Tomorrow ,i will go homw ,happy .I am looking forwaerd this moment for a long time ,best wishes for every friend and happy new year!see u later!

Tomorrow ,i will go homw ,happy .I am looking forwaerd this moment for a long time ,best wishes for every friend and happy new year!see u later!

I thinkd the difference between us is so big ,i am a little shamed ,because i do the nonsense job everyday ,including my graduate essay,it is all fault and make any sense.

I will work harder and harder if i had job until i graduate ,i remember no pain no gain ,this must under such precondition that is i am satistied with the job !

This morning i saw a news I angel grandama diliver goods twice everyday for surporting her family ,which including her grandason and her husband who is suffering from canser.the angle grandama is a very strong woman ,she give  an  example to we youngers. she is 74 years old!

I am a selfish girl ,i never take care other people except my family member ,so I never regard my BF my relative! i was boring ,He treat me very well ,but i dont like him ,i dont know why ,i think i should see a psychologist .

Now i am 26 years old ,i have lots of things to regret ,but i dont have any means to remedy them!what  I should do is giong on !!

Six days has gone of 2008 ,it is no different with before ,everyday ,eating sleeping chatting ,sometimes go shopping walking and so on ,but I really dont have the mood to do my paper.just because i dont like it at all .so the only expectation of me is graduating  immediately .I really dont want to stay in this school to muddle along .....

Yestarday ,we six students of graduate students invited our tutor to give him a happy birthday ,during the period ,waht everyone said make me disgusting, our tutor is  just a shit ,he not only understand our task at all ,but also brag his ability ,so boring ......

I find because last year i dont use my head often ,so it response slowly somewhat.so i think everyone should study a little everyday!

Today is the last day of 2007,I should summarize  the whole work of  year......

but at the whole year I have done nothing except  published tow essayes,so i feel shamed .The graduated article haved been done well ,acturely done nothing ,it is fale and i dont like it at all ,so i dont want to accoplish it ,I dont want to compain more about it and my tutor and so on ......because everything will go on ......

In the while year i often ill ,including now ,i would get an small operation sooner or later,so now i have never thought about it ,no mather how i build my body ,it is always in the bad conditon......this  make me nerverse ......I have enough time to play ,to do what i want to do ,so cool!

Next year is an important year , our nation will hold Olympic Games,this is the big aspect ,as for me ,I will have a job  and dont know where whould i go .I wish my falimy ,relatives ,friends will have a good luck.

At last I appraciate everyont who take care of me about my BF and me ,now i solve the problem ,I should make me happy and optimistic,do u thind so? 

I have a big problem that i dont konw how to solve,

the relation betweem my BFand I exist some changes, 

i often angry with him ,and dont care of him any more ,I dont konw if i still love him ;

the only thing i know that i dont want he touch me anywhere .

I dont want to talk to him ,I dont want to have meal with him,i dont know why ,

He treats me very well ,and never angry with me !

According to the thoughts of our parents ,we should marry next year ,but as we are in the condition ,i think next year we would break up ;

previously ,i am optimistic ,and often make jokes with my friends 

but ,recently i change a lot ,I commited suicide really ,i am interested in nothing ,i think i get sick in my heart .if my parents dont exist in the world ,i think i dont exist early......

I cant endure any buden ......

 

I find a peculiar phenimenon that is i can read other people's articles ,

but i cant write something fluently.i dont know why ,

in another words ,i have nothing to write down,have nothing to talk about ,

if u let me speak in Chinese ,i cant say freely,maybe i read little ,not only Chinese books ,newspapers,or stories,but also Enlish ones ,so i dont have my own opinion  maturely.

So who can help me to improve this phinimenon?

Thanks for Monica's wonderful articles,i like them very much . everyday ,i am waiting her to update her blog ,i can learn much from his articles and feel some passion from them......

I imagine tha Manica is a hamor ,beartiful ,elegant and have strong personality ,we can say she is a legendary girl......i dont konw if it is right expessed like this :)

I like English very much ,like other Chinese students , 

after have learned several years we couldnt use it freely and speek fluently ,so i think this is the result of poor education system in China . 

