A Professor from Beijing University

Today a professor from Beijing University came to our school on a research project.

At the preparatory meeting with the head-teachers of each class, the professor told us some theories on education, especially between the relation of the school and the parents of the students. Some of the theories are useful.

He said that most of the parents are well aware of the policies and laws of the present day. And they are always ready and at alert to accuse the school of anything unfavorable with their parents in their eyes. For example, if their kids make mistakes and are punished, they will directly protest that their kids have been misused. If their kids are doing well at school, they will say that their kids are clever. If things are on the other side, they will claim that the school should be put to blame for malpractice.

He also said that the economic development of a region is not in harmony with the development of the education. Some economically prosperous areas such as Guangdong and Shanghai, the parents are not as keen on education as those who live in back-developed areas. Their aims are mainly on providing good housing and living conditions for the students. Under such conditions the students are too much pampered and irresponsible and a lot of other problems have ensued.

The third thing he talked on is about a misinterpretation of the parents. They often think education of their kids is something the school should do and therefore they have nothing to do with it. This lack of family education or a proper cooperation from the parents has made the children difficult to teach.

The fourth thing he touched upon is about the heavy pressure the parents put on their kids. I have written an article on it too. Many of the parents think that they should achieve more in their life however they have either missed or lost. There is nothing wrong for them to think so. Nevertheless, they have a high desire to make their kids to have their dreams come true. As a result, a lot of the kids are forced to learn to play the piano, to learn drawing and even calligraphy, or other thing as well as all the subjects at school.

What he centered upon are all things relevant to our work. We are all very glad to attend to such a meeting. I only wish he could successfully persuade the parents of our students a little at the following parents’ meeting.  

        Sex and Shanghai

Now I am ashamed of my nickname now.

A real scoundrel in Shanghai, who is from Britain and a villain, has lured quite a few ladies. He boastfully bragged about his affairs with the ladies in his weblog. What is the worse, his descrīption of the sex life with the ladies is just so raw and primitive and pornographic. I am feeling just outraged. This man’s confessed that he is a scoundrel.

He is a good-for-nothing villain in his own country. He has come to China to become a teacher in a university. Living a leisurely and free life, he does nothing special everyday except leaving his msn to his students and waiting for them to have contact with him and then tries to have them in bed. He has cheated so many young girls. Why should our government allow such things to happen in China? Why not just expatriate him after cutting off his big cock, of which he is so proud of?

How can such a villain be supposed to be a teacher in a university? He vowed that Teaching is the one job any Westerner can do when he is either incapable or unwilling to do any other job. Our overdue emphasis on English teaching has made it possible for such a villain to make a living in our country.

His vivid descrīption is so outrageous that I just can’t manage to keep calm. After reading it you don’t need to read any pornographic books any more.

Bearing such hatred to him, I can’t help resenting all those who have had affairs with him. They just offered their body to the villain for free, only making him think that all Chinese men are sexually impotent or they have just got so small organs as not to satisfy them. What an insult and humiliation! They are just low whores or hookers. They should be killed instantly.

Someone who cares for democracy so much may protest that all the ladies who did that were out of their free wills and it is no others’ business. If such were democracy, I wouldn’t show any like to it at all.

Whoever likes to read his blog may click this link:

http://chinabounder.blogspot.com/

      What does credit mean?

What does credit mean to us? Everyone has their different answers. But a mother, who is blind, has given it a new explanation.

Zhou lianhui, has lead a poor life for eight years after her husband’s death. In order to pay for what her husband loaned from the local bank, which was only 1000 Yuan, she begged not only for life, but also to pay off the debt. It is only after 8 years that she managed to accomplish the achievement.

For a woman who is blind, what hardship it is to lead a life! But in Zhou Lianhui’s eyes’, she was directly responsible for the load that her husband had left. What a touching scene it must be when the worker in the bank accepted the collection of coins and paper money of little value from the poor blind woman’s hand.

Just as the interviewee said, Zhou Lianhui was even an illiterate. So she must not have been highly conscious of any kind of moral values. She only thought that she was doing what was right and proper for her to do.

Watching her in rags and mud, and being assailed by calculi, I am too much moved by the story. She is honored and pretty rewarded by the society now. The bank and benevolent people donated some money to her, to build a house. A hospital has cured her of her illness for free. Her devastating body is also rehabilitating, which is the most consoling news to anyone who is watching TV.

