Ideal lover

I believe only one true love in each life.But it's lucky to possess it in the right time and if charge well then  can have the happiest life.Love is faint concept and full of mystery.

Would ideal lover appear in life,nobody couldn't tell.When i was so excited at finding a way to improve my english,which was chatting on line in english and last year i was still in the troubles of learning english ways ,I met him on line.I felt the special feeling of him,and when he said love to me first,i was sure he was just like my ideal lover in my heart.I was so surprised that i would fall into love with a person no line.Maybe the special period of losing my father or he match up to my ideal lover so much,but i can't sure.Miss him too much everyday,i can't leave computer everyday,wait for him.I know it was a wrong done for me, i can't control myself for some time,i don't know if others would have the same experience.but the feeling is so clear.I have got into a nice visional world.Because of i have never paid too much to a man.I even thought that  i was in love with him wrongly and had a little angry with him and misunderstood him by his careless to me ,to compare him caring to me with my firstlove.sometimes.

Maybe the saddest period of that,I made dependence on him little by little.He is single,but i know that i have nothing to give him,because we met in not right time.Everybody won't live only for theirselves,then so much pity in the world.Maybe we can meet one day ,Maybe in a short time,or at that time he has a happy family or we are old .but i really eager to have a look at him just as common friend.There's a visional wall in front of me to make  me lose the courage.

I hope we can be forever friends  in transience or in reality,don't think of future too much,everyone can't charge it.Now i have adjusted my mind-set,it became a quiet feeling in my heart.Maybe the feeling to him would keep all my life.I treasure it until he don't regard me as a friend. Because ideal lovers need love each other.For nowadays people,my idea would maybe sound strange,because ture things are too few ,They want to taste excitement and satisfition only.So bored they are and they would lose more.Although my love were always at improper time,maybe there is ideal lover only in the visional world.But i still think i am lucky to meet my ideal lover,because not all the peole can have it and i don't want to let it be mixed like other dirty feeling.pray good luck for him.