How many students after graduate have little ability except a certificate that is a paper......just like someone said :

i prefer not to pass the CET-4 but can speak English fluently,this is my expectation.

I havent seen my brother for a long time although we often call each other,i still worry him very much.this time we i saw his arm ,my heart trembled and ache.there are lots of scalds in his arm ,some left scars ,some are healing.However i am in the good condition ,and accept well-educated .in my family best chance give me but i dont make good use of them very much.Now we grew up .it is time for us to marry,but have no money ,in spite of i find a better boyfriend ,but how about my brother ,he have nothing,no knowledge ,no certificate and so on ,when i think about these,I feel dreadful.......

Long time no see ,these days i caught a cold seriously,at the same time my younger brother come here to see a doctor.what is worse my boyfriend is in the same condition with me ,so everyday ,we two take an injection together in the morning ,at noon have lunch with my brother then bought some useful things for my home or bought medision for my brother he got pharyngitis seriously .yesterday he went home .so today i have some time to have a rest and update my blog.

I feel well now and get well right now.this winter this city is very warmer than any other before.so lots of people caught a cold and cough badly .good luck for my friends

Yesterday i quarreled with my BF just because he touched me suddenly ,i hate someone else touch me abruptly.once a time ,the same thing happened ,and i yelled at him in the street ,this time he touched me in my room.so this made me angry at once ,so i yelled at him :

"You are so boring !dont touch me again!"

"You dont tolerate me ,when i get a cold "he said

"You think someone else has never got a cold exept u ,are u  very ripsnorting?get out of my room !"
at the same time my roomate is in frout of us.so he felt very embarrassed.So this morning ,when I call him to take a injection ,he refusted to me.and said the thing happened yesterday again and again .so I lose my temper drastically.when i call him to consult about my job ,he cant manage me at all ......i collapse thoroughly .i called him again ,and shouted to him loudly :

"I hate u very much ,if u cant endure ma at all ,we can break up with each other ,and I cant endure u either.whatever u do ,u behave sentimental.I hate u very much!!!"

the nightfall is coming ,my roomate let me call him to have super ,when he came i dont treat him very well ,so he left my room after super .at the same time ,i feel sick and got a fever ,so i must cancel the teaching task.i felt the paterfamilias are not very happy.but i have no means at all!!

Bye i must go to bed and have a rest !

He is my college classmate and we were very good friend at that time.Now ,he will celebrate his wedding in Feb.2ed of 2008.However ,we cant attend it ,what a pity.so my boyfriend and i decide to post some money to him regard it as gift.But how much is the count of the money will be ok ,this is a difficult to determine.Two years ago ,when we graduated from our school ,he posted money per month as i am a postgraduate student although i havenot finish school.this is one aspect ,another is my boyfriend and he lived together when we were students at college.so the emothin adds a flat again.at last we decide post 1000 Yuan to him,although we have no money now .hehe

When we were at college ,we were very good friend ,we always had meal together.when I were in blude mood he could make me happy by telling me jokes ,so i would like to be with him     together .sometime ,i didnot have meal he called me to eat with him ,and every time he  paid it ,this made me feel embarrassed sometimes ,because he is in a tough condition come from villege.but he really treated me very well ,i appreciated very much.so now he will marry,i bless him welfare for ever silently. He must treat his wife well and his wife must be virtuous.blessing......

Now I must go to bed ,bye!

These days some good business happened on my head .Here i want to write here to share with my friends.

Firstly, my job has imformation ,the day before yesterday ,An uncle called me and brought me to meet the headteacher and secretary of that College.That made me very interesting ,but the probability of success is small ,because of my speciality and my poor school.but i am content with it ,it is better than no news......

Secondly ,i marceled a couple of days before ,before marcel i am a little nervous ,because i have never made my hair curly .in another mords i am afraid after that i would become ugly .but the result is cheering.My friends always said i became beautiful after that ,this make me very delighted.the new hairstyle is very fitful for me .i like it very much......