The story reminds me of my mother, who has been underground for two years. My father died when I was at the age of nine, leaving a younger sister who was 6 and an elder sister who was only 13. My mother had suffered a lot. At that time, life was so hard. Even survivance was difficult. Needless to say, we didn’t have enough to eat ourselves. However whenever a beggar went into our home, my mother would swiftly give a share of our food, which was so scanty and precious to us. I couldn’t understand why she did this. And I even blamed her for that, since sometimes we had to beg for food too and more often than not what we received was only scoff and rebuff. But she only offered our precious food to the beggars and we are simply not better off than them, with the most cordial manners.

My mother’s answer was only this: “All the destitute are in the same boat.”

        The saddest stories!

I read two saddest stories in Wangi.

One of them is a story of murder by an old man who is 60 years old. He killed his newborn granddaughter intentionally by throwing her into Qin Huaihe. His granddaughter was only in the world for several days.

His family had been exhilarated at hearing the news of the successful deliverance to the world of his granddaughter. But the exhilaration didn’t last very long, since the baby was diagnosed as abnormal in both her abdomen and stomach. She received an operation soon after her deliverance. She was even proclaimed by the doctors that she wouldn’t live even if she had not been thrown into the river.

Thinking of the great misery the little baby was suffering from and the expense that would soon ensue, the grandfather made the most difficult decision after a refuted discussion with his son. He threw the baby into Qinhuai River at the acquiescence of his son.

He was suited to the court, together with his son for infanticide and will soon be sentenced. His daughter-in-law, the mother of the little baby, cried a lot at court. While he was reporting what was actually happening, he got down on his knees and expressed his great distress when he was taking the action and the great regret that he is feelings.

Though the baby was so small, she was a life. No one should have deprived her of that unless she would loss it naturally. I can understand fully now what is said about “The law is merciless”.

The other is about a ten-year-old boy’s death. The little boy was singling in a hotel for a living. It was said that customers in the box had forced him to drink a lot of wine, which was most probably the cause of his death. When the little boy was found dead, all the people fled, except one that was as drunk as a log. On reading the story I felt greatly outraged at the miserable destiny of the little boy. He was but ten years old. He was still unable to control his fate. What is more, a boy who should be at school to be educated wouldn’t have been singing for a living at the hotel out of his willingness. He must have been forced to do so, just as he had been forced to drink so much wine. All the customers in the box should be sentenced to death for the most atrocious inhuman doings. Their hearts must be as dark as those of wolves”. Not only did they show no mercy for the sad fortune of the little, but they would make fun of him and finally deprived him of little life.

What is wrong with us human beings nowadays? What do we live in the world for?

Personally I think we should live in the world for the happiness of most of the human beings. I am not a saint. But that is what I think we should do as basically a human being. What would happen to the world if every one of us will laugh at the misfortune of others’? And in what way our world would become if we all did things like the rogues in the hotel?

What do you think of the two saddest stories?

What is wrong with education?

I received several notes to inform me that several marks have been deducted in my class. That is a system in our school that any students that committed mistakes will receive a note to the teacher who is in charge of the class and several marks will be deducted. Whether a teacher, who may be called a headteacher of the class performs his duty well or not will in a large measure depend on how many marks have been deducted in a certain period of time.

A lot of marks have been deducted in my class and I am therefore will be the last one on the list of headteachers and I will certainly be graded the least effective headteacher in our school.

I know as a headteacher I should work conscientiously and devote all my attention and energy to my work. However I am just not in agreement with the system. The students are only too young not to commit any mistakes. What is more, any petty mistakes such as the failure to keep the windows clean will be punished, wherever the dust may come from and fall upon the window panes.

The students need discipline. What I don’t agree with is that the disciplines are just too many and too strict. How can we suppose the students should behave like a saint or even a machine all day long? Even if they were saints, they will err. Man errs. They may not make mistakes if they are just clay bodies, sitting there motionlessly every day.

I am not graded as a good headteacher since I don’t treat the students as strict as was demanded. I am expected to give all those students severe punishments or even drive them out of our school. Several colleagues of mine did these successfully and they were regarded as efficiently workers. Frankly speaking, I can do those things if I want to. It is only because of the fact that they are only little children and it is only too natural for them to make any kind of mistakes so long as they are not serious ones.

