Would the affections with a definite purpose still have their own worthiness?

With so many years,I gradually realised more and more lamentable life.Life always bring us more sorrows than joys.If we live in a vaccum world,maybe more joys than sorrows.Yeah,most of them are caused by ambient environment.So many eyes watching you makes us uncomfortable,as it is,too few person have a real warm heart to you,they are not our true behaviour yet.Back home,take away all masks or ours.However,how about me myself,also do the same things like others.In this world lacking human interest,we always hide our true feeling to the upmost extent.Most surrounding  people are always expressing the opposing emotions.But why would they do like that?That is mainly for their own purposes,and some of them are for respecting the other side,or for getting more complimentson or great impression on others' mouths.

Natural things are always much nicer than false things for everyone,and the things with a definite purpose are so awful.However while I am criticizing those things,I am wondering whether I am one of those?Often I will also use my sweet or false to give others more joys or I can say doing that is for getting more good impressions.Saying something good is for avoid hurting someone.

My marrige also began with a hard seeking.Introduced by others,so in my heart,I wouldn't think it a romantic or braw start,although its procedure is better.Seeking someone painstakingly means with too much purposes,it wouldn't appear so-called"falling in love at first sight".It only gives us the better impression than some others,instead of "the love at first sight".With much purpose,we would become blinder and more worries in heart,many wrong feelings and aims are guiding us,also,we fear failures too much.we are always afraid of losing something or no getting the things what others are having.

I like to do things without a difinite purpose from now,not to care too much the opinions from others,try to think more for others.If someone has no much common tastes or the same opinions with me,please stay away from me!I needn't vexations or any other bad words,not to glare at me,I hate it much.Why doesn't everyone all learn to respect each other? Why do many people would think he or she is easy to be walked over others if he or she always contains them again and again?I really want to give her a top leer.But I have never.

We can't express our purpose too obviously while we are dealing with others,do somethings is OK,but when we touch upon the affections between us,it is really boring of doing like that.After all,humans all have emotions and feelings.I remember when chatting with others,some people would ask"I want a lover,would you?""I want a sexual partner,would you?""When shall me meet?""Do you like one night love?"and so on,I can say those are reality and true thoughts from someone's heart,but so directly,Don't tell me there is no pure things on the Earth?I didn't mean those things aren't dirty,but they aren't pure,either.All of things can't be all arranged by our humans.We also need to have a confidant to listen to each other except all those kinds of affairs.Because of the false ambient enviroment,we need to confide our thinking of heart.Everyone has a visional space to relax most of false things getting from real life.But I have found that the visional world are really operated by realistic people,so there is filled with awful lusts and purposes.So lamentable people are!