I'm still a child

I decided to write this article for several days.Till tonight,I talked with a classmate who was a little inconceivable why I felt optimistic towards life.

In my thought,I have a mass of imagination. I prefer to be a child rather than an adult. I was attracted by the single life,so freedom.I do what I want to. Such as listen to the music,read books,surf the internet,etc.What a peaceful life! I passed by a car when I saw my shadow reflected against the window glass. I imagined I was a chirrupy fairy who wore a white shirt and pink pants,and picked a big pink handbag. I gave myself a sunshine smile.Yes,Life is good.

I have changed my opinin toward life after I believed in God. I always lost my confidence and the seed of well-being before that.My sky always dark and cloudy. I always cried and felt hopeless.I thought life was unfair to me.I can't realize all my ideals.Sometimes I despaired,sometimes I wished that time could cease. But tomorrow always comes without my will. I knew I had to burden the suffering. No one could run away. And I became to numb to the life,people,and everything.

I feel a little pleased nowadays. I don't think a lot about tomorrow although I still have a little depression. I took photoes when I found good scenery, I imagined I would go abroad someday, lived in a small city,went to beautiful church every sabbath. I imagined I was a little child who lived in a big castle,played the piano,prepared a funny christmas etc..

I will walk in the process in spite of knowing the result of the life.Maybe he thought I was childish.It's ok to me,and it's my perspective towards the life.

Thus, I like the sentence:Flying from Paris to ShangHai, to the east,sun doesn't setting.It's at night in Paris,but still sunshine out of the airplane windows.Towards the direction of sun,pursue the time difference,we lose a night.If day means pleasure,and night means misery,Should we alternative the direction to extend day and shorten night?