I feel like back to the summer of 2004, when my flunk of college entrance exam fell like a hammer strike. This time my cousin sister is suffering the same situation.

She had been a top student in her class and the school all the way, been expected to go to a top university in GD or somewhere, how come she just got 476, kissing goodbye to universities, and her dream of being an undergraduate．

I know shit happens in life, I just can't believe it falls so often and random, u haven't even recovered from the previous, when the next came to u, not me this time though, it feels like to me, cuz she is my cousin, I do know very well how she feels. I can't bear to see her suffering, while I can do nothing to help.

There were times I shed my tears on top my house in the middle of the night, and put my hands together praying to the stars in the dark sky for a better way to go. However things turned out not the way I wanted. (I was enrolled by a university that I didn't give a damn) With love and encouragement of my family and my relatives, I re-entered high school to take a chance, a second chance to fulfil my dream, and my folk's.

Funny enough I was quite happy getting along with my classmates who were in the same boat, meanwhile I found myself getting huge headways in every subjects, as if my road ahead was lit up by a guilding star and all I needed to do was keep going, step by step, closer and closer to my dream colleges.

2005 witnesses a great success in my second strife for a higher grade. However I seemed to have made a mistake in filling my college application form, which led me to a different place of disappointment, well, more or less.

So the question is, is it worth the time and energy to go for a second college entrance examination? It remains a question unanswered to me.

What's she supposed to do?

Brothers and sisters,

A lot of thanks to CE, Yan, Vivi and all for ur regular visits and nice comments that honor and grace my place, and a lot of guilt to the msgs I didn't reply promptly and my being a terrible friend without even saying hi often.

The truth is I like you all and I like this place.

Everytime I switch on my desktop I just can't wait to log on here and check out what I am missing on my space, what's new in this community. I really enjoy the the surprising joy of seeing a new msg or more poping up in the msg board, of seeing a new face or more in "recent visitors". Now blogging is part of my life, I don't think I can drop it in the near future.

Originally we came for the improvement of our written english, along which it brought us the happiness of "sharing", and very nice friends. We are doing the right things.

BUT dear friends, after all these years of studying english, we should really quit it and should really switch to more readings of native english on abroad websites, more listenings to whatsoever english shows and programs you like, and most importantly should really take every chance to open our mouths. ( That's what we call a lifetime plan)

Then come back here to tell us you are making headway.

Good luck !!

Yours, Lost in english

Dan

Twice a year, CET 4&6 come back again.

Very good luck to all friends sitting for these exams... behind you are not only other examinees but also me daniel.  Always behind you, Fiona, Lydia, Pearl...

Hear my pray !!

How come my skin becomes so weak?

How come Youku becomes so slow?

How come it keeps raining?

How come…

The other day chatting on MSN for the first time with a Canadian, Casara, a friend i got to know from a blog community, I really learned a lot and knew more about myself.

It feels so good, cuz she 's always teaching me new things, I can feel what's real english. Here are part of the random chat history I wuld like to share with u and hope u can learn sth from her words.

Thank Fiona for sharing with me this funky stuff

A pleasant image and its user-friendly layout can really make ur chatting online a joyful trip... 

What are u selling?

Yep, this is QQ 2009 Preview. An English version designed for foreign users and english lovers.

What are the selling points? A preview version though, I wanna give a lot of credits to it. NO pop- up commercial ads, NO distracting buttons that u never need, instead we have very neat design and more personalized preferences.

* A color ajusting bar that promise u all colors u can get, plus 8 backgrounds for choice.

* 7 modes to choose, among which " Q me" is newly added.

* 3 buttons on top of the window for " contacts", " groups" and " recent contacts", different from the previous vertical layout.

* As easy as a single click to change personal message.

* Chatting window to view chat history.

And many many more to experience.....

What r u waiting for? Go get one and  tell me how u feel    (*^__^*)

This time I am not showing u what movies on screen but a book and its author.

It's " Mistaken Adversary" by Penny Jordan. The names you might not have ever heard about. ^_^

It was late spring of 2005 in a small bookstore when I found this book. I took it out of a stack of old books whose cover pages were yellow enough to tell me how many years they had come through. However they caught my eye not because of this but a tag saying 50% off. Then I opened the book, and turned it from the front to the back, with no knowledge of what on earth it's trying to tell me. I couldn't understand its "beautiful" depictions.

Then a funny thought came to me, " It doesn't mater at all now I can't read it, maybe when i go to college, or later... I can better understand it. Most importantly it cost only 5 yuan..."

So it's been on my desk or in my bed throught out these years...

Now I really can't put it down once it's in my hands. Its beautiful sentences keep amazing me, and I have to make sure my eyes open up to them all the time. Awesome!!

Here is Penny Jordan's Weblog  http://www.penny-jordan.com/weblog.html

Knock yourself out to know more about her !!

Wohoo, Kungfu panda is coming already !! We have heard a lot of hype about it. And we have Jackie Chan （成龙） and Lucy Liu （刘玉玲）dubbing for the movie.

