Relaxing but blue holiday.

People always think too much during relaxing time.Sometimes I can't control my bad mood these days,however disliked to do anything because of hot days.I can't be back to the state of compeletely happy,even if it was ever with a bit blue.Now I feel blue is turning into gray.Sometimes I think I am possessing all things,but sometimes I find I am lack of so much-confidence,upward mobility and the passion and interests of doing things.

Sometimes I wonder whether it is better or not to have too much conscience.A kind-heart person with much conscience is certain to be good for others around,but it's too bad for himself.He would be sad,worried,tired from heart and self-condemned too much on the life way.He would care about others' feeling more than himself,and harder than others to cast aside all pains to have a nice and happy life and be sure to experience too much feeling of saline.So selfishness is not a bad thing.

Take a deep breath,all of the saline things would be gone,it's only the matter of time.But how can I believe this sentence?Why would I feel more afflictive while thinking of my father?I am so afraid of thinking of those things.Yeah,to do some more other things or waiting for the work days' coming.I would be better from then.

A person who always had no worries before is changing into a worrier with sores.Time can water down all,I am waiting...