Recently , i always felt i was so tired in my job ,from 8:30am to 4pm ,i just looked like a machine without stopping ,many many work were waiting for me to handle ,one by one ,one by one ,my head neally blew up ,but i could say nothing in the company ,because no one will  really care about u ,.when i saw my bf yesterday evening ,i cried ,may be ,this is the best ways to abreact .i remember that when i didn't have a job before ,i was so eager to have one ,even didn't mind how tired it would be .but when i have , in the contrary , i don't cherich it any more .

With my bf ,i ever and even now ,sometimes ,have the same sentiment ,i always feel that he treats me not so well.but yesterday evening ,the small thing he did ,really making me feel good .when we were having our dinner in the happy  shopping ,one beggar caught our sight ,we found that when people who left after finishing their dinner ,he picked up their  chopsticks  to begin his own dinner ,my bf felt so sad ,althrough he never gave sth to other beggars who directly came up to his face ,he advised me to gave some money to that beggar ,and then gave some chicken again .of course ,that beggar gave much tks to us .but ,i can't understand why he always let me to do such thing .so i asked ,guess what he said "goodness things leave you to do"of course , that is not to say ,i am not a virtuous girl ,i think just that he wants god gives me more bless .

So ,i think ,nothing will be so perfect , no matter job or emotion ,when ,sometimes ,we feel bad ,if possible ,don't think about it ,insist doing it for some time ,and then ,you will find no question can't solve ,there are many many lucky things waiting for u tomorrow.because tomorrow is another day ,laugh or cry , it 's up to u.

May.14 .08 ,a little rain .

I clearly remember that i said if he didn't reply to my text message ,i wouldn't never contact him .yes ,i still remember what i said ,but today,i drop a brick to myself .i send a message to him again ,because ,earthquake was happened in Zhengzhou ,i guess he might be there,i am still worry about him in my deep heart .but i no longer wish he can reply to me ,i don't care at all ,because ,i just want him to know ,somewhere ,one person miss him ,still.

Recently ,really ,i believe fate more than before ,yes ,who will love u ,who will be together with u ,God will decide ,really ,i don't know why,i can't understand,either .sometimes ,i still miss yesterday,miss the days i stayed with him,but as time goes by ,i know ,we are just that ,no one can help us .yes ,sometimes ,you really can't control yr life ,no matter what you seek for..............


I guess i must love him more ,or else why i aways miss him ,but,he never.
But i never know what i should to do ,yet.

May.10 ,saturday,yes ,just before Mother's day,i rcvd a text message from my college classmate.first ,just like others ,he just asked me how i was doing recently ,of course ,i was happy for that ,because ,no matter what ,there are sb who remember me.
but ,after that ,step by step ,he said to me that he liked me since we were both in university,when i heard of that i was very surprised ,because ,in the past four years ,he never had a talk with me ,u can think ,how amazing it is .of course ,i refused politely, but ,guess what he said later,he said he would like to be my  valentine,valentine? i doubt whether what he said was true or not , it's really a big bomb to me ,which let me recall what he on earth looked like .yes ,it's that you can't find him in a crowd .the only thing on him i can remember now is that ,at that time ,almost all girls in my dorm considered him to be uncomely,because we heard of that he liked to see erotic films.hehe......,althrough that ,before us ,he never acted sth to exceed what is proper , but now ,you see ,he actually said that ,i really can't believe ,so horrible you can think .no doubt ,i said no ,yes ,no possible at all .


Which let me think about the tideway in now days ,valentine ,yes ,it's a vogue word among people ,no matter young or adult ,maybe ,i think ,people are so lonely ,so blank now ,they want to find sth fresh ,exciting .no wonder ,recent years ,divorcees are so many .but ,i think ,people should pay more attention to the person who company with you long years ,no matter how bad she is ,one fact can't ingore is that she loves you more than others ,such as yr wife .


SO ,lovely people,don't be so selfish,don't try to hurt the person loving you for yr own benefit ,and also don't be so blackhearted to hurt others  ,because ,at last ,you will find the person you hurt is just yrself .


I guess ,god has her eyes .wish god bless all of us ,having a happy life ~

Two days ago,when i was surfing,my BF advised me to watch TV ,which was about foreign education in baby  .just like he said ,it was really very interesting .when baby is at the age of learning to crawl ,even walk , they are not let baby crawl optionally,but educate them to crawl or walk bravely , when kids arrive in the destination ,they will give them some awards ,if not ,they slipped up ,they will say :honey ,come on ,you can do it .giving more encouragement ,however,not to help them .


Of course ,they are not as hard as the nether millstone ,on the contrary,they want to let their kids grow up better ,in the process of education ,they want their babies to know road is not always smooth in their life , there will be sth unexpectly happened ,suddenly.it is normal to dread ,and they need know this .

However ,in china ,parents won't give their children such education ,they try to let their babies avoid dangerous things ,and usually ,they just tell kids it is wrong to do sth ,not let children  come through physically ,so ,babies won't know why it is wrong ,how is right .suddently ,i think of Mrs ,Jiang Qingqing ,who is superstar in china .one day ,she said that she allowed her honey to go or out kitchen freely ,if her baby wanted to play sth dangerour ,such as pot with hot water ,she will not only tell her that will hurt his small finger ,but also guide his finger to touch it slightly,when the baby feels hot ,next time ,he will not touch it again,at the same time ,he knows what is called danger,how it is dangerous.i think that's very good .


Of course ,i am not meant to criticize chinese education  ,but that ,i think ,in some  aspect ,we  really need  to learn from foreigner ,we need absorb their advantages to improve ourselves ,and educate one person since he is still a small baby ,only this.