Released in North America on Jun 6, Kungfu Panda now can be watched on YOUKU.com, without subtitles. See, the bulky panda on the cover is really alive and kicking, right, he knows martial arts (Kungfu).

He is called Po, who loves kungfu and always dreams of being a hero with matchless kungfu. However his father (a goose) wants him to inherit his family noodle business. So one day he earmarked himself as the dragon warrior whose mission is to protect the hometown from the evil Leopard, Tai Lung. Convinced by the master's master Wu Gui, master Shi fu no longer doubts Po, instead he finds great potentials in him and teachs him Kungfu with bread as treat, which is a great incentive to him. And it turns out that it works !  Now he is among his idols -- Tigeress, Viper, Monkey, Crane and Mantis.

With exellent Kungfu, Po then struts his stuff and defeats Tai Lung, making him a real dragon warrior.

Without very complicated plot, the story is quite easy to undersand. Well, a bulky panda becomes a savior, sounds kind of absurd. However it just mirrors the heroism deep down in American.

Panda, Chinese national treasure, now has been on screen as a cartoon image. It reminds me of a photo earlier last year, " a panda climbing on the empire state building" which was entitled " American's fear of China".  Interesting !! 

Check out those links for the flick.

CD1  http://v.youku.com/v_show/id_cc00XMzA0NDk2NDA=.html

CD2 http://v.youku.com/v_playlist/cc00f1809555o9p1.html

Girls are different styles of music, some rap, some R&B, some rock, and some soft music, as peaceful as bandari.

You can't reach its pitch,you can't follow its tempo,you can't catch its meaning.

So it's not your song.

You could just listen to others singing, to see how wonderful he can sing this song.

Then you know, there are no bad songs but songs not for you.

And there are no bad singers, he just need a good song to give him a shout-out.

Sing with your heart, you may find  a song meant to be for you right there.

However, even you can handle it well, when the timing is bad all you sing is called pirated.

So that's called allergy ( a new word i earn after experiencing it).

Right after a walk with a very good friend, my right foot got itchy, which i thought was due to mosquito or sth. Somehow my right leg got kind of numb, stinging tichy, then my waist, my neck, my face my head...

Then I tried to scratch but, it's like taking drugs, once begins, never ends. Wherever I scratched there got swelled, with bumps popping up. Before long, my head turned into a pig head. ( It was horrible, u couldn't believe it was me if u were there)

I took a tablet, no, it was two, even though the instruction told me to take only one. However it didn't seem to help at all. lying in my bed, I felt like my whole body was floating on hot water.

For fear of waking up to see me in paradise with angels, I decided to see the doctor. It was 11 PM.

Thank goodness, I got much better 20 minutes after an injection, as the bumps turned red and were fading away. I am much better now !!

It's my third time to get allergy ever since my childhood. Once was in my primary school, the other in my middle school. So I bet it will never happen again in my college life. Allergy, I don't wanna see you again, never ever !!

Today I visited my sister and her husband. They live in the suburb where it's closer to their workplaces.

Stepped on to the bus I knew what kind of place I was heading to -- the bus was obsolete, hard-seat, without air conditioning. And I knew how many miles it could take me away with a one-Yuan ticket.

The bus pulled out of the downtown Guangzhou, after bumping for one hour and a half, it stopped at a small town where lived mainly migrant people speaking mandarine-like dialects. Walking down the street all I could hear was noisy bumping music playing outside stores and supermarkets on clearence sales, however they failed to attract me.

There my sister and brother-in-law were waving hello to me, as I walked towards them...

My sister was a great cook, she made a table of yummy food and soup... I ate and ate, finished all the food on the table, killed a watermelon, and wrapped up 2 Zongzi, 2 of the  3 they got. Hahaha...

I wonder what it's like after my graduation, do I have to go through a tough time renting a samll department before life becomes easier to me?

Annual college entrance examination kicks off this morning, unlike the past years, it comes all at a sudden when we are focusing on some other social events, like the earthquake, Olympics...

The reasons are more than this. The challenging job market situation after graduction, and the negative depiction of college students on the media, and many more, are cooling down the craze on going to colleges. Theoretically it's true, but practically the group of candicates applying for colleges are increasing dramatically. What a paradox!

I have 2 times taking this painstaking national exam, in 2004 and 2005. Actually the first time I was accepted by an undergraduate uni, but I gave no shit to it. The next year, I went to a nominally famous uni, started my major that I am not at all interested in. Once I came here, I have to settle down, cuz I can't afford a thrid time of torturing myself.

It's Jun 7, the date meaning sth to me and many many other college students. A date to end tough high school, to begin an era of freedom. Oh, is it freedom? The war never ends.

Whatsoever, wish my younger sister a great success, it might be a better way for her to go, not perfect though.

I have 3 goals in my life, be a good son, be a good husband, and be a good father.

Seems that in China it's been traditionally highlighted in chinese culture showing respect to parents. Father is always right, when he says yes, you can't say no. Father is harsh, when he asks you to study you can't play, and he never asks you to play. So that's what it's used to be in the old days. Things have been greatly changed in the modern age, but to the bone of a chinese, father is an unchallenged polar in a family. So is that a good son who is always in line with a father, always walking in the shadow of his father? My first goal seems plausible now.

