A short message to me elder sister

As the Chinese new year is coming,the family members who are outside are preparing to go back ,so it is with me.Every year I would choose some special present for my parents;, my elder sister and my young brother.From the bottom of my heart,the fact no person will send me a gift for the coming year makes me sad. Now I felt tired,and felt pressure that from myself.
   I send a message to her just now and tell her I choose an inexpensive thing for her as a wish her happiness in the coming year. There so many paybacks which make me stress out when I am at thought of them. You cann't avoid those things.I hope she could understand my painstaking words.She is a good and kind girl except for some shortcomings.And we are the same in some aspects.But I hope in the future she could live well with her husband and can deal with things in her life appropriately.I wanna to insist sending her a gift every year which makes her inspired when she felt alone for struggling for the happy life.
  My family member often feel apologized that they didn't care me very well with some aspects among the three children.That is not completely their faults,although I felt hurt when I reminice some things at some time.Actually I often feel my mother is a strong-will woman when I stay with my boyfriend.At that time, I am very appreciate that she could tolerate the lonely days when my father had to go out for making money.(in fact,this also give a lesson that as a woman,you should not only tender to your husband all your life,but also you should have the ability to support your family's life.Otherwise,the couple would be seperated for a long time.)
   Everytime I went back,A would do something good for me to eat.At one time I felt unaccustomed to that,'cause those things cann't be the compensation.What she do is just for her futuer days.Although these words I would not speak out,and just do the housework as before.But now the environment and mood is changing.Maybe something at some time,your thought would be changing.(one thought is right at that time,the situation at that time determines your feeling,you cann't deny you are wrong).
   So I should keep strict with myself,then I have the ablity to influence the people around me.As the time goes,they would know what a person I am.Maybe there are some things which makes me moved,but I cann't be exposed to.I  I know once you lost yourself and my life will be involved many trivals those are superficial.

   Once your treat a person you should be sincere no matter I would choose words or silence to you.And I should be a sincere person no matter what kind of the person he or she is.You can choose silence,but you cann’t choose to lie to others.That ,in fact is lying to yourself,and do bad for your moral character.