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  • What are you willing to trade for making living?

    2009-1-17

        When you become independent,a hard task is before you that how to make living.

        No pain no gain.There is no free lunch in the world.

        Making a living for yourself is hard in the competing society,not least raising a family.You have to give something up which we classify into three groups:life,soul and sweat.

        Life is most important thing.Without life all things are gone.If you are not be pushed to the wall shouldn’t risk your life.If someone tempts you to give up your life for any reason such as going to heaven or saving other,you should be careful.The one promising you above must cheat you or have already been brainwashed.Whether you can save other or go to heaven is unsure but it is sure that your parent will lose their son or daughter,your lover will lose her husband or his wife,your children will lose their father or mother.None can take your place as a your parent’s son or daughter,your lover’s husband or wife,your children’s father or mother.Your family will be suffering for you. You will lose all potential opportunity to enjoy life your parent gave you.Don’t be brainwashed.

        Soul is a intangible and invaluable thing.Here we view it in terms of morality.Without soul man is in line with animal.Someone pursues his or her personal goal using means such as cheating or exploiting which maybe not be banned by law but against moral principle.I used to be cheated. I hate and sympathise with the one cheating me at the same time.I hope his balance of mind can be naintained for his whole life.

        Sweat is great.We view sweat in terms of labour.Labour can be clasified into to two types that are the manual and mental.No matter what type of labour,as long as it is in honest manner it is worthy to be revered.

        For profession I prefer peasant to politician.I think when a peasant have a meal grown by himself there must be a great sense of achievement in his heart.Politicians live a lie for their life and have much blood on their hands. But it is pity that I qualify neither as a peasant nor as a politician.

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  • MY ENGLISH TEACHER

    2009-1-03

    Twenty years ago,one afternoon when I played chess in my yard,he came visiting his raletive who was my neighbor.We met first time and had a game of chess.He beated me.

    Thereafter,from time to time,we played chess and gradually I learned more about him.He is one year older than me.Tall but not handsome.He had a good school record and manner so was popular with adults.

    One year later,I entered the junior high school where he was studing.Everyday i went to and from school with him together sitting on the rear seat of his bicycle.I remembered clearly that I waited for him on the alley on which his home standed just like a little girl.

    He was in a grade higher than mine by one year but much more mature than me.I like playing chess very much and he too but he can control himself and often said that he had had to do homework or housework for his parents and rejected me.

    Maybe by a quirk of fate, he failed to enter the key senior high school by a narrow margin and I succeeded by a narrow margin.So there was less time for us to be together.But I think he be still a excellent student as he can teach me about difficult point in studing everytime I asked him.However,he appeared to be more and more mysterious to me.

    I succeeded in entering a university but beyond my expectation he failed twice and enter a third-rate college at third time.After graduating he fail to get jod and went back to home idle.Duing the period I found some changes about him.He appeared to be wgighted with care and often fell in a daze without rhyme or reason.At the same time his family had changed their tune to him.I used to see his parent snapping at him in other’s presence.

    Afterwards he did some odd jobs everywhere and often hung out in my dormitory.Like a drowned mouse,he made me lose face in my colleague presence.Gradually i looked down on him hoping he leave soon.

    I used to atudy Russian in school and university but for working I found Russian help me nothing .I planed to study English.which remind me of him.

    I visited his home and told him my plan.As soon as I got home he came with a bag full of English testbooks.It took one week for him to teach me about phonetic symbol and basic grammar.He complete the formative English education for me.

    After that I can study English by myself and up tp now I never gave it up though many things had happen to me.English brought me a lot of happiness and helped me a lot in working.

    Five years ago I left my hometown and went to a faraway city to make a living.Before long since I left I received his call.and he told me a telethone number of his schoolmate and said that I can come to him for help.I showed appreciation but didn’t mind.

    Two years ago I returned to my hometown for marriage.I met a friend who was his friend either.The friend told me that he became mentally unhinged since the year when I left.I was shocked and proposed to see him.But the friend was reluctant to do so as it is danger.I was too busy to set aside time so I didn’t see him at last.

