bottleneck

I am stuck in some problems.. well i am always a problem boy...endless problems are closing me in, covering me.. i can't breathe.

Now the biggest one is my failing to pass BEC thus ending my "investment" with nothing. What leaves me at ease a little bit is my faith in that I really learned sth. However it's just this part that shames me, makes me feel so much incomplete, so far from what kind of person i wanna be.

Is it what people call bottleneck?