Sometimes I am feeling too tired of such chores and I want to quit the job as a headteacher. For fear of arousing any feeling of discontent, I have for several times relinquished my plan to submit a resignation.

What I aim to do is to make the students as happy and healthy as can be and on that base I give them some certain disciplines. I am mindless of my personal gains. That is the very reason why I am graded as one of the inefficient headteachers at our school.

What is wrong with our present education? Is it the case that we should find faults with the students and then punish them thereby? I just have no idea. Whenever I think of this, I will feel distressed.

        I am disillusioned

So many people exclaimed at the news that Ma, Yingjiu, the former mayor of Taibei, had been elected chairman of Taiwan. They looked on it as an olive branch. However, after listening to an interview by CNN with Ma, I am feeling disillusioned. Compared with Chen Shuibian, he is only a little mild in terms of politics.

Ma Yingjiu, was conceived in Hongkong, and delivered in Taiwan. So he is basically Chinese. He made no attempts to split China. Nevertheless, from his words I couldn’t see sign of any progress on the way to reunification, which is something all Chinese are eager to see. It seems that he was quite proud that there are still 24 countries in the world that supported Taiwan. He only said that the man who was dealing with foreign affairs was called not called an embassy. In regards the reunification he said that both he and the CCP are still not ready for it. He said CCP is only trying to prevent Taiwan from being independent.

Personally I wished the enthronement of Ma in Taiwan will make the reunification of Taiwan into the Motherland possible. However from his words I could see very little sign of that. I am no supporter that the government of the motherland solves the Taiwan issue in the way to throw the sword into the scale. And I am not supporter of Taiwan’s independence. Why is China one of the powerful countries in the world at present? Because we are comprehensively strong as a nation in the world. What is more, we are a large country. No countries can afford to make an enemy of a country which is both strong and large. Just like the elder brother has much say in family affairs. Disintegrated, we will be made as weak as can be. The Soviet Union, was just such an example.

What is the most consoling thing is that Ma promised not to take actions towards independence. That gives time to the government in mainland to reconsider the best means that can be employed to achieve reunification.

               A  blogslave

Last night from TV I got a story.

A lady, who is in her thirties, has recently found quite a lot of photos of hers on line without her knowledge. Most of the photos are her life photos. She felt strange and angry about it. He decided to find out who took her photos and put them on line without her permission. After about two years’ investigation, she was still in a maze as to who did this. What is more, during her investigation some her latest photos still were found on line. She was infuriated. She decided to go to law to have her justice. However, the court requested her help to find out who did this.

She was more than ever anxious to know the truth. It was only by occasion did she find that there was a man behind the background of one of the photos. And instantly she realized that it was her husband.

What a grotesque and absurd story it is to her! In frenzy she went to her husband and asked him to go to divorce. And it was only for the sake of years of marriage that she proclaimed that she should relinquish her right to suit him.

Her husband rejected her proposal to divorce. He vowed that he loved her so dearly. On being enquired into the cause of the matter he confessed that he had encountered some setbacks and frustrations in his career, meanwhile his wife was very successful in her own. Being ashamed to tell her about what he had suffered. He took to blogwriting and he very soon found it a very good way to give vent to his pent-up feelings. A lot of his mental burdens were released in his blog. Sometimes he would touch upon his private life with his wife and he put several photos of his and his wife’s in his blog. They were quite popular. So many people went to his blog for a visit. He was exhilarated at being concerned about. Encouraged by that he took more photos of his wife without her knowledge and put them all in his blog. He was so successful that his blog became the number one on the website. Having got so great a success and encouragement that he had not found in reality, he was lost in blogwriting and the illusory success and finally became a blogslave. Sometimes he even took photos of his wife when she was interviewing a business partner. This had a very bad impact on her wife and she had therefore become a public figure that she knew nothing about it at all.

It was at last that she wife noticed this and set out to check it out. Without knowing what an influence he had exercised on her wife, he went on. It only dawned on him when his wife came to him to ask for a divorce.

The psychologist gave him psychoanalysis. He drew a conclusion that it is his wife’s duty to help him to cure himself of the indulgence in blogwriting. As they had been on good terms since they got married, the couple came to reconciliation and decided to have a start in life.

