Mussy mood

  I know that sentence said we couldn't force any happiness or disasters.But I don't reconciled to accept that.I always keep my good manners and best ways to do anything well,so carefully to treat everything.But what on earth would I get?I am so sorry to my little family,my husband and my son,but the mistakes are not from me.I always think me a lucky person,but I change my mind about that.I am not special either.I like simple life much,however my life would be a mussy one because of some trouble brought my lost father,but how can I blame him here?I really hope all of these are dreams,but I can't change anything.I have lost father almost one year,it should have been my happy coming,but it is opposite yet.OK,don't think too much,all depend on gods.This year is my worst one in my years of growing up.I decide to cheer up from tomorrow.

  Today,the students had a month examination.When we teachers checked the examination paper,our heart filled with too much upset and disappointment.Yeah,paying out is much more than acquisitions.My heart was very quiet,facing the days with pains,the score couldn't take up the important site in my heart now.I know I can't beg too much from my teaching or the students.With my unhappy minds teaching them,I lost much passion on them.I really want to have a new start and god gives me a chance!Please.