Is The Love I Deserve?

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For love, I think it is a little bit difficult for those to fall in love full-hearted again who ever loved and being loved heart and soul, especially when the latter ones he/she meets are so not excellent as the former ones.

I have loved a brilliant man with all my passion but at last we broke up by a soft way due to different viewpoints and orientation toward life and love, he is my first boyfriend.

My current boyfriend has been in my back and for sure he comforted me gently and frequently during the days I was down for break up with my first boyfriend, I felt warm and thought I still could live a shining life without my first boy because I have been loved by another one.

So when my current boy asked me whether I would like to be his girlfriend on the Christmas Night, I agreed yes and reminded of myself that I must remove my first boy from both my mind and heart.

But now I am doubting whether my current boy is the most proper one to me after I answered his phone call under a blue mood which he did not notice during the chatting. I have been thinking that love can make somebody changed for him/her, and the couple can feel the mood status of each other at any time, but he failed to understand me well sometimes, and to my own astonishment, it is my first boy’s  image appears in my mind and I cannot keep missing him when I am down or need help, here I think for everyone the first lover had better not be so good and impressive, otherwise, it will be a big appointment till you meet a better one.

True or false, try to experience it honestly.