The story came to an end. What amazed me most is that even blogwriting would lure people into such a state. I am afraid of doing anything now. It has become a habit of mine to drop several words on pages every day. Will this one day become the wrong doing of mine one day?

Something about democracy

What is democracy? I don’t know. Who can tell me?

To me, democracy doesn’t mean that we can do everything we want to do. The national machine is there to take effective control over all those disorder and illegal riots to make sure that everything goes smoothly. Any attempts to split a country are not good. United, we are powerful; split, we would be disabled and bullied like we suffered in history in the world. That is the very reason I don’t like any disturbance that happened recently in Lhasa. We may take mild measures to achieve the ends without resorting to any violent acts such like burnings, killings and arson. If we say such riots have happened in want to democracy, have the five girls in heaven, who were still young and at their prime ages, got their democracy?

Democracy doesn’t mean we can say anything we want to say. We have a law to prohibit use from making any utterance that is illegal. However, I would like to point out that so long as what we say has not jeopardized the security and stability of our country, it is ok for us to express our views on everything. Crazy-English said that I am not a Chinese and he would be sick of me if I am. And soon after he changed his views and said sorry after he read some of my other articles and comments left to Monica. I told him that whether he liked me or not mattered little if not nothing to me. I only want to show my views.

To say the truth, I like democracy more than a lot of other people. I want to have my voice heard. And I want to better my present situations. Being so hard pressed, I have no enough time even to take care of my kid. There is no one to care for us. What is the worst; we have no courage to quit since in China, it is so difficult to get a job.

What is more, I would like to know what the truth is for a lot of things. However we have no other means to employ to achieve this aim.

No one hates to live in a world of democracy. A country with democracy is like a paradise.

    New “A wolf and a Lamb”

On grassland there was a lamb. He was the meekest and most obedient of all animals. He had no other desires in life but to have enough grass to eat. He wanted no luxury. He was in short of nothing but some fresh grass. From time to time he might have a sunbath, and that was the most extravagant thing in the world for him to share.

One day in spring he was meandering in the meadow, eating grass randomly. Once for a while he would meet and say hello to his friends like the rabbit, the dragonfly, and the deer. He so contend with life. Unwittingly he came to the bank of a river. He decided to drink some water since he didn’t have any water for his breakfast. It was only after his mouth left the water did he realize what was happening to him--- a wild wolf was standing before him.

“Why did you make my water dirty, you little bastard?” the wolf shouted with a protruded tongue and exposure of teeth. Tremulously the lamb protested: “My dear Mr. Wolf, you are from the upstream while I am from the downstream. How can I make your water dirty?”

“Really?” with a vicious quick turn of the wit the wolf went on: “Well, you bullied my little son and flee last year. How will you explain this?” “My benevolent Mr. Wolf, I was not even born last year.” “Then it must be your father. It is all the same with me.” The wolf jumped toward the poor little lamb.

Under the totalitarian rule, can you have any chance to excuse yourself even if you have done nothing wrong? The lamb will never be match for the wolf.

                             The tiger

Long long ago there was a  ferocious tiger that lived freely in a forest. He could do everything he wanted to do. He had plenty of food to eat. Sometimes he chased rabbits for fun. Sometimes he ran after deer for food. All the other animals paid homage to him and he enjoyed it so much.

His happy life came to an end when he was caught by a hunter. He fell into the snare and was bound and carried to a zoo, where he was expected to be trained to be a good performer.

Losing his freedom, he was bored of everything there in the zoo. He refused to take food, despite the fresh meat that was thrown to him directly. The trainer gave no attention to this. He said to his followers: “Don’t bother watching him and let him be. Food will bend him at last.”

What he said was true. After one or two days the tiger was so hungry and he began to eat what was given to him. Then the trainer asked him to mimicry the sound of a cat. He said: “ I am the greatest king of the forest. I won’t mimicry a little cat’s voice.” “Don’t give him food and let him go hungry.” At last the tiger compromised and was given some meat.

Then he was asked to mimicry the sound of a donkey. He didn’t agree and after only several hours’ suffering he conceded. What he got for this was some meat.

Then he was asked to walk round and round until the trainer said “stop”. At first he was so reluctant to do so. However for fear of hunger he did what was exactly asked of him.

