Today is the tail of August. And the weather here these days doesn't seem  to be so hot as before.Five years ago, when I came to Xi'an  for the first time, I was told that the autumn in Xi'an is so short as in the spring. That means the winter came closely following the Autumn without too long transiton, which is absolutely different from the South---my hometown. However, I have managered to take good care of myself these years , indeed.

       It's today that I make a decision to continue that  part-time job this semester, and I will try to do it well. Many times, I become used  to  turning  to many excuses to get away from many responsibilities that I should take on. I am extremely ashamed. However, that is the journey to be mature, isn't it? Although painful and anguished, I obtain much which is indispendsable in my life.  On the other hand , there are nice friends always behind me, so I can move on and on...

How time flies! The expected summer vacation is going to be over ,together with the scorching summer. Many people would like summer, whereas I prefer spring. As I cannot bare the high temperature and the big shining sun in the blue sky.

The end of  summer vacation means the beginning of the new semester.With the increasing number of students ,the campus is lively again.The walking beautiful fashionable girls ,the walking handsome boys with earphones in the ears, the walking lovers hand in hand, the laughters from the people who meet again after so long time,the mild wind whistling in your ears, and the beautiful sunset. Every thing is in harmony,peace and quiet, tranquility and serenity.

I hope I will succeed to keep this mood in the living present and start a good life. I hope I will really acknowledge the negative and positive situations and do my utmost to cope with them. I hope I will obtain some achievements and smoothly finish the coming studying. Also ,I hope my friends will have good luck in the following months.

It's time to start another period ?

I am always muddleheaded.I have wrestled with my inner demons for more than 1 year.Now,I know I have managed to rescued myself.

So I should and must begin.

  I sorted out all  the letters that he wrote to me years before, with tears and extreme anger. Some things have finally been  known to me ,accidentally and  haply. I  cannot help but admit and accept all the happenings. Looking at the heap of letters , I failed to hold back my tears. All has passed, gone with the wind and time, never coming back. So it's time to burn them, to forget completely, and to begin a new start. What's worse, I even cannot find a place to burn them up.

     Today was Nov. 8th. My birthday.Well ,it was the first time for me alone to celebrate my birthday.Nothing special happened in the daytime. Had classes , took meals and  went back to my dorm.Then I was here writing my blog.

      In the past half year ,something miserable happened to me indeed. And I couldnot even handle myself at all. Completely out of my expectation ,and then out of my control.But it's said time will cure all ,right? I am better now.As half year has passed before I realised that. Meanwhile i come to become more retarded about my life and surroundings.So bad luck!

      Miss my college life so much ! Miss my old friends so much! There were so many friends around me ,backing me all the time whenever i am in trouble in the past . But now things change. I am alone staying in xi'an...

      I am a person who is liable to recall the past things and people. So i am doomed to experience much before i adjust myself to the new surroundings.

    I told myself to cheer up, but it seemed useless. It is so difficult, not the same as I had originally thought.Who will give me a hand?

    So tired that I even wouldn't like to talking with this world......

     I  am so ashamed of not updating my blog.Really.And now the weather in xi'an is getting cold ,and my life in this city is coming simply.As time goes by , I come to realise the necessity to learn to how to settle myself in this hectic city.There was once too much complaint in my life, but now it's time to erase them.As it's useless to cry over the spilled milk, right?

     After the National Day,I become an assistant in the so-called "white house" of our school.Life is busier than ever before. Moreover, I decide to continue my Japanese studies .Maybe I have the chance to visit Japan or some other countries one day. It's expecting.These days ,after my classes,I would like to stay in the library with my PC,doing whatever I want to :Searching data,chatting online ,browsing internet and so on and on.

     Actually ,I am not alone. Biscuit, Lilac and Xuan are accompanying me in this painful journey. What I obtained in my college life is precious friendship, even though there are some misunderstanding and quarrels .Ahha, time will paint all the happiness and unhappiness golden ,never fading in the river of time.My boys and girls ,Best wishes for you.

           After the National Day, I have been hanging out . In this old city, after so many things have happened to me, I feel like having a huge rest, even forever!I am so tired and hurt. Even no motivation for me to forge ahead with my life. what to do next ? I have no idea. where is my tomorrow ? I don't know ,either.

      In a word ,my recent life is drab, dull ,boring and flat. I come to become a complete pessimist .Most of my friends try to comfort me ,but I find it's so difficult for me to get my life back to the normal track. I has tried so many times, but failed. Some things and some people have been planted in my mind.They cannot be erased all of a sudden. I need time, energy and enough place to forget them, and then do my utmost to forgive them ,right?

     Thank you for your comforting, my dear friends. It is so lucky to have you as my friends. Life doesn't treat me so badly and cruelly as I originally thought. I will come out of my sadness after some time.

Summer is coming.But the weather here is so terrible.So hot that I cannot breahte---the dorm is hot, the air is hot, the street is hot.In the daytime,i would escape and stay in the air-conditioned library;then when the night descends,where can i choose to keep away from such heat?

However,there are still three years for me to study in Xi'an.Xi'an is actually a wonderfull city with its own history and its special culture.If the weather is not so horrible,I think I would like to settle down.

Now it is night again.How can I get through it?Oh,SOS!

It is the first time to have my own English Blog.Frankly, i am a little excited.Here, i intend to keep a great wish:I hope everything will be Ok for me and my friends in the coming years.

There are several days for us to leave our college.Most of us are reluctant to leave this piece of land.Four years is a long time ,enough for a girl to become mature ,enough for a naive student to be changed to a qualified citizen.How many of us have cherished this precious period in the university?I am so ashamed ,as i havenot learned enough.But today, i am leaving...

Such is life. Only when you lose it can you realise the importance of it.I tell myself life is fair and I shouldnot complain.So come on, and forge ahead.