raining

It is raining outside, and it is cold inside. Reluctant to study, i stayed in my little warmer quilt almost a whole day. listening to the tape hastily, i laied down again. "What do i want to do", thinking over in my head blankly. Then, clicking the website_www.baidu.com,  inputing the familar character-Yu Haoming who is a little child  in my eyes and a new singer star, browsing his posts, watching the moved characters wrote by his fans again an again, my eyes are filled with tears unconsciously. i wiped the tears falling on my face and laughed and aked myself. i cannot remember how many times i was tearing for it. i am not willing to admit that i notice him and the group of the young fans. Actually i was paying more attention to them almost every day. I tried to hide the truth, however, i cannot cheat myself. My age is not allowed  to go after the stars . not my age, but my personality is not fit to do this kind of things. the reason why i like the little child is his purity and kindness.  whether i am seeking  for purity that i have lost or i am escape the unpurity of the society. sometimes, i told my meslf to give up the caring for them, but i falied. yes, i am a sensitive and unrational girl, i just want to seek move in other one's world, and i am living in  an ideal and imaginary kingdom. but i must walk out the kingdom in a certain day.