A dark secret

Every one has a dark secret in his or her inner heart, no exception to me. Saying it is a secret on the ground that i never confessed to my old friends, however, they know it.

I , a little insane girl sometimes, keep thinking about a married man who make me unforgetable. We have a sensitive relation, close in heart, far in physical. i tell myself once again that the reason why i think so is that i haven't find a better one. Maybe yes, but the fact is that i don't have the idea to find a marriage partner. i am waitting, waitting for a far and unrealized result. He never give me a promise, and i never ask a result. we both only say the sense of missing in telephone.

last time, one of my most shrewed friend said something to me which touches me a lot. what he said can be summarized as this : love someone is good; keeping love someone is better; but stick to loving someone who has no feeling about you is stupid.

Clever or stupid? when i think of the matter in my heart, sometimes i am moved by my sincerity  and persistence, but it turned out to be stupid. I cann't accept it. He tell me to close the informal relation as soon as possible.

what should i do? how can i forget someone?