Today is Valentine's Day,sweets and romantics everywhere.

yep,i'm still alone.minutes before the day came i said to my frined that the lonelyness is all the result of myself when i chose to live that painfully to love that kind of u.

i never regretted that i had paid years on u,making every effort to make u happy and myself changing to the direction u wanted.tired,so tired,but so wonderful those times when i spared with u.

i thought i would hate u after we departed,however,not at all.maybe just as they said,love is not the mistakes that one of the two made to the other,but sby didn't realize how precious it was that both of them had created so many incrediable moments for the other.Life is the moments that could take ur breathe away,that was a good enough when i still had so many memories about u and the stories between us.so i tried to make myself believe the reason for the end is because we still have better choice and the ways we like is quite different.Actually, i know how rediculous the reason was when i cried so helplessly after i woke from every dream about u.

But i will still try,and try ,to let u go,till my life is completely nth to do with u.

wish a good day today for u,however,this is not my day,what i could do is walk across other's roses and watch other's smiles,and there's nth to do with me.

The electricity is out again!God,then we had to get onto the bed though the time was so early.Fortunately the electricity came back 2hours later,which was much faster than usual.Maybe we should give thanks to that coz my parents and i then had a long talk during the time in the darkness,without shy or sth might cause unhappy,on the contrast,so frankly,we led that comfortable talk.

we shared many things,they tried to understand what's in my deep heart and why i chose to face matters like this rather than that like they alway did.They listened to me,quietly,about the stories in the past and the feeling raised,comforting me on some troubles but not giving suggestions all the time like before.

actually i complained my parents for a long time coz i thought their way of education was limited and too traditional,which led me feel not free and couldn't have the core of anything of my life at all.however, after the communication,I found everthing the decided or arranged for me was starting from the fact that they loved me,yes they did.

the night was so cold before the electricity back,but their listening and trying to get into my world lit the dark,maybe as weak as the match could get,really lit the fire and broke the darkness inside myself.

coz i know,it's their support that i could go as far as i can,so with the stronger support and more understanding,i could do better and be happier.yep i'll have no doubt about that.

It has been said this is the coldest weather since 50 years ago. Oh my GOD!!I feel so frustrated when I couldn't go out together with my friends,when I felt greatly cold however I had to face the out of the electricity,when I nearly fell down to the ground walking on the ice...

When could I see the lightS from my dear sun??

But it's really lucky enough that I came back since the snow hadn't covered so widely,or maybe i have to say things above on some trainS which had delayed for several time or on the high-way where it's said the insant noodles's price had risen to an increidable level.

So,I have to tell myself and comfort the people who are still complaing the bad weather,that we should express thanks to our fates coz we are at home,enjoying the hot water and the comforts we share now.Futhermore,we should sincerely give our wishes to those who still being in bad conditions.

Then what I want to say is,maybe we cannot change the things arranged by the god,but we did can improve the spirits of  facing the troubles.and,for the most important part,we're having a much better time than ever,to feel more precious cares time and time again,around u,and me!

Wish everyone a warm winter and happy new year~~

well,after I watched the movie,for the 3rd time,i lost in mind again.

i have to say i can't ,at least now ,hold that kind of courage to face so many difficulties as Chris did in that film.He cannot sell any of his machines which were all the welfares his family owned at his worst times,he has to face the blame and disappointment from his wife and son,as a man,he must have considered himself as useless and helpless.

however,he made it,firstly he turned his life to a new direction,he wanted to do sth in the finacial area just because he believed in that being good at numbers and people were serious advantages of him,and he did,with the risk of no space to live and no money to deal with the basic pays.he,together with so many outstanding men all over the country,receiving training classes and freely worked day after night,the only purpose for them is everybody wants to get the final ticket.what's the different with other guys is he still had to keep fighting for so many things like avoiding the rents ,for which he and his son spent the night in the narrow washing room.

he referred the meaning of "happiness",he reffered the former president of the US,Jopherson,he used the word "pursuit" in the declaration of the rights.so Chris said in vain that maybe happiness is sth u could pursue but never got.

but he also told his son,u got a dream,u gonna protect it.that's why he never say no to his life and the bad situations,he held on,insisting doing the incrediable things that a guy without high degrees and good working experiences could lead a success as an excellent stockbroker.

he choose to pay more and  greater patience and energy,using his wisdom and intelligence.

of course he did a great job finally,and won his happiness back,he cryed when he received the formal invitation in that enterprise,the tears stand for the whole explaination of happiness.

i also cryed,for what he had done for all the men who fell maybe tens of thousands of times in the reality.Life is not about the amount of the air u breathe in,but the moments that take ur breath away.that's what it's said in another film Will Smith had joined,and also was a presentation for me,having made the direction of my life much clearer.

i have smelled the happiness,i want to catch them,since now!

well,i was in bad temper again .

i have to say that's my fault and completely unnecessarility to embarass myself,however,i lost myself again.

i was born to lack of sth called courage,and i don't want to move though i have realized was in trouble for long time,enjoying the shadow was seems to be the normal and even perfect thing in my world.

stupid as stupid does,as Gumph said.At that time i still thought the expression is sth that could raise ur confidence or belif or sth else,now,it seems the right descrīption about me.

i'm always doing and trying to do sth foolish,making me and the people around me feel annoyed,well  i admit that was not my former wish but some unknown reason drove me to do that.

confusing,amazing,i do hope tomorrow could be another day.

I had a new home,where I found times ago,though lack of some courages to show my poor english, I would still appreciate the beautiful times sparing here,wish me and my english learning a good day~~~