,one is pink,the other is purple.Maybe it is just the karma to me.Recalling the difficulties we have met in buying this house,they are just like dreams with lots of hardships.So I think even if there are some things I can't be satisfied since I moved into it,I should love it and contain it.Sitting here seems at the previous home.I will be more and more familiar to it and all of worries would be gone.But I have to admit I am a willful and always lacking of considerations in life.I will be careful about it next time.

  Unluckily,we can't sure whether there is something made my son sensitive in the room or something around outside.At the first two days,we slept in the new house together,while my son always coughed,and didn't get well until he took lots of medicine.So I felt so unhappy,until now,he lives in his grandma's home instead of our new house,and every night I will stay and sleep with him together.

  In my heart,my son is the most important,these days I always blamed myself,I really don't want to do something harm to my son just because I pursue something I like.Experienced the affair of buying house and the worries I am facing really make me lowering. I feel that all family lives together quietly and happily is so nice and it is really world heaven than anything else.I realise that now indeed.

  There will never be a good answer whether what we are doing right or wrong.Only a way before you,walk straight to share each day of sunshine.

For a long time I haven't been here because of busy moving days,and until these two days,we can go on internet in the new house.

  In fact,the first time to come here,I was attracted by the beautiful decorations in the room and it is a villa in a subdistrict.But now when we moved into it,we found there were some noises around because some factories nearby.Of course,I started to worry about the air pollution around,too.It is near economic development zone.You may ask me what I am thinking at the very beginning?Yeah,at the first sight of it,I like its everything,but throw all the situation of surrounding out of mind.

  Before several days,I was in such bad mood,but my husband like it very much.He persuided me a lot and let me not to worry too much.He said the pollution here was not serious here,because nearly peripheral our town is surrounded by factories and pollution can't only be a small part.Although he persuided me a lot,my mood isn't very bright.

  Sometimes,I blamed myself that why my present mood was so different from the beginning of planning to buy it.I have no leeway at all now,just to like it and regard it as our happy nest.I don't know whether I am regretting now or not?But I am so afraid to say my rue.

To my surprise,this morning the bank informed us that they had offered loans to us.It isn't a long time at all.I was so excited that I didn't finish my class to come back.After handling all formalities at the bank.This afternoon,we,with the seller together went to the bank and put the money into his account.I originally thought today would be the date of getting the keys,and only ten thousand yuan isn't paid.I hoped that he could give us the keys and I give one ten thousand yuan,then all things will be complete.But the other side said that he hadn't moved their things from the house away yet.

Although I was very worried and there is white and black words in the agreement,but I couldn't make a mess of things.But that old man is so terrible and didn't give us an exact date to move out,only said he would be quick.I don't know whether I should ask for my right according the agreement or kind manners are the best.

At last,I chose to wait for two days,that is until Thirsday.I hope all things could go on luckily.

I know god and father are helping me every minute,when I think of the experience of buying this house,it seems a miracle indeed.Thank you!Now,I feel me lucky indeed.

The rest things are giving keys and moving.,eventually,I can give some smiles.

 How I beg the bank could offer loans to us before this Thirsday,because This Thirsday is likely the date of moving out of my house.So we have already packed all the things in our house.God can give me a hand again?I hesitate to moving out,it seems that I am in mid sky and so sad to be apart of it.Yeah,I will cost some more money to beg the other side to allow us to stay a little longer in this house.

  We have trusted a person who is my best friend's family's friend working in the bank to give us some help at loaning.I believe he will do.Today is Monday,only three days left,originally it will be a happy time to get the loan and then move into a new house to start our life,however,I am not happy ideed.It's also a time to say goodbye to my original house.We experienced too much hardships during buying this house,I guess maybe it would also bring some trouble or unluck things in the end.But I always keep thinking it's all luck if we can get this house this month.All trouble won't matter at all only if good result belongs to us.

 Children's Day has passed,no mood to celebrate for my son or give him any present.But no problem,after moving,I will give my son a big surprise to make up all my carelessness to him these days.Sometimes,I imagine the nice coming summer holiday,playing with my son in that small yard,let him swim in a water pool in it,and bring my mother to spend time with us together.When night falls,we can go out for a walk facing cool winds.But I am still a little afraid,afraid of my dream's failure.yeah,don't think too much,both of good things and bad things,let them be!

  Maybe all of things are on the right path,merely I think too much and worry too much.Waiting...

Worrying and thinking of the house is the main topic in my mind.It seems nothing else can effect me to get rid of them from heart.Also seemed no good topic to update my blog.Today I went to my sister's and mother's homes and chatted with my sister very happily although raising old questions again,but still I felt some warmth from her.When I first mentioned about my buying house today,she was opposited to me which made me at ease.Yeah,I really look forward to each of members'supports in my family.

