I hope everything happens for the best!!

New Roman" color=#ff9900 size=3>I aways write down my mood in this blog or  QQ zone when in down sprits or under weather.  Several days ago, I felt strongly heart-struck ,fragrant and unhappy as if there were  a big stone in my heart. It made me realize that it's rather difficult to take a breath.

More and more disappointment, more and more grief let me feel hear-broken. The instant I owned what I want, I thought it's nature and normal. But now when I lose what I've got, I will consider it's more important and precious than I expect. Once I exerted all my strengths to get the warmest affection . However,  the more expectation I wanted , the more disappointment occurred to me. Perhaps that's the punishment the God shew to me!!

Nevertheless, I long for the warmth of a home, friends, in particular, the understanding of my parent. I can devote myself to the job, willing to make great efforts to learn as much as I can.  I'm eager to own them and make them go under my way to the best of my ability, but reality may clash with ideal and expectation. The letter written to my parent had been sent out but I don't know when they can receive it , also I'm not sure what's their reaction after reading that letter.  Could they understand me a bit ???

Home is  all the people's port, as well, the most warmest place in the lifetime. Without the understanding of family members, how can I live happily?? I'm looking forward to getting understanding from them. If they know how I feel, I can fly up high, do what I want. Is my requestment high?? Do they can make my wish come true??

It's a sunny day today and the sunshine is very warm. I'm fond of this kind of weather  and hope everything happens for the best, it's my great wish!!