The next day when the trainer came near the cage, the tiger requested: “Ask me to walk again and give me some food, ok?” The trainer proudly said to his men: “See how obedient the tiger, king of the forest, is?” After that he was trained to be the most dexterous performer in the zoo and won a lot of money for the boss. What he could only get was still some meat, barely enough for his stomach.

At last, the tiger becomes the public and the zoo the society and the trainer the government.

             What is the use of it?

 To keep the national unity of a country is so important. On hearing the disturbances and loses in Tibet some of my friends enquired into the necessity to keep Tibet as one part of our country.

It is common sense to every Chinese that the government pays a lot of money to assist the Tibetans to have a better life. There is no financial income from Tibet. But some people, for their invidious and perfidious purposes, have committed so atrocious a crime to return evil for good. So it is understandable for my friends to make such remarks.

Yes, financially speaking there is no need to keep it. However, we are all citizens of one country. The government has full responsibilities to help us live a better life, whether the place we live in is fertile or sterile. We belong to the country. It is like our mother, who cares nothing for our belongings and property. We are indiscriminately loved by her. Does anyone love a mother who deserts any of her poor children? So it is the responsibility to take the poor son as her child and try to breed him as well as possible.

Nevertheless, the mother will be very sad if she takes care of, or even coddles the poor child in such a way and has been disowned and rebuffed the motherhood. Can anyone with good conscience think it right?

Of course, the people who claimed responsibility for the riot are only those who are followers of Dalai Lama, and those who have been misleading. Cultural and ethnical differences are easily utilized as excuses for making such strife. Any attempts like this should be denounced and boycotted.

No matter we are useful to our country or not, our motherland will indiscriminately accept us all. What is the use for us to make troubles like this?

    What are the causes of the turmoil?

Recently there have been riots in Tibet. Someone told me there are other unreported such turmoil in other parts of China, such as Xinjiang. I don’t know what exactly the causes for such disturbances are.

There should be no causes of such disturbances within the boundary of China. It appeared in western media that the fundamental causes are cries of the common people in those areas for independence. Would they really benefit from the so-called independence? I know from my experience that the Chinese government has been providing financial support for those minority-resident areas. When I was in university, there were a lot of students from Tibet were receiving education for free, while we had to pay all the costs by ourselves. At that time we thought it unfair. However now I know the Tibetans are still not content with such favorable treatment.

Of course most of the residents in Tibet are beneficiaries of the present national policy towards them. It is only Dalai lama, the former Buddhist leader of Tibet, who has been seeking to regain the power to rule over the territory. People from western countries may say that it is the right of the local people to determine what a life they may lead. However can a country, being plunged into wars and disruptions all day long, gain some welfare for its people? The former Yugoslavia, Soviet Union, for example, have met severe setbacks in the development of economy. Any destruction of something already existent and the construction of something new will mean a great cost of all kinds of human and natural resources. Therefore, the preservation of peace and unity in any country will benefit all residents there. Reunification, however, can do well to all the people within a country. Federal Germany and Democratic Germany, when united, have proved to be much powerful and influential in the international forum. That is the very reason why most Chinese aspire for a peaceful unity. Because of what aforesaid, why should we sabotage our national security and jeopardize the welfare of most Chinese by supporting the disturbances like what have happened in Tibet? So except for a few extremists headed by Dalai Lama, there will be seldom anyone that will give support.

Are there any powers or countries in the world who intend to take risks to cause riots within China for their own benefits? The answer may be in the affirmative. China has been developing very fast economically and its national prestige is growing. As the representative of all countries of the Third World, China has been receiving unprecedented homage from all over the world. Many countries in the world are envious of this. They allegedly regard the growth of China as a threat to their own security. So they hate it so much as to utilize whatever means to destroy, at least to put pressure on, the peaceful development of China. What is more, in order to keep its dominance over the world, some country makes every effort to avoid any country that has the prospect of becoming one of the multipolars. It is with the help of these countries that Dalai Lama can have the ability to create such atrocious turmoil.

All in all, admittedly Dalai Lama, under the instigation and support of western powers, has conspired against the Chinese government to make such disturbances. That is the very cause.

    I am so exhausted.

I returned to school after the funeral held for my grandfather. I wish he is living peacefully in heaven.