I am such a person who always likes new things and most like to possess the most beautiful house as my home.Home is so important for me of course including house we live.A few days ago,I asked my husband what we should do if we lost our home just in case there was something wrong during these days of buying house.He said:" There are family,there is home,our living together is the most important instead of living in the best house.After his words,I seemed to know more about the word"home".Yeah,each of relatives is absolutely necessary,without good house,there still will be happiness.

I am sitting here again to say to myself what I want to say.I more and more realise it is such a good thing I can self-confide,there is still a small space for me to open my the door of heart.So quiet and placid,whenever I am whiny,after confiding here,all of bad moods would go back to usual.

Several days,no music here for some reason which I didn't know.But now,I am listening it again,the blue song makes him come to my mind.Where is he now?How is going on these days?Has he solved all his problems yet?I have no answers to them as well.My lucky star disappeared?I really want to get contaction from him,Yeah,maybe he will appear when I need him next time.

I have always been such worrying,fretful and black days recently,the trouble from buying house,the earthquake.Also I felt something wrong with my some part of body made me so pessimistic those days,but today sunshine seems on me,because just now I have seen a doctor and was sure that there was no big matter with my body,only a foible.I become very happy now and look forward to the new start of living in soon days after moving.

I am a person who is always afraid of seeing doctor,the hospital is a so terrible place for me.Maybe everyone will have the same thought.But my husband me advised me to accept treatments at the earlist time whenever we don't feel well or find somethings strange and special things on our bodies.He told me that being treated in time was the most important thing at illness.At last I agreed with him,his words are very right.Illness will change to complicated from simple,also from an indisposition to a serious one if it isn't treated at the very beginning.So this morning,I asked for a time off after I had given my lessons to students and went to the hospital alone.Luckily,there were only a few patients waiting in the office,also,a woman doctor who knows me helped me have a check successfully without complicated formalities.Yeah,I cherish life so much now,there are too many things which people can't afford or suffer.Good luck to everyone all those kind-hearted living people in the world.

I am really happy now,although sandstorm is blowing outside,there is so much dust on the ground in our house.I am very sorry for no cleaning our house carefully recently.I will say goodbye to this house which I bought with experiencing a lot trouble as well and also took a lot of trouble to decorate 5 years ago.

Yeah,before moving out of this house,I will do once good cleaning.

These days I had no time to come here to update my blog because we needed to accompany my husband's father for my husband's mother's going out.The old man has been in illness but with a very good mind-set which nobody can compare with.

The days with the most worrying hearts have eventually passed at buying house.Last week the other side signed the house over to us,but we still haven't got the house certificate.Maybe the coming moving day is just the day when we can get it.I count the days of moving house every day,maybe in about three weeks or two weeks.I expect that day so much.

I also hope the date of moving out of the old house is just the one of moving into the new one,or we have to move to a temporary place to wait.Yeah,the affair of buying house will finish in soon days,but the last important things are waiting for offering loans and giving us the key.I hope both of them could be finished successfully at last.

Why did I say these?because there have been some divergences between both sides while dealing with it.Through those,I realised that it is so hard to come into contact with the people in the society.I felt very tired in mind and very sleepy.

Above all,I have set half of my mind at rest.Thank you,god and father,I know you are helping me every minute.Yeah,Dad,you will give me a hand no matter whenever I am in trouble,because I know you love me.God,I know since I came to this world,you always send sunshine to me,every terrible can be changed to better.

Nothing can be say out to express all of words from my heart.

Lots of things need us to thank in life.Since everyone came to this world,many difficulties must be faced at the each of step of living.Such as some dark days and scences which will bring me much comfortablelessness while I am calling them up,but no one can get rid of them.

Those days may also be my dark days for later days.Twists and turns during changing house and Earthquake brought each Chinese sadness.Wish every terrible thing can pass in the quickest time.Yeah,we are in the period of facing hardships,but after them,we must remember to give thanks.Thank so many nice person who helping us and watching us on the earth and in the heaven.

Hard days always appears so long.Our country indeed is facing big difficulties not only at many disasters but also holding Olympic Games this year.From those,I realise lots of difficulties always obstruct the way to each success.Yeah,life is just a procedure of solving problems.

Who is the most lovest person?We have known it from Primary school books.Yeah,they are our lovely soldiers of country,which I recept these days through the video of saving victims in the earthquake.There's no words at all can describe their greatness,they are using their lives to exchange people's.I am sure that now all of Chinese love our country so much just like a big warm family.Each of them feel those warmth...

These days,death,failures always keep straying in my mind because of the earthquake.I am very blue when I think of those victims.Our country is trying her best to save lives in hard conditions.Just now,I heard that there was only survivor in a village because of debris flow,and in another village,there was no kid survivors.My heart was shocking hearing about those,as if I heard so many mothers were crying for their children.The most terrific thing indeed on the earth.I really don't want to go on talking about those.

