Worrying and thinking of the house is the main topic in my mind.It seems nothing else can effect me to get rid of them from heart.Also seemed no good topic to update my blog.Today I went to my sister's and mother's homes and chatted with my sister very happily although raising old questions again,but still I felt some warmth from her.When I first mentioned about my buying house today,she was opposited to me which made me at ease.Yeah,I really look forward to each of members'supports in my family.

I am such a person who always likes new things and most like to possess the most beautiful house as my home.Home is so important for me of course including house we live.A few days ago,I asked my husband what we should do if we lost our home just in case there was something wrong during these days of buying house.He said:" There are family,there is home,our living together is the most important instead of living in the best house.After his words,I seemed to know more about the word"home".Yeah,each of relatives is absolutely necessary,without good house,there still will be happiness.

I am sitting here again to say to myself what I want to say.I more and more realise it is such a good thing I can self-confide,there is still a small space for me to open my the door of heart.So quiet and placid,whenever I am whiny,after confiding here,all of bad moods would go back to usual.

Several days,no music here for some reason which I didn't know.But now,I am listening it again,the blue song makes him come to my mind.Where is he now?How is going on these days?Has he solved all his problems yet?I have no answers to them as well.My lucky star disappeared?I really want to get contaction from him,Yeah,maybe he will appear when I need him next time.

I have always been such worrying,fretful and black days recently,the trouble from buying house,the earthquake.Also I felt something wrong with my some part of body made me so pessimistic those days,but today sunshine seems on me,because just now I have seen a doctor and was sure that there was no big matter with my body,only a foible.I become very happy now and look forward to the new start of living in soon days after moving.

I am a person who is always afraid of seeing doctor,the hospital is a so terrible place for me.Maybe everyone will have the same thought.But my husband me advised me to accept treatments at the earlist time whenever we don't feel well or find somethings strange and special things on our bodies.He told me that being treated in time was the most important thing at illness.At last I agreed with him,his words are very right.Illness will change to complicated from simple,also from an indisposition to a serious one if it isn't treated at the very beginning.So this morning,I asked for a time off after I had given my lessons to students and went to the hospital alone.Luckily,there were only a few patients waiting in the office,also,a woman doctor who knows me helped me have a check successfully without complicated formalities.Yeah,I cherish life so much now,there are too many things which people can't afford or suffer.Good luck to everyone all those kind-hearted living people in the world.

I am really happy now,although sandstorm is blowing outside,there is so much dust on the ground in our house.I am very sorry for no cleaning our house carefully recently.I will say goodbye to this house which I bought with experiencing a lot trouble as well and also took a lot of trouble to decorate 5 years ago.

Yeah,before moving out of this house,I will do once good cleaning.

These days I had no time to come here to update my blog because we needed to accompany my husband's father for my husband's mother's going out.The old man has been in illness but with a very good mind-set which nobody can compare with.

The days with the most worrying hearts have eventually passed at buying house.Last week the other side signed the house over to us,but we still haven't got the house certificate.Maybe the coming moving day is just the day when we can get it.I count the days of moving house every day,maybe in about three weeks or two weeks.I expect that day so much.

I also hope the date of moving out of the old house is just the one of moving into the new one,or we have to move to a temporary place to wait.Yeah,the affair of buying house will finish in soon days,but the last important things are waiting for offering loans and giving us the key.I hope both of them could be finished successfully at last.

Why did I say these?because there have been some divergences between both sides while dealing with it.Through those,I realised that it is so hard to come into contact with the people in the society.I felt very tired in mind and very sleepy.

Above all,I have set half of my mind at rest.Thank you,god and father,I know you are helping me every minute.Yeah,Dad,you will give me a hand no matter whenever I am in trouble,because I know you love me.God,I know since I came to this world,you always send sunshine to me,every terrible can be changed to better.

Nothing can be say out to express all of words from my heart.

Lots of things need us to thank in life.Since everyone came to this world,many difficulties must be faced at the each of step of living.Such as some dark days and scences which will bring me much comfortablelessness while I am calling them up,but no one can get rid of them.

Those days may also be my dark days for later days.Twists and turns during changing house and Earthquake brought each Chinese sadness.Wish every terrible thing can pass in the quickest time.Yeah,we are in the period of facing hardships,but after them,we must remember to give thanks.Thank so many nice person who helping us and watching us on the earth and in the heaven.

Hard days always appears so long.Our country indeed is facing big difficulties not only at many disasters but also holding Olympic Games this year.From those,I realise lots of difficulties always obstruct the way to each success.Yeah,life is just a procedure of solving problems.

Who is the most lovest person?We have known it from Primary school books.Yeah,they are our lovely soldiers of country,which I recept these days through the video of saving victims in the earthquake.There's no words at all can describe their greatness,they are using their lives to exchange people's.I am sure that now all of Chinese love our country so much just like a big warm family.Each of them feel those warmth...

