It seemed I'm busy everyday. I'm busy with my own stuff, and even teacher's because of his lack of plan.

  I don't know how to give up for my beloved, and it comes out every time that every has to saving for me. Things happens these day all make me feel guilty. I don't know how to deal with. 

    I just come back from a oral English class. The most improtant use of English is to communicate with others, even in the easiest words. Just speak after as you are thinking and try to speak fluently and correctly. Don't repeat or speak in word and word.

     He came and wait for me again. On the way back, he told me a joke in English. And I found he can use English freely whenever he want to use it. He is a perfect boy. By the way, express yourself clearly. The judge in a interview will not try so hard to catch what you want to say like your teacher. So express yourself in right sentence and straight way,and don't talk in a roundabout way.

     It will be a busy week. I must work hard and efficiently.

     Fighting!

   Last night I suffered from insomnia seriously. 

   After I listen to Yanzi Sun's music special called "Niguang" for three times, played mobile phone game for two hours and listen to the mp3 of 'Friends',I still couldn't get into sleep.  

   Things I had forgot at day time all ran into my brain, which make my brain confused and it harder to fall asleep.

   I got my head hit at the bedrail, and it was really hurt. It made me behaved strange in a way. Did it lower my expression in his eyes? I must be got crazy. When I open my eyes in the morning, the first person come into my mind is him, and before I fall asleep I just miss him. It doesn't feel good. It make me nevious and insecure. How can I live like this?

   I decide to study when I was on my own, and I believe that it is OK!

    I‘m a poltroon.

    I don't dare to speak out for myself, and always miss the opportunity I have been aspired for a long time. I can;t express my like or dislike straightly, especially in the key moment. If it is for myself, I think it unreasonable. And then of course, I lose my courage.

    And when love is coming, I eacape. I never really fall in love with a boy, I guess. Maybe I just love myself.

    And from this moment, I want to be a brave girl! I will pursuit my ideal with self-confidence. Start with confidence that I can do it, or I will lose undoubtedly.

    I will express myself bravely in proper time and proper manner!

    I trust myself!

     Today I saw a sentence:"I need to follow my heart." I was rocked. When I can just make decision just follow my own heart and be honest to myself. It seems that it has been a long time I do things follow others' thought, for now I can't say what kind of things I wanna get, what kind life I want to have and what I want to be. It has been a habit.

    Yesterday，we have a dinner together.

    We ate, laughed,drank, and chatted.

    Everyone has his opinion upon his own life, study, job, and love.

    I love all my friends.

    Thank you all for coming to me.

      This is my first English blog. And now I am writing my first English diary. To be frank with you, just at the moment I am writing, I'm excited. I have make my mind to study English hard, and I hope that it is not too late.

      So welcome to my blog ,communicating and helping me. I hope that we can become friends.