It's weekend again.
  Sometimes it's unbelievable that I feel a little lost when weekends come.True I have great passion for work,I always feel energetic when doing my job,but it's abnormal that I resist the coming of weekends.When it's workday,I have to arrange my day in a scheduled way so that I can work with high efficiecy.But when it's weekend,I will become a completely lazybone,and my day is in a mess.And what's worse I can't concentrate on learning.It disturbs my normal biological clock so that I always feel very tired and prefer to work.I know the fundamental reason is my lacking of self-control.But since my graduation from school I haven't found any effective way to make myself more disciplined at weekends.I take it as one of shortcomings of my personality.I hope one day I can get rid of it.Does anybody who have some good advice for me?

  There is always a regret in my deep heart which was left in my high mid-school life.At that time,our English teacher demanded that in the beginning of every english class there must be a volunteer which would go to the front of the classroom and give a short speech in English.Though I had very strong desire to do so,and I have prepared many times but I never got the courage to do so.Every day before the english class,I suffered so much,there was intense struggle in my mind.But every time the result was how determind I was to go to the front,how timid I was.So I never got the chance to conquer that challenge which become a great regret in my heart.Years later,when I had the chance to teach other people English,I would arrange the same activity in the class.Sometimes I would even envy my students when I saw them standing in front of the classroom and telling their classmates some stories,and my memory would go back to years ago,and the mental struggling is still so alive to me.
  What a pity it is,never in my life would I get such a chance.I hope it won't happen in my future life,my life can't afford another "high mid-school" period with regret.

  Thank god! After several days of low tide of my mood,I was finally released.  It's not bad to be an emotional person--to taste the bitter of sadness at this moment and smile at next minute.
  But anyway happiness is not so difficult to find.To be a wide-minded and straight person,when sadness comes,you can choose to cry or even to be angry,but let time take it away quickly and leave no shadow in your heart,so when happiness comes,you can smile immediately.This way we can learn as much as life wants to teach us or we can get as many as life wants to give us.Though it's inevitable that bad moment will come sometimes,I'd like to believe what life want to present us is happiness.Though sometimes I'm so stubborn that I will complain why life treats me badlly,most of time I will be grateful for life has give me so much that I have nothing to complain.
  Yes,happiness is not so difficult to find and do you find the happiness that life wants you to enjoy? I wish you happy today.

  I hope it's normal feeling of work after long time holidays,for I feel very uneasy about my job,I have no patience,I want to flee from the work place,I try to avoid any more contact with people.Something wrong with me!--I miss my home!
  Before I don't have too much strong desire to work near my hometown,in China there are so many people leave their home and find a job far away.It's normal and natual.I take it for granted that I have to study and work in a different province,that I have to rush between my home and my work place.But today I feel very tried of such life and want to have a change.
  Maybe I'm too lonely,I don't have the one who I can feel fully relaxed and speak out what I'm thinking.Maybe I should choose to live outside the company,otherwise my social circle is too small that my life is always monotonous.I remember when I was still at school sometimes I would ask myself to endure loneliness,and at that time I was more capable of arranging my time.But now I think the state of my mind has changed a lot,comparing to the studying period I can say now I'm more disoriented or more confused.In other words,I have less control of my destiny.I don't know which way I should go.It seems there are many goals in my mind,actually there is no goal.
  I have one classmate who is going to establish his own business.Often I will say to him that I really envy him because he knows what he wants.But he will deny and give me the same answer that he is also confused.And he will encourage me that we are at the beginning stage,maybe we should give more patience and more time to ourselves to accumulate both knowledge and experience.Now we are suffering the growing pains,but afterwards we can expect a good harvest.
  Maybe I should tell myself success is not an easy thing or don't expect too much of oneself,for the higher expectation, the bigger disappointment.To be satisfied with the current situation,sometimes is not a bad thing.
  Or maybe today I'm a little bit pessimistic.

  Sometimes I will think a lot,more that I have to think.I don't know it's a good or bad thing,for sometimes the things I think have nothing to do with me.
  On my way back to my company from my home, I had to take several times of bus and trains.To be honest,I really get tired of that,not because of the long time trip but of the bad service I got.Though I don't know for some people how hard their lives are,though I can understand people have to strive for the living,though I once have the deep impression that it's absolutely not an easy thing for a poor or even normal family to support the education of their children,I still insist that it's really bad for some people to earn money without considering other people feeling.It shows to be that the only thing they pursue is money,they have forgotten that they need to provide good service to their customers and they have ingored the hurt they have done their customers.I suffered a lot on the way back so that I caught a cold.Overload is still a normal thing in the rural area,and to avoid police check,they will take the additional passengers to take public bus on the middle way.I really hate this way!
  Further I can't believe the attitude of some bus station workers.Some of them are rude to every passenger,impatient to every question,ignore the needs of passengers,on their faces you can't see smiles.I don't know how can such people be qualified for their jobs.I know it's not an easy job in the service industry,every coin has two sides,and some people will treat the people who take service-industry worker badly.But I still believe that communication is mutual and the initiative is by the one who provide service to the customers.If you give a big smile to others you will surely get a big smile back.For me it's a happy thing to meet many different people everyday and why we don't take the chance to smile?
 

