"It is not consigned to u" ,when i saw this sentence ,i know what amy is intent to do.truely ,it's a bad news to us ,and obviously,she had distracted her cargoes to other companies,it's absolutely sure ! suddently, i think of what i said when my general manager asked me why we didn't have so many cargoes as before :maybe it's because of financial crisis in America ,i said , However , now , i know the reason ,the real reason.......

I feel depressed when i know this , because ,unlike troubles in my own life which i can know what i should do and what i can do right away .now ,however,it's job ,i can't control all this ,i don't know what i can do to change the situation .as i know we have cooperated with amy for about more than ten years ,ten years ,it's really a long time .but now ...... i don't know why ,maybe it's because she feels that we are new in this field ,we have no experiences and sometimes we will make mistakes ......but i wish she can know that everyone 's experences are from nonhave to have ,and everyone will make mistakes ,also i wish she can know that though we are new ones ,we have passion ,we can and also we would like to make our great efforts to service for her,and what the most important is we always do work not only in stand of our own interests but also hers and her convenience..........maybe i guess ,because sb who in oder to live,in order to own her such a client ,give her more good than we ,maybe if i were amy , i will think twice ........ it's normal for a social man , a commercial man ........i should understand .........

Just ,i feel unpleased for this because i am one number of our company ,i can't be coolly unconcerned or indifferent.what i can do ,i think ,is to try to do my work better than before ,make as less mistakes as possible ,think more and do more !! i guess ,amy is choosing ,and i believe,eventually ,she will know who she should choose and cooperate .

I greatly expect..............

When seeing EQ ,i think of the words my bf once said to me: u are lack of EQ.truely ,i didn't agree with him  that time ,because i didn't know what on earth the EQ was ,ah,but now ,i know .....and i have to acknowledge my bf is correct ,ah.

EQ is the ability one can know himself,can control his emotion,encourge himself and harmonize the relationship with others and so on.and among the kinds of  abilities EQ included ,self-knowledge,self-regulation,empathy,and interpersonal relationship are the most important to one's career success in the actual society.

Self-knowlege , i think it's what i need ,and always complaining that i haven't the success others have ,i haven't the big house and new car others have ,even , i complain that i haven't the beautiful face others have ,to those ,my bf always comfort me like that: (in the world)there are more beautiful girls than u no matter how beautiful u are ,and even if u r ugly ,u can't be to die for ur ugly,everyone has the reason to live. it's real, and it do work sometimes ,especially when i feel disappoint at myself. yes ,everybody must have two sides ,better is to know what they are ,and make good use of them in proper time and place ,don't be too self-conceit,also don't be too self-contempt .just do urself ,a unique u !!

Self-regulation,also is what i need ,i can't control myself 's emotion when i get angry ,it's also what trouble me ,my bf often said i was just a mad when i was angry . i can't control ,i just can't ,i don't know why ,i need this self-regulation ,it's what i need most .maybe my bf can forgive my ill-temper,but society is really not a place for self-indulgence ,so ,i think i have to change myself in future.

Empathy ,ah ,it's what i have , since i began my work  i found myself change a lot , no matter colleague or my bf ,i will think much of them when i get along with them ,maybe it's because i want to get empathy from them ,too.

Interpersonal relationship  has the sameness with Empathy ,i think .they both emphasize that we shall pay much attention to others feeling when we do sth or say sth ,respect sb's ideas even if we can't agree with ,forgive sb's small mistakes , turn up the thumbs when others do a good job in due time .and when others need help ,if possible ,we 'd better give a hand .no pains no gains is to say so ,i think . how do u think ?

It's a certain that i do have a low EQ ,and from above it seems like i have to make great efforts to improve my EQ ,ah ,how a long way it is ...................ok ,don't be afraid ,fighting............... ...........i think i can...............

I get angry with my manager ,because i nearly can't bear the way of her work ,"right way ","immediately" ......it looks like she can't wait for a minute and always with a black face ,so shit, which always let me feel rather depressive,i remember one night she made me almost can't fall asleep ,i told my bf if she did like that again ,i would directly send her text messages to let her know i really couldn't stand her.but guess what ,the next day she became rather gentle ,could she hear what i said last night ? i wondered , yes ,maybe god told her.

But good things take no long,she shows her hot-temper again.what should i do ? sending text messages ,no, i won't ,because i think ones character can't be changed by outside .and anyway ,she is my manager ,so at last god tell me what i can do is to tolerate ,yes ,sb once said :"before u can fly ,just to tolerate " ,when u can't ,when u don't have the power to change sth ,sb ,just to tolerate ,to be patient ,to wait for chance...... i am waiting for my fortune,baby ,come on!

Two weeks ago ,i sent our client 's cargo from xg to Mongolia with freight prepaid on the shipping advice ,so ,our mongolia agent released cargo to its cnee without collecting payment . u know it ' s really a big mistake in our job ,because ,the cnee may not pay us any more,if so ,we will lose $ 3000  for this ctr .i felt rather depressed,yes ,whenever i went into my office ,i will remember this big problem haven't been solved .

Luckily ,this morning  Huhii who is our Mongolia representative  told  me that cnee promised to pay us through ILINX ,that's fairly great .i will never make that mistake in future ,i will pay much care to my work ,yes ,it 's really a big lesson i learn in my work.

Here ,i want to say tks to my dear  Huhii, tks for ur kind help ,i really appreciate ur great help.also ,i have to tks god giving  me so much fortune , god , i really love u .