Is God fair to us??

Is God fair to us??

It's hard to say! Since I work here, I'm quite free and I always feel empty!The office hours are so long! Sitting in front of the computer nearly ten hours is a rather painful thing.Among my classmates ,friends, colleagues,  I'm  the most vacant one! What a pity!And most of them are as busy as a bee, they have many kinds of things to cope with.In such condition, I complain that the God is so unfair that I feel so idle! My head seems to  rust.The busy person have no time to rest ,their hands are always occupied. So they feel very tied.

As for me, I have nothing to do so I have a sense as if I were a good -for -nothing! It's too terrible!! I hope to be busy and I enjoy solving many kinds of trivil things, but it's a pity that I can't find anything to do! I't's all my fault!! That's the unfair aspects. The busier persons,the more things they have to settle; the more free persons, the less things they can do. This situation lasts a long time! I'm looking forward to ending this kind of job much earlier. I 've fed up with it!!

In that I have much spare time, I can update my blog every day. What an interesting thing. Writing my feelings and mood here can help me to kill time. What's more important, it's good to my English,or rather, my writing skills. Despite the fact that  I majored in English, my English is not good at all! Particularly, my oral English! This morning, my boss ordered me to give a call to that Indian buyer! My God! I'm afraid to talk with her on the phone. It's a headache to communicate with her. Maybe she has th e same feeling as I do!! I'm lucky that her phone has been powered off!! When I told that news to my boss, she said that perhaps she is not in China now!!

It's a terrible thing that I'm poor at spoken English!!! What should I do???