Above all are my good news ,from now on ,i tell u some opinion of myself .

Firstly,u know i am living in the north of China ,every winter it could snow heavily ,and most of people like snowflake when it flows off the sky ,incluing I.the feeling of this is very romantic and comfortable .We can enjoy that moment ,but this winter is very quaint.now it is December it had not snowed once ,and the weather is very warmer than ever before ,so many people got sick ,most of them catch bad cold.I think this is the result of the globle becomng warmer and warmer.
So every person in the world should protect our entironment,in order to prevent the disaster occur......and benefit to our offspring.Do agree with me?

Secondly ,i found some authors or  English teachers produced some articles often use some simple words but when we read them we often fell it is very fluent .why ?acturely we master enough vocabulary,but we cant use them freely ,espesialy in our daily life .the more practice,the better we can use the words .This need us prevere and prudence,we should learn new words at first ,then make a sentence using it ,at last write article with it ,in this way ,can we grasp English sooner or later.Tell the truth ,i like Enlish very much......

At last every should have a healthy ,so i want to play table-tennins ,bye ,my friends......

Yesterday i had a badly headache,just like fained to death.At that time i felt very sleepy and only want to go to bed .This morning when i woke up ,firstly i felt i come around ,the god give me a second life .I am very young ,but i often get sick ,this made me very nervous .No matter what i can do exercises (sigh).From now on ,I have lots of things to acomplish,but depend on this body condition ,i think i can come ture nothing ,now what i think is living one day pass one day .my friends often concole me that we will have bread but i am waiting so long time ......

Sometine i commit suicide,but i have burben on my shoulder.my parents raise up my brother and i hardly ,so i must treat them better when they get older and older.As long as i am on my pins i must make great effort to strive for the most success.....

I found many people said they were so basy everyday so have no time to update their blog ,compare to them i have many time ,in another words ,i am a free man I havent tasted the engaged feeling.on the assumption that i had a job and everyday on duty ,i think i should adapt it for a number of days. bucause i am used of idle living. but i cant realize my value if i always live like that .Everyday i can go shopping ,play table-tennins and go anywhere at random.so i said i am a free man .but this kind of living will be over three months later ,so we should cherish this period.

I havenot solved the problem of my job ,so my parents in law begin to be worry.If I cant find a job ,what should i do ,maybe i leave from thire son .hehe .

Yesterday ,when we siestaed ,my roommate received a message from her classmate who is mine too ,told her that our monitor signed to DQ petrifaction company ,thus there is a quota left in her company ,so her classmate told her to get in by the back door to enter the Oil company.she thought i didnt know this ,hehe.this made me angry ,if u told me ,i wont rob the chance ,this give to u ,but i ask her ,she said nothing ,this made me not very outright.

yesterday night ,she ask her classmate on the net about this thing ,and didnt let me watch ,so the message come ,she dont look until i turn around ,disgusting .she felt i dont know what happened.

My BF turn back ,yesterday ,and bought a memory bank for me ,because it  depreciated.I felt he dont care about my job at all ,he never ask any imformation about mine job ,acturely we found someone to help us ,but dont called him at all ,if we dont communicate with him ,he cant handle the affair for me ,let alone we dont nothing connection at all .My BF is indifferent to this .this make me angry too .If I wont have a job in the same city with him ,i think we must break up with each otherhe often said let me to his hometown ,do u think it is a good idear?i really want to quarrel with him intensely.I got angry extraordinaryly.I really dont know what to do.


There is a sentence said with reason. that is people should depend on oneself ,never depend on someone else.so i decide to call that one by myself no matter success of fail ,its my own.If I make my dream accomplish maybe i will change another BF,leave the prat who have little  masculinity.

Today i will tell u a interesting story.This morning ,i got up as usual,then went to library to bororrow several books ,I thought it is too early to have lunch,so i was reading book in the library,sudenly someone called and it was a short number ,i answered the phone :

"hello",

he said :"This is Zhu Quan,where are you ?"

"I am in the library,what is up?"