  Today is the last day of my national holidays.That means tomorrow I have to go back to work.I can't believe that ten days has ended so fast.It seems yesterday I was still hurrying with my work and preparing for the holidays.Oh,my god, I want to sleep as late as possible,I want to watch TV as long as possible,I want to be with my Mom so she will prepare everything for me!I can't control it that when it's holiday,every cell of my body will become lazy.Oh,my poor Mom,though she misses me, I think she doesn't expect me to have holidays.
  OK,It's better not to have holiday.Come on,come on, get rid of your laziness and have work tomorrow.You can't live with sleep and eating everyday!We have to work,not only for living,but also for our dreams.So let's work again,with enthusiasm,with passion!

Oh,my god, the food last night was really spicy,I have almost lost my feeling of my tongue.One of my Canton colleague said before the dinner:" I don't think the Hunan flavor is spicy enough."I think after the dinner he has a new and deep impression of how spicy some of the Hunan food is.The last dish "Jiangbanya"(酱板鸭) made us crazy,I haven't tasted such hot food for a long time.And today I still feel the numbness of my tougue.God bless me, don't give me too much smallpox.

  Today is our traditional Mid-Autumn Day.Though it's a pity that I can't be together with my family and what's worse I have to work,it's so blessing to get so many greetings and wishes from my friends.So here my best wishes to them all.
  Tonight I will go to a Hunan Restarant to have spicy food with several friends who cannot go home to celebrate our festival.How delicious the spicy food it is.I haven't had it for a long time in Guangdong.Tonight I will have it freely and don't worry how many pox I will get tomorrow.
  OK, we will enjoy.I hope everyone who cannot get together with their family will have a nice day.

  I'm 24 years old this year,and it seems there are more and more people especially my family and my best friends begin to put my future marriage to my top agenda.And sometimes on the dinner table with someone poeple,the most often talked topic is how to find a boyfriend for Jane,what kind of criteria there should be.Sometimes I think it's fun,people like to gossip such things,I can accept everything they talk,like Jane you have to find someone who is rich so that you don't need to be so hard on yourself to do a good job,or Jane you need to find someone who is intelligent,though I myself have no such standard--My doing a good job only because I have passion for my work.But sometimes I am really tired of such topic.What's wrong with the people? Why they like to tease with other people's love,and what's worse it seems to be the only interesting thing they like,and I have to suffer every dinner with them.
  For me,I think love is something that when you spend too much time to find it you find nothing.I don't know why I have such thought,maybe because I have great resistance to some jokes,like people will judge arbitrarily by their own thinking that those two people fit and then make jokes with the two people.I want to have control over my own love,if I love him then nothing can change it and vise versa.But I don't like other people to be involved for I want to judge by myself.
  So here I want to pursuade myself don't lose heart to love,I'm still so young,just keep fit and keep young and keep the best of myself.Yeah,love will come.Don't ask when time will tell.
 

 

  Today I found I'm a little bit impatient to others,it's not good.Everyday I ask myself to have a happy mood and feel optimistic,but sometimes it's not so easy to manage.

  Now I have been out the Ivory Tower for more than two years.There is a saying that the longer you are in this real world the more worldly you will become.It sounds terrible to me and I have been trying to keep away from it.I don't want to be worldly or complicated which I think it's a sign that you are getting old psychologically.Though I don't want to be childish but I'd like to be keep my heart young that I can always learn new things quickily.

  Sometimes I will think a lot about the relationship between different people though I never want to make it complicated, on the contrary I like it to be as simple as possible.But what's ironic is I'm a sensitive girl, and I know this point of myself,so I will always ask myself to think it simple or forget it when something unhappy happened. Sometimes people will find that there is really some connection between the way you ask yourself to think and its effect.I mean when you are experiencing something sad but while you ask yourself to think it positively,and then really you will become less sadder and more optimistic.
  I heard many people said that I'm childish.I admit it but that's not the whole meaning of my being childish.But first I'd like to clarify that my being childish is not a way that I'm trying to avoid facing the real world.Really there is something I can't understand in my life,but however ridiculous it is I can accept it for I just let it be,of course what's the other way I can do except this one for I'm not powerful to change everything that I can't understand.OK, now the reason why sometimes I'm childish is that I just want to think things the simplest way, I don't want to bother myself to think it complicated,like what's behind this matter, what the hidden intention of that person.Though I know people will think so much,and sometimes I will also consider these,but I will make myself to forget it.
  I believe the relationship between us is mutual and the influence is also mutual.Dont't remember the hurt you got so long,just forget it and together the afraid to be hurt again.Think things the simplest way and then we will get the simplest thing of life,that is happiness.

  Recently I'm so fond of one English song,its name is "You're a part of me".I didn't know this song before and just downloaded it from internet by accident.But after I have listened to it once,I become crazy to it.It's so true and so touching that I can listen to it many times at one time.It can inspire the truest emotions that hide in the deepest heart.It tells me "feelings are a special part of me and feeling are a part of how we grow".And it also tells how important friends are in our lives,no matter what feelings we have, we "find a friend and tell him how you feel,that's what make it real." I think poeple are easy to feel lonely if there are no friends to share the life.
  I will accept every kind of feelings I have,no matter good or bad, share them with my friends.Of course,I will also be willing to be such a role in my friends' life, and share the feelings of them.