    Handsome boy often attracts romantic girl,talented boy often attracts pure girl,rich man often attracts smart woman.But if you cannot attract anyone,the only one who can care you is your parent.His parent left savings and house to him and went to another city to make money.

    I clasify lifes into two categories :usual and unusual.Up to now I lived a usual life.I am struggling in the crude world for making money and raising family.Sometimes even almost cannot survive these hard tests especially some unforgotten memories like losing dignity.He lived a unusual life.

    It is toe that knows whether the shoes fit.We cannot judge whether another’s life is happy or not.Furthermore,he had a total different mode of thinking,anger,grief,joy and happiness from ordinary people.What I can say is that hope he be happy forever.

    Here,he appears On my Computer Screen approaching me with a bag full of English textbooks.

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  • weiqi

    2008-8-14

    Weiqi is my favorite pastime.I think Weiqi have a number of benefit,for example,these principles in Weiqi are same as those in life so playing Weiqi can make people mature.I have met a number of children who can play Weiqi .They behave themselves with a great calmness beyond their actual age.People who are good in playing Weiqi have a number of similarities in characters,such as integrity,reason,self-consciousness and stc.Two people who don’t know each other at all often become friends after playing a game of Weiqi, bacause they already had a understood communication.

    In my schooldays,the life is very dull and playing Weiqi is my only pleasure.

    I uesd to live in a remote city where where are few people who can play Weiqi.So,finding a person to have a game is very difficult.Especially,most of those was older than I was and married and the highest priority for them is to earn money to support family.So,although they are keen on playing Weiqi, their family hate it very much.I have lots of embarrassed experience in this regard.One time I and two friends went to another friend’s home to play Weiqi.His wife was at home and may have some houseworks need his help but he was playing game with us and don’t pay attention to his wife’s complaint at all.As a result ,his wife had disputed vehemently with him and went to her mom’ home holding their child angrily.But we still played far into the night. I don’t know how he and his wife had maken up but I never went to his home after that time.

    Now,with the advent and popularity of home computer and internet ,people can play Weiqi at all times.However,I ofter miss my friends who used to play with me face to face.It is pity that people cannot go back to their old days.

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  • Whether or not you know?

    2008-7-07

    Whether or not the cloud at that day has already predicted the end?

    So,

    It walks softly.

    In case of disturbing us,

    As the time we are together is doomed to be very short.

     

    Wind blows the cloud to move,

    Where you go?

    When I miss you I look up at the sky and smile,

    Whether or not you know?

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  • responsibility

    2008-7-07

    Many people ctiticize that Fan Paopao is a selfish person which I cannot agree with.

    Everyone is not living alone in the world.Parent give birth to us and bring us up. When we grow up and become a adult we marry a lover with whom we spend our remaining life. After that we also give birth to our son or daughter.

    The people I mentioned above need our care which is our responsibility.however, the most important care they require us is our kindness to ourselves which is our first important responsibility. For them,our lives are more important than themselves and vice vresa.Our lives don’t only belong to us and it is unethical that we risk our lives no matter what reason it is.

    I don’t know Mr.Fan well.But from his age I can estimate that he must have retired parent,new wife and baby.He must love them very much and vice versa.I don’t experience the emergency leading to immediate death.But when I am in suffering,I always remember my family’s faces naturally who give me power and help to pass the crisis.I ever heard that when one is about to die he or she can see his mom or lover although they don’t be next to him or her.I don’t know what Mr.Fan saw and remembered at the moment earthquake was occurring but I think his action is right from the point of view of his family and lover because this is his responsibility.

    However,if a person has not the responsibility,he or she can sometimes become crazy.For example, Yang Jia had killed six policemen.No matter what reason it is the action is crazy.But when I know from newspaper that he had experienced a divoice of dad and mom when young and is single now I can understand him a little.It is the missing responsibility that causes the end.

