Living just for living?

Mind-set never go back to the beginning-point.Listening to the same music,but different feeling and touch to me.Now,I can't hold any roots of happiness with all my strength,only an empty heart left to me.I want to cry but no tears at all,and being full of sense of quilt in mind.Is it incorrect to sell and buy house?I am so afraid in heart,just want to in pursuit of nicer thing and life,but it's my fault that I have no thorough thinking,so careless.

I can't get my mood under my thumb,which always makes me headache.I am in a such loss every day,being a teacher,my son,my family and get more sleep sometimes are my happiness before,but now,I don't want to do anything,however,being afraid of sleeping a little,plenty of sleep would send me some nightmares at night.

What's wrong with me?how can I get everything better?

What is living for?I am so upset.The most terrible thing is no way to find joyfulness in life.If you are happy each day now,no matter you are poor or lack of many things,try to keep the feeling of happiness.Seeking happiness is so hard for us once we have lost them.If you want to persuit something,you should be clear whether you would happier after having them.When you choose something,you must ask yourself whether you like or not.It's time to go...