Being a good husband seems easier, for you are just responsible for one person -- your wife. However, the problem is you will still have illusions of love when meeting a pretty girl or a sexy  woman, unlike that you are not likely to have the illusion having someone rich and kind as your parent. So to be a good husband firstly is to be loyal to your wife, never cheat on her, and sometimes have to make up a story to please her. That's it? No, you gotta be as rich as she expects you to be, with handsome income, a big house, a car... Well, it would be perfect to make time eating out with her regularly, going travel home and abroad at least twice a year...

What about good father. Well, it seems the easiest one to achieve. With the experience of being a child, he knows better what a good father is supposed to act....

Being a son, a husband, a father is just 3 different stage of a man. Without the first two phases, where comes the third ?

Men are not easy to be, either.

To be honest I don't like movies of this kind, somehow I finished this movie at the cost of a shut-eye this afternoon.

The HK movie "Goodbye, gangsters" （再见古惑仔）shot in 2007 seemed like a an end to the series of movies " gansters" that was once a hit in 1990s.

There's no doubt that the " gangsters" series has a very negative impact on the growing-ups in China, even Asia. The violence scenes and brutel gangster behavīors, individualism and heroism hightlighted, just encouraged the youth to follow, which in turn encouraged lots of social problems, campus violence, drugs, gamble, even prostitution.

The authority seemed to have realized its hazard and have been doing sth to make things up. "Goodbye, gangsters" is just a part of the action, following the last feature 九龙冰室 star-roled by 郑伊健。

So this time is a show time for 陈小春, to have a transformation of image, from a real gangster to a regreted gangster.

As a public character, an artist has his social responsibility to bring the public more positive entertainments, to help children and youngsters build up right values. What's more, one should do everything he can to make up for what he did wrong, so does an artist.

The movie again left me pondering if it's really so hard for a gangster to morph into a good guy. Yes, it seems that they are not always given chances to make some changes, once a gangster, always a gangster... And it's like their fate that they can never escape that they always end up caught killing someone for revenge, or dying hard...

I don't think it's good. Whatsoever the movie has to show the audience that people are always given chances to correct after the mistakes they made. That means movies as a public voice that has a profound influence on a wide range of audience, it should take its responsibility to teach people the right things.

General speaking, it's not overstated that the movie is still a great success despite the bloody violence scenes going too far.

Here is a short report (120-140 characters) I did weeks ago to share with those interested in Business english.

This report aims to assess the performance of new products A, B and C, in terms of turnover in department stores, supermarkets and small shops between 2000 and 2002.

Turnover of department stores made ￡50m in 2000, and stayed unchanged at ￡35m over the following two years.

On the other hand, supermarkets showed a general upward trend, with turnover kept rising from ￡65m in 2000,to ￡70m in 2001, reaching ￡80m in 2002.

However, small shops experienced a lower performance. Turnover of ￡30m was made in 2000, then fell to ￡20m in 2001 before a slight recovery of ￡5m in 2002.

Generally speaking, supermarkets rank first in sales over the 3-year-period, following were department stores and then small shops.

Have you ever understood that...

Easy come easy go

Respect all fear none

Good health is there in the food you hate.

You weakness lies in what you like and hate

Ordinary people don’t know they can be unordinary

You valentine is the most beautiful, your wife is not

Sometimes you just need a woman, while sometimes an angel

You are ignoring some other things when you are pursuing something

To all the heros fighting against the nature disaster, and those searching for true love.

Love is pure

     is what we live for

love is everything

     is beyond compare

love is never late

love is the sun, love is the moon,

love is night and day

love is always near

love is river, love is mountain, love is here and there

love can heal a soul

      can change the world

      can last for ever when you believe.

Some people who read my post " old dramas" may find me kind of nostalgic, yep that's the truth, besides i like songs of different times and have a lot in store.(to be honest I like Rap and rock, too) Somehow, I like to associate this state of mind with sunset.

Do you like sunset?

Golden beach, crystal clear water, and refreshing gentle breeze. Hand in hand with your beloved one. See the flame in her eyes. That’s sunset, as beautiful and romantic as it can get.

However, I have a fear of sunset when it’s a metaphor of old age, even it’s beautiful as depicted in poems.

When you live on memory rather than on aspiration and illusion, you mentally rank in the old, even not physically. No access to every segment of the past,  sweet or bitter; no even a thread of hope of what a surprise coming tomorrow. Like a placid surface of lake without ripple by breeze, and a sunset following which is a dark night-- the end of the day. All they have is memory, which gets heavier and heavier as it rolls.

Feels like my mind is getting old faster than my body.

Maybe i really really need to get some fresh air...

The other day in man's room. Suddenly I found some words on the door in front of me saying " mind your left".

So I looked left, then there it said " mind your right".

So I looked right.

Guess what, on the right it said " mind your own business".

Thanks for reminding.