If someone asks me whether I would fear death now?I will say yes.Half of my life belongs to my son,and all his life belongs to me.Since I am a mom,I have been worrying my health and life,because my things would effect my son's whole life.Since I gave a birth to my son,how I wish I can give his a wonderful fate.Now,he is watching his favourite cartoons with odd laughing.Previous days,I will tell him to do or not to do this or that,but now,I don't want to say anything without good mood.All things will OK if he is happy doing his favourite things.Yeah,because of my son,I care about my life too much fearing death too much.

Maybe lots of moms in the area of earthquake would sorry for giving their children's live at the very beginning,however,they couldn't find them back now and do nothing but let their children be in terrific situations and facing death.Would they regret? I thought a lot about this thing and said to my husband that we must agree with him if he doesn't want to have a baby when my son grows up.Oh,I said too much about later,in fact,it's so useless.

How should human-being use strong minds to face the changeable world?Maybe the first thing human-being should grasp is how to face subsistence and death.During subsistence are lots of hardships,while death is a trice,which one is the more terrible?hard to say.

The earthquake happened in Sichuan and the area around in China.Maybe this year is with too much tribulations which gave our China many difficulties in holding Olympic Games.The road to the happiness full of hardships just like mine buying house recently?I am very sad about hearing so many people who have died and so many people still in danger.The human's lives are so weak that no time to think what they should do next at the moment of earthquake.

Since I heard of these,my worrying mood about buying house are getting much relaxed.As it is,all of the victims have their dreams and living in hopes of better times to come before the earthquake.However,they have no chance to achieve them,what pities!Is there anything more important than our lives?None.I am so afraid of thinking about all those people who have lost their children and relatives.It's too terrific to everyone.I won't watch any video about the earthquake scene,because I can't suffer feeling the pains from them.Now I don't want to extravagant too many hopes,life is hard and complicated,however as a man,we need to guide it well and find a right way which is suitable for us.

The whether these days have still been very changeable,as if winter is coming back again.Rains seemed the tears from the victims' relatives eyes falling to our land almost everyday,which really made everyone be full of mawkishness every minute.Wish all terrible things past in seconds.Hope all of the relatives of victims could be strong to keep on living.But when I say these,I am so guilty in heart.Now who can describe their pains and how to make them see the sunshine.All of the words are frothy indeed.But still let us wish our country to overcome all the dangerous and difficult road to hold Olympic Games successfully.

At last,I also hope my affair of buying house can be successful as quickly as possible.This is the third day...

The title is so attractive,lots of people would think these are the days of waiting for someone.However,I am waiting offering loans.When the true things coming,oppositely,I couldn't think it true.It seems a dream I am in.Sometimes I asked myself whether I have required too much until now or people's life is originally so endless at requiring.But I understand that everything is limited,not to over do things is the sentence in my present mind.

I am looking forward to the final success,and also I know all of these things' keeping on smoothly consisted in god's help and my father's love.A sentence is the road to happiness full of hardships.yeah it is indeed.I won't be afraid of hardships,only expect the final success.It is all of my family's wish,my son,husband and I.Maybe in some people eyes,this house isn't so good as the one in our heart.But we all regard it as our idealest one.

Today,with the help of two friends of ours,we handled the formalities of loans smoothly this morning with spotting rain.My present mood is not good or bad,don't want to imagine too much about the new house.So fear to be happy so early,because I have found each time of becoming top cheer,then the awful things would come on my head.I really want to laugh at last when we really possess this house which we like so much.

To be apart from success,only one step's away.I beg god and father to help me make our dream come true.Thank you too much.

This is the first day!!

It's raining again outside with dusky colour of sky,which makes me feel blue.I am looking forward to tomorrow to handle the loan formalities.And there will still be a month need us to wait.Too long for us,but no ways.I hope the time of our moving is just the lending time,if so,we needn't to move the third house before we move into the new house.

This year is a strange year with inconstant whether,until now,no real nice days.Cloudy,rainy,windy and cold intertwine in this spring.Yeah,I have no mood for caring about the whether around these days.This is the first time to fear to lose money,even I can say it's our house.Through this thing,I realised that the people outside is so inclement.I don't like them a bit,I feel so lucky when I thinking of being a teacher who is always in a pure schoolyard.

No pain,no gain,yeah,I like this sentence.Maybe the things I have experienced is not more enough,next time,I will look before I leap.Yesterday,a friend sent these sentences:

Life’s filled with possibilities that challenge us each day…
To take a chance
Try something new… See things in a different way
And as it’s through, we learn to change and grow
To explore who we are and what we know
For it’s not until we try
That we find out – WHAT WE CAN DO…
So don’t wait until tomorrow
To discover something new…
Have a great day ahead!!

I think them over for a moment,I think them have a certain sense as well.Yeah.The life sentences are:

No pain,no gain.No complain,no regret.