I believe!

        This morning,I finished the tutur work and asked to get all the payment. I also told the student's mom that I was afraid I couldn't come over the next weekend because I was going to take final exams,so I asked to get the money this time. The student I teach is going to take the entrance exam to Senior High School the week following the next week. So next week might be the last time I teach her. Her mom seemed very unhappy when I told her I might skip the last time. She also made a conclusion of my tutor work in the past one month and a half, which astonished and hurt me deeply.

     She told me that I failed to activate her daughter's interest in English. I failed to devote time to teach and communicate with her daughter. She also said many bad words to me. For example,"You are criming by skipping the work at the crucial time." "At least you should have the sense of responsibility to help her." "A month ago, I wanted to switch to another person because you had asked for leave for so many times."so on and so forth. It sounded as if I commited crime and was indifferent to her daughter as her teacher.

    I felt as if I was nothing but a person with many faults when she blamed me so hard. My dignity was under her foot at that time.However, I didn't shed tears because she didn't worth my tears.

    She never remembers what happenned just the day before. It rained cats and dogs, but I still insisted on taking bus and walking for minutes to teach her daughter. She never invited me to stay for a little while or just for a cup of tea after the work.And everytime after it was finished, she just stayed there checking what I had taught.

    I never acoknowledge that I did sth. wrong. Yes, I am not a perfect tutor, but not awful. She is just an awfully strict mother I meet. So I just want to shrug away.

   Everyone can try to do the work well when he is on different stages and plays different roles. However, the world doesn't recognize you as a contributor,or just ignore you. We can't ask to be accepted all the time and under every condition. But we can keep our dignity as a hard-working individual.

   It is commonly believed that when others blame us for our faults, we should reflect and correct our mistakes, but I want to claim that we can just be ourselves whatever opinions others have toward us. We are just ourselves. We are unique. Why do we have to change with others and even become the slaves of others' willingness.

    Be yourself! I believe I live up to myself. That's enough.