Act small-minded

       This morning I listenned to "born to win" of Xin Dong fang. A man born to win is not just caring about his own affairs but caring about the whole world. He also not only holding with vertues but also acting under virtues. I believe so. We should follow what we believe and take actions not just stay in the level of speaking again and again.

       These days, I have many thoughts, the night dream indicates that I am not calm, peaceful inside. I know what my subconsciousness and needed stuff from it. However, there is a long way to go before I can live and think freely, before I can act with a real self, before I stop hinding behind the mask.

        I feel worried about mom constantly, and sometimes have some bad thoughts. Maybe that's due to the lack of security. What I heared in the morning also told me a winner doesn't achieve his security through making others lose. I don't agree to it. It's just nonsense against reality. But I am always confused what is the source of my strong sense of security. The counsultant in the school psychologist's once told me the children from incomplete families can get security from abundant love given by people. I am not so blessed to have love in abundance. Maybe the problem is not so important and worth to be paid so much attention to.

        The exams are just around the corner. God bless! And hope I can pass the computer exam as a lucky dog.

        The rorch relay was in YiChang on Children's Day. Many school fellows went to witnessed the holy moment. Missing the once-in-a-lifetime chance was no big deal when hearing many were worn out because of the sleepless night in the city squre. It's in JingZhou today, and will be welcome as it was in YiChang, the city where my university is located.