"The circs it such ,someone called Zhang Miao's mother said that Zhang got a accident in Harbin ,and meed money to the hospital ,pls telegraphic money to us ."

"Ok ,this is a bilder ,dont worry ,i go to find her right now ,wait a moment! "

It is very interesting ,Zhang's mobile phone had been stolen in Harbin two months ago on the bus ,so today such story heppened  I think this bilker is very foolish.If u stole the phone and called her family her parents maybe believe ,because she was in Harbin at that time .But many days later hehe ,not common stupid ,but rather addlepated.best wishes for everyone ,good luck everyday ,and dont be caught with chaff.as for the swindlers pls consider more before you plan to defraud someone els of money lest make a big joke ,maybe you will go to the prison.

I find my healthy is becoming worse and worse ,any part will get something wrong.so we must grssp every minute to build our body.this is my opinion.as far as I concerned ,I often get ill ,get cold ,cough,fever and so on .it is terrible.so i want to do exercises.but i found a seruous problem i have no partner.because  i play table-tennins .yesterday and today i played with my classmate ,but shi is a quaint girl ,she always didnt speak to me ,i dont know why ,acturely ,we played well ,suddenly,she do so .i really cant pick up with her ,so i will stop playing tomorrow.do something only by myself or waiting my BF come to play with me .

 several days ago ,i decided to study something useful ,but i havent persisted .a little ashamed .the advent of graduate is coming ,but i havent possess a kind of ability.come on ,Smile.Right , there is something i want to say ,i think i have a bad character,that is i dont speak to the people who i dislike.Even if i come acosse her or him in the street ,it is bad ,i think ,but i cant change this kind of behevior ,what should i do ,who can help me .pls give me some advise,thanks a lot

Today is a new day ,after serious ill i live out at last.Yesterady i had a bathe at forenoon after that i felt the whole man changed beautiful,hehe,just felt by myself.Afternoon of yesterday ,i went shopping with my roomnate.Meanwhile the New Mart is the 6th celebration ,so there were lots of people in there.we just bought some daily things .hehe ,i intend to buy a sweater but i disvover that everything is  markup.so i could not afford this ,so i decide to go home to buy ,thus i can cost my the money of home.hehe ,a little cheeky.

Today i played table-tennis with my classmate and a little sweated i felt very comfortable ,i understand the life rests with athletics.From childhood ,i often got ill than other children.when i grew up it is the same ,whatever i do exercises .I am conscious of that well body is very important to everybody ,only with healthy body ,can we do what we want ,take me for example ,because of my poor body ,i cant do something i like,what a pity ,now i am youth,i really dont know how should i bridge the rough phase.I believe the fate will not play with me ,because i endure so many pains.

Okey a good news ,i earned 400 RMB with my BF together in one day .if being able to everyday how nice it is .

Recently, a debate in the net is furious about "the real tiger ,the fake tiger",i think it is very senseless ,do u think so ?does it matter the tiger is real or fake.our nation cost much manpover material resources to prove this ,do u think it make sense?

Okey ,now i want to tell some my opinion about the education.I admire such person who are well-educated and have more ability ,for instanse ,the champion in the Chalenge Cup Competition,it is about making robot .thus student must be able to do some difficult job.but you know thus students is not always available ,most of the college student can do nothing after he comes out of the school gate ,of course ,the common college is especially so ,that foster some talentless  and bad-manners student .what a pity.however the ivy students are not the same as the common ones.so i want to say if give me another chance i must choose the ivy one rather than the common ones.or choose the pivot specialty in the common university,the two case can make us find a good job.but now i cant have another chance.if i want to live better ,i must make great effert to compensate what i have lost.

There is a bad nows,i am ill again .i think i need a little operation to cure my ill.but there is no appropriate time.The bad body make me loss some chances.yesterday ,boyfriend of my good friend find a good job ,the job is a little special he has to go a broad for several years ,then change another country,he gives up the chance because of his girlfriend .from this ,i think in the world ,the real love is exist.best withes for them and have a nice futher.