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  • SORRY

    2008-7-04

    Several days ago I watched a TV programme introducing a remote place in Europe.In the first half of the show I don’t know what country the language the local people say belongs to until hearing a widely known word I had recognise that the kind of language is Russian.

    I feel ashame.

    I had been studying Russian for nine years in the school and university.

    My first Russian teacher is a woman about thirty old at that time.She is of Russian extraction and has a naturally bloud curl.I remember that in every beginning of Russian class,she always writes one classmate’name spelled in Russian letter at a top left corner of the blackboard.She often said to us that your Russian level will exceed mine in the future certainly.

    Because Russian requirement in middle school is low,I had gotten a high grade in university entrance Russian examination easily. However,when I graduate from university,I had found Russian is uesless in my career.So I had decided to study English by myself.Two yeas ago I passed English CET-4 exam and now I can take part in English-based cosmopolitan exam but I cannot wirte Russian words from 1 to 10.

    Sometimes I think for me Russian is like a old friend who used to help me a lot.But when I found he useless to me I cast him away without hesitating.

    Sorry,my dear Russian teacher.I am not a good student.

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  • matchmaker

    2007-11-14

        Recently I had acted as a matchmaker once.I had acquainted my cousin with my previous colleague.

        My cousin is my uncle's daughter who are older than me by one year.My home city is far away from hers.In my primary school second-year class summer holiday my uncle's family had come to my house and I had first met her.

        She went to primary school in second year class at 6 years old so at that time she is already a high school student.

        She is clever and lively.During that time，as long as she was at home my house aiways rang witn her songs and giggles.But when it came to the people she disliked,she would refuse to say a word which ofter make people very embarrassed.

        I liked and adored her so much that reluctant to part from her even for one minute.She treated me as her young brother either.I still clearly remembered the scene she told jokes for me by hand resting lightly upon my shoulder when all people went out.That jokes were obscure to me because they were relevant to adult's world however I felt very happy.

        After she came back home I missed her for a long time. One time my teacher asked us to write a composition about a impressive person.I first thought of her and the composition is very long.

        How time flies.I had met her again when over ten years had passed.She had become reserved and was completely different from her in my mind.We all had grown up and were no longer quite as intimate as we used to be which is adult's sorrow.

        Now she is a experienced high school teacher and still single although at over thirty years old.She is very picky which maybe a common feature of all excellent girls.

        I had found a boy among people I knowed.He is my previous colleague and same old as I'm.I thought him as a honest one,and besides,he was a post graduate student and family circumstance was well also.Maybe someone thought he excellent,but in my opinion,he cannot parallel my cousin.So I had prepared some comforting words for him in advance.

        However,when I asked him about his opinion after their first meeting he said that she had looked too old.I said you should know each other more.he said that I had not feeling at all.Forgot it.

       I remained tongue-tied for a long time.Although I don't ask my cousin but I knew she certainly will say that the boy looked too silly.

     

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  • the origin of ouzihua

    2007-10-29

       The one of my great enthusiasm is film.The first thing to buy when I get first pay is VCD machine.I had seen countless films,but the films I'm fond of are few,one of which is 'Our Last Day'.The story in the film had taken place in Hongkong.

       A boy lives whith his single mom together.His mom work at night and sleep at day so communicates with him rarely.he feels lonely and enjoys listening a midnight broadcast programme called 'none drive',in which people can tell their private story on telephone.

       On the bus to and from school a girl attracts the boy's attention.Apparently the girl is a student either,always standing by the vehicle door silently.Having seen the girl for 99 days ,at the 100'th day he thinks if he don't make acquaintance with her today he would have lost the opportunity forever.But he has no idea how to get access to her so he just tracks her along.The girl appear so tired that when they sit on the bus together she fall asleep by head leaning against the boy's shoulder.

       The girl appear to be in a trance.When crossing street，if the boy have not pulled her,she would have been struck by a running car.However,when the boy thacks the girl to go up to a block he is too surprised to find that the girl attempt to commit suicide.He holds her back.The girl asks him angrily that you wanted to save me truly?He answer 'yes'.She say'follow me'.