These days,death,failures always keep straying in my mind because of the earthquake.I am very blue when I think of those victims.Our country is trying her best to save lives in hard conditions.Just now,I heard that there was only survivor in a village because of debris flow,and in another village,there was no kid survivors.My heart was shocking hearing about those,as if I heard so many mothers were crying for their children.The most terrific thing indeed on the earth.I really don't want to go on talking about those.

If someone asks me whether I would fear death now?I will say yes.Half of my life belongs to my son,and all his life belongs to me.Since I am a mom,I have been worrying my health and life,because my things would effect my son's whole life.Since I gave a birth to my son,how I wish I can give his a wonderful fate.Now,he is watching his favourite cartoons with odd laughing.Previous days,I will tell him to do or not to do this or that,but now,I don't want to say anything without good mood.All things will OK if he is happy doing his favourite things.Yeah,because of my son,I care about my life too much fearing death too much.

Maybe lots of moms in the area of earthquake would sorry for giving their children's live at the very beginning,however,they couldn't find them back now and do nothing but let their children be in terrific situations and facing death.Would they regret? I thought a lot about this thing and said to my husband that we must agree with him if he doesn't want to have a baby when my son grows up.Oh,I said too much about later,in fact,it's so useless.

How should human-being use strong minds to face the changeable world?Maybe the first thing human-being should grasp is how to face subsistence and death.During subsistence are lots of hardships,while death is a trice,which one is the more terrible?hard to say.

The earthquake happened in Sichuan and the area around in China.Maybe this year is with too much tribulations which gave our China many difficulties in holding Olympic Games.The road to the happiness full of hardships just like mine buying house recently?I am very sad about hearing so many people who have died and so many people still in danger.The human's lives are so weak that no time to think what they should do next at the moment of earthquake.

Since I heard of these,my worrying mood about buying house are getting much relaxed.As it is,all of the victims have their dreams and living in hopes of better times to come before the earthquake.However,they have no chance to achieve them,what pities!Is there anything more important than our lives?None.I am so afraid of thinking about all those people who have lost their children and relatives.It's too terrific to everyone.I won't watch any video about the earthquake scene,because I can't suffer feeling the pains from them.Now I don't want to extravagant too many hopes,life is hard and complicated,however as a man,we need to guide it well and find a right way which is suitable for us.

The whether these days have still been very changeable,as if winter is coming back again.Rains seemed the tears from the victims' relatives eyes falling to our land almost everyday,which really made everyone be full of mawkishness every minute.Wish all terrible things past in seconds.Hope all of the relatives of victims could be strong to keep on living.But when I say these,I am so guilty in heart.Now who can describe their pains and how to make them see the sunshine.All of the words are frothy indeed.But still let us wish our country to overcome all the dangerous and difficult road to hold Olympic Games successfully.

At last,I also hope my affair of buying house can be successful as quickly as possible.This is the third day...

The title is so attractive,lots of people would think these are the days of waiting for someone.However,I am waiting offering loans.When the true things coming,oppositely,I couldn't think it true.It seems a dream I am in.Sometimes I asked myself whether I have required too much until now or people's life is originally so endless at requiring.But I understand that everything is limited,not to over do things is the sentence in my present mind.

I am looking forward to the final success,and also I know all of these things' keeping on smoothly consisted in god's help and my father's love.A sentence is the road to happiness full of hardships.yeah it is indeed.I won't be afraid of hardships,only expect the final success.It is all of my family's wish,my son,husband and I.Maybe in some people eyes,this house isn't so good as the one in our heart.But we all regard it as our idealest one.

Today,with the help of two friends of ours,we handled the formalities of loans smoothly this morning with spotting rain.My present mood is not good or bad,don't want to imagine too much about the new house.So fear to be happy so early,because I have found each time of becoming top cheer,then the awful things would come on my head.I really want to laugh at last when we really possess this house which we like so much.

To be apart from success,only one step's away.I beg god and father to help me make our dream come true.Thank you too much.

This is the first day!!

It's raining again outside with dusky colour of sky,which makes me feel blue.I am looking forward to tomorrow to handle the loan formalities.And there will still be a month need us to wait.Too long for us,but no ways.I hope the time of our moving is just the lending time,if so,we needn't to move the third house before we move into the new house.

This year is a strange year with inconstant whether,until now,no real nice days.Cloudy,rainy,windy and cold intertwine in this spring.Yeah,I have no mood for caring about the whether around these days.This is the first time to fear to lose money,even I can say it's our house.Through this thing,I realised that the people outside is so inclement.I don't like them a bit,I feel so lucky when I thinking of being a teacher who is always in a pure schoolyard.

No pain,no gain,yeah,I like this sentence.Maybe the things I have experienced is not more enough,next time,I will look before I leap.Yesterday,a friend sent these sentences:

Life’s filled with possibilities that challenge us each day…
To take a chance
Try something new… See things in a different way
And as it’s through, we learn to change and grow
To explore who we are and what we know
For it’s not until we try
That we find out – WHAT WE CAN DO…
So don’t wait until tomorrow
To discover something new…
Have a great day ahead!!

