Don't know why

Everytime I really enjoy my time when cooking, sometimes, I even think I would love to see my flatmate going to the uni, so that I can turn on the DVD player, listening to the song, at the same time enjoying my cooking time and thinking about god. 

 

Today, when I got up I felt so happy, I went downstair to take lots of pictures from garden, the garden is just so beautiful currently, all of the flowers are blooming. Then I went shopping to buy some materials that I wanted to cook. I did enjoy my time when cooking, until when I nearly finished my dinner, I don't know why some feeling came up in my mind, I do feel a little bit lonely? It's long time I don't have such kind of strong feeling, since I was just so happy after getting to know and having god in my life.

 

But I may understand how this feeling come from. From this week, I realised that my university life is coming to an end and we have only two weeks to go, then there won't be any class. I do think I change a lot in this semester, I start to listen careful in the lecture, trying to step up in the group and be prepared before the persentation. I have never done any of these things in pervious, although it's a bit late. After I found I did learn a lots (it's all because the words are changing me) it's a little bit unacceptable to realise that my university life is going to end. I do need to catch up and start to hunt for a job, especially if I do want to stay here unless until March rather than going back China for interview. otherwise, I can't imagine how life could be, everyday just staying at home and do some cooking? I can't make that for living.

 

I am a little bit upset no because of there is not a "he", or say boyfriend by my side. Although I was a little bit doubt about it previsouly. I know god is my lover, and he fills my heart with joy, happyness and satisfaction. Now I can see the moon is arising, so bright and gentle with the colour of yellow, just like the face of god, it really comforts my heart.....and wipes away my upset, now I feel like full of energy again! I feel like I can run downstair on the garden for many rounds~~~! Although sometimes the moon is covered by the clours that I can't see it, but I know it's over there, whether or not I am able to see it or not, so I believe I can go through all of these and have a brilliant future by having love from heaven in my life. I will be always thankful and trearish these love our dear god have given to us.

 

In the end, this is the chocolate muffin I have made today, one of the sisters is really good at making this and it's really delicious.