To be a main teacher again.

Two days ago,I was notified to be a main teacher at the same Grade as before.I was astonished at the moment of hearing this news,I have stopped my affair of being a main teacher for two years,how could they dream of me?Maybe they think my rest is enough by this time.

From heart,I am very afraid of being a main teacher-to criticize,shout,be serious every day inevitably,to think too much at night or in the dream.I hate those extremely.I only want to have some spare time during work time to read some my favourite books quietly,this dream which I maybe can't keep in my heart again.No way but to face all boring affairs from tomorrow.Yeah,tomorrow is the time to pull grass in the playground,burning sun and mosquitos are really terrible.

I don't know why I can't find my passion back like two years before.I always have nothing to do with all honors at being a main teacher or my class.In fact,I don't care about those at all,I just want to manage my class hard and will be approved by my students.But sometimes many things won't follow my heart.Paying out too much, being disappoint too much,although during teaching,I like them very much.Being a teacher,there are much more disappointment than relief,only if paying no loving heart.Maybe I charge too few skills of being a main teacher,I have been only too good to them.There's no plan at all in my mind how to deal with those new faces from tomorrow.

But I know I would work harder than these two years,however,the dream of being fatter is maybe flying into sky again and disppears.

Come on to myself.For future richer days,maybe it's good for me to forget or no time to think of passing bad things.