How to be confident??

When I was studying ,my teachers and classmates always advised that I shoud have faith in myself. Practicably, I quite realize the importance of confidence, which is the key to success. But I 'm still at loss on how to be confident. From my head to toe, I can't find anything that can be glittered. I know that is not good to compare to myself to others ,there'll be others better or worse than I am.

However, if I can't make any comparison with others, there is no power for me to keep on going. I have no confidence at all and I always envy other's good things.Such as ,good looking, pretty figure, learned, capacity etc. As long as they are better or more competent than me, I'll feel self-contemptuous. Maybe I'm so stupid that I can't do anything well. I don't know why I became talentless. What a shame!!

Now I always make some mistakes in my work. How terrible! I've worked here nearly three months. My God! There's no need in making such silly mistakes. Each time I tell myself that I should be careful and try my best to do everything well. Meanwhile, I don't want to be blamed on the job by my boss. Sometimes, what she said may hurt me to some degree. And I heard that my boss has the habit of  calling names. I'm afraid to be rebuked. Currently, I hate myself more and more.

In the afternoon, I received an e-mail from the new buyer. He asked me to read his e-mail carefully. After reading the e-mail, I felt very depressed. Actually,it's not my fault, what's more important, I never misundertood his e-mail and translated it to my boss wrongly. Since his requesment for the wash test is too high and we have great difficultities in meeting his standard. Therefore, when we received his samples, my boss wanted to check what's the result of the wast test for the samples, the samples are manufactured by his other suppliers. Perhaps , he got very angry the moment he received the samples sent to us for our reference of the fabric quality and we shouldn't wash them. The samples were shrinked after washing.

After this incident, he will have no intention to start business relationship with us! It's not my fault. From now on, I have to be more careful and absorbed in my job. Otherwise, I'll be given a sack. I can't help but to accept it and face up to the cruel reality and society.