        So he follow her to go to her home.He was startled to see her mom are killed at home.He asked that it is who that kill her mom.She answers she don't know.He asks why don't call police.She answer he cannot.The boy are very frightened and attempt to run away.Here the door is sounded.She says her dad goes back and manages the boy to hide in the wardrobe of her room.From the conversation between the girl and her dad the boy judge her dad are very strict.He finds there is a lamp in the wardrobe so he turn on it and find a diary.It is the girl's diary.From the diary the boy knows that the girl and her mom had come from mainland to Hongkong in order to reunite with her dad two years ago.Her dad works hard outside and her mom keep house.They communicate with each other so rarely that she thinks the relationship between her dad and mom more like those between father and daughter rather than those between husband and wife.There isn't a photo of family group even.She feels lonely and enjoys staying in wardrobe.After reading this the boy has been moved and draws a picture in her diary where dad,mom and child stay together hand in hand.

        Suddenly the door is opened and her dad comes in calling him out.The boy goes out frightenedly.However the man give him a camera and let him to take a photo of his family group.Here,her mom has been moved to a sofa and dressed up,her dad sits on the sofa either,and the girl sits between her dad and mom.As the boy is going to take photo,the man holds him back.The man take out a ring and put it on his wife's finger.Here and now,in front of the camera the man is so benevolent,the woman is so beatiful,and the girl's smile is so sweet.

        Then,the boy accompanies the girl staying in her room.The girl sleeps in her bed and the boy sit in the dark alone reflecting on that had only just happened.He thinks that if the man had put the ring on her wife's finger earlier.the thing would have been different.

        Midnight,policemen come and arrest them .At the same time they find the girl's dad has commited suicide already.

        Afterwards the boy had been founded to be irrelevant to the case and released.From newspaper he know that the girl's mom had fallen in love with a stockbroker and been defrauded of all money.Losing both love and money she finally had chosen to commit suicide.At that night her dad had committed suicide after calling police.

        The boy feels the thing just like a dream because everything about this has gone without a trace.

        After several days,in the broadcast programme of 'none drive',the boy heard a familiar sound:Several days ago I had met a boy whose name is 欧子华.I sleep badly at all times,but when I'm with him I sleep well. Here,it occur to the boy that there is a spot of saliva on his shirt's shoulder which is left when the girl sleep by head leaning against his shoulder on the bus to school.It seems to indicate that the thing is true.

        This is my favorate film.I had borrowed the VCD from a little shop in my hometown.However,when I had returned to my hometown one years ago,the little shop had been changed to a restaurant.I had come to many VCD shop and fail to find it.This is a very obscure film,so I think I'm unable to appreciate it again and lose it forever maybe.In memory of it I name me ouzihua(欧子华）in my blog,qq.I write novel in a chinese literatural web,my pen name is 欧子华 either.

       

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  • what is better

    2007-10-25

        Every day I go to and from work by metro where I stay one hour a day(half hour to and from work each).

        Most of time metros are overcrowded and it is hard to find a place to stand which is beyond tolerance.In order to spend the bad time I always take a book and compel myself to read it in metro.As the book I picked is obscure and I have to concentrate whole attention on it so as to become ignorant of the current condition.So,I not only successfully pass through the hard hours but also gain a lot.

        One day,however,the metros are not much crowded that I can find a seat.Here laziness conquers me and I sit to enjoy the thavelling ,ignoring the book in my bag.Of course,I have't any gain although given comfort.When I go out metro station，I could not help asking myself:What is better?

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  • admire

    2007-10-18

    Recently,I have catched a cold.I feel weak and faint and am unwilling to do anything.Now,the people I most admire are those who are heathy.If a person is healthy,he can stady in order to realise his dream,work to make money,at least he can eat his favorate food.However,the everything mentioned above is out of my domain.

    How happy to be a heathy preson.

    I hope I will recover soon.

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