I think them over for a moment,I think them have a certain sense as well.Yeah.The life sentences are:

No pain,no gain.No complain,no regret.

Long time no see him except that noon on May 5th.I was very excited because I felt he would bring me good luck when I meet him on line at that time.It is true,each time of getting into trouble,he would appear then lots of pains disappeared.That day,the very important day,because of his appearing,all the things were luck again.

But where is he now?why won't he appear?Maybe some people think I am too funny,but I keep thinking there will be a person in the world who is your luck star of yours.All my netfriends are like running water,today chatted,won't remember each other the other day.Chatting is just a kind of thing to  relax presently.Who would remember the other side for long time?too few.Having him on line,I feel so content really.But the bad thing is he is also in a trouble about love,too.Of course,what he told me is just his secrets,not mine,so I can't write here.At last,we encouraged each other and wished to solve all the problems we were facing in soon time. I felt so warm in heart because of having a person who can also surpport each other in another far city.In fact,there are too few true friendship in this world even if in the same city,town or the same room.I think the length of friendship is important instead of the deepth of friendship.Short together,short apart is so terrible.

I don't know whether all his things are luck these days.Wish him good luck,or his experience is so hard since he grew up.I hope good person has good result,although it's just a sentence,nobody can charge of this.But we still can put this sentence in our heart to guide our ways towards in the later days.

Only one thing is destined to our success in the affair of buying house,that is to loan through bank.Originally,yesterday afternoon,we could finish loan formalities,but the time is too late when I have prepared all the materials.It really made me unhappy,for I am so worried,but we only can wait the next Monday.There were three things we must wait to do,the first is to loan,the second is to transfer of names,the third is to wait offer loans.Whether these three things are sucessful still makes me fearful.

Every step during selling and buying houses is so hard,but we jumped over so many difficulties,it's a long story.Now,I have realised that to spend each quiet day with family is so wonderful things.These worrying days,no mood for caring about anything,felt in a terrible snare,and didn't know whether I couldn't climb out of it.I promise here that I wouldn't change my house any more even if in the future if I am successful this time.

I am so sorry for my students and my son because of my inobservancy these days.After this thing,I will try all my best to make up.But through this thing,I realise that the emotions between my husband and I becomes firmer and firmer.Yeah,we should understand the true meaning of treasuring nowadays.

Thank god and my father,thank you both.It is your help to make us walk to the door of success foot by foot.Wish you can go on giving me some help,thank you so much.

In all my past days of my life,there are two things make me feel time passing so slowly.Terrible days they are indeed.One is the days I lost my father,there were so many complex things to be ready,luckly,lots of relatives could give us a hand.But those days,waiting is such kind of pain.

However,most people will forget the pains after the things pass.So sometimes they would make almost simliar mistakes.I really don't want to effect my teaching these days,but still a bit I did.There are still some mid-exam paper not checked on my office desk.Originally,today I have planed to finish checking all of them,but this afternoon,I was called to staff room to adjust answers to praxis.I was busy doing exercises the whole afternoon without going to WC or having a break.But the only good thing is it made me not think of worries of present days.

Before,I always felt time flew too fast,I want to keep memories of each day,so I decided to keep my diaries.I have been doing so.I always keep good belief in heart,so lots of things I face in life are mostly successful,except some I don't care at all.

My train of thought is still in confusion now,I don't how is going on tomorrow,what will happen the next step.I only can wait and wait here to close to the end,no matter,good or bad.What could I say?

Maybe most of friends who have come here couldn't understand my mean or the procedure of the thing happening to me.Yeah,If I succeed later,I will explain it in detail.Oppositely,if I fail,then nothing I could explain and say.I will regard these diaries as my deepest lesson which can let me have a sane mind in later future.

I am still in danger of selling and buying house.Only about over one month,I can know whether I will succeed or not.Recalling the decision made several days before,my husband and I feel it too frightful,what made us do that recklessly is on an impulse.Yeah,now I really realise that impulsion is devil.Now,I am so afraid to imgamine its successful,I should put the worst plan in heart first. In fact,my husband and I have promised that even if we fail,we will still be with together forever.No matter anything happens,we won't change the love to our home.Because that is our both decision.

These days,I have been in a bad situation,become thinner and thinner.Before making decision,I didn't think of such mood I would be in.Only this one time is enough,I won't sell and buy house to get into such a terrible situation again.I thank god and father who are in the heaven so much for their timely help,thank you both!Please bless us to have good luck in later days on this thing.

Reason is so important at doing things in our life,but everyone has their own character and temper.I have been sure I am a steady-going nature,however,I also did a dangerous and simpulsive thing.In true life,there are full of no way to retrieve and doing things to repent of our whole life.We can't regret after doing it,this thing gave me a deep lesson.

In fact,happiness is so weak for a home,learn to know content in the future.No enough certainty,don't take any risks,or only at that time,we can feel those bad taste of bitter.

Yeah,we should live in this society with two feet standing on the ground and carefully to walk foot by foot slowly.