I have been too much bored of the unnecessary and overelaborate formalities. I had to kowtow so frequently and I was so exhausted after that. We were formed in line in white and repeated the formalities. I didn’t know what it really meant. What a feel was that we were just like monkeys, or puppets, with strings in others’ hands. It was so ridiculous.

I had to do what I was asked to do, since the formalities had been in its form for so long a time. We were expected to follow them. Any violation against them was against the hearts of my country folks. I am a member of the cottage and I didn’t want to be a rebel.

When my mother died, I showed so much reluctance to follow the rules. So many people, both from the outsiders and my family, criticized me for an arrant violation against a set rule in their eyes. Finally I could do nothing but to conform to their suggestions and did what I was supposed to do.

I am both mentally and physically fatigued now. I have to take rests during my work intervals, to refresh my mind and body.

Are Chinese people so keen on sex?

    From Monica’s articles I feel she is quite curious about the fact that so many Chinese are so interested in sex. Here I want to explain a little here to dispel some of her doubts.

    China is a country with so long a history of about more than 5000 years. Feudalism has been the dominant part during the period. During the feudal ages, all ladies were looked down upon as the second citizens. They even became “dolls” of the emperors, or government officials. Even within a common peasants’ family, women were discriminated. They were assigned heavy domestic work to do---do chores, breed the children, and tend to the elderly. Boys were regarded as blessings from the god to prolong the family history, while girls were only wedded out as members of other family. It was very common to see that all the family was exhilarated at the birth of a boy, however rather sad at a girl. Women’s secondary position in the society made sex a natural belonging of men’s. No one would brag about his sex in public, since it is too natural, normal and common thing to all men, not a privilege in others’ eyes. Sex was not a mutual enjoyment, but only a service on the part of the women. So, in the past, it was sheer atrocious shamelessness for a woman to be bodacious enough to claim that she liked sex. They were under the yoke of feudalism oppression. There were very few women who did this. Pan Jinlian was one of them. However she was regarded as the most licentious woman in Chinese history.

So in the feudalism period, it is regarded as immoral to talk about sex.

After the last dynasty, the Qing Dynasty, was overthrown, fresh liberal thoughts and ideas came from the western period. However, people were still reluctant to talk about it.

Even after the People’s Republic of China was founded, any topics have relation to sex were looked on as obscene and immoral. During the Cultural Revolution, such a state became worse. Once I read a story from a magazine, which was about a love letter from a girlfriend to a boyfriend who was a soldier. She wrote in her letter that she just couldn’t forget her experience of pleasure when they were rolling under the quilt. The letter was opened and the contents disclosed. The result was the dismissal from the army of her boyfriend. He had had a promising career in the army. Another story was about a girl who went to the army to see her boyfriend. She had sex with her boyfriend. After returning home she wrote to her boyfriend that she was pregnant. Her boyfriend was also dismissed. Ironically when he went back home, he found his girlfriend was not pregnant, only something wrong with her tummy. He lost a very good opportunity to be promoted in the army in his life. Young people before marriage couldn’t see or even know each other. All affairs were arranged by the parents. Ridiculously the fathers were even abashed at seeing their own children. They wouldn’t even go out with their wives openly.

It was only after the effective implementation of the open-door policy by Deng Xiaoping in 1980s that people felt a little free to look face to sex. Under the influence of western culture, youngsters became more and more liberal. ‘

However now, people are still unable to openly claim that they like sex. They are still sheepish or afraid of being condemned. They may refrain from touching upon sex while in his blog or in a chatroom he may be anonymously brave enough to make advances to ladies. That is why people from abroad find something erotic just boring while we Chinese are just amused.

I wish what I said may explain a little to foreign friends the reason why we Chinese are interested in sex talks.

About the latest events

Recently two things have happened to two acquaintances of mine. They are both suffering from usury. One of them has fled after an immediate divorce and the other has sold his house, which is the only of his in order to pay off the debts.

They two have had a fervent desire to become rich at no costs. However they are both teachers, how can they be expected to amass wealth at a quick speed and therefore enjoy the luxury that can be brought about. They have paid for their adventures dearly.

One of them has been dumped into loading money from some usurer and he just can’t pay for it now, which is why he sold his house. The other has loaned one million Yuan from the bank, and wished to use it as a capital to loan it to others. His dream to become usurer himself has failed. And he had to flee from his home. In order to estrange his wife from his misfortune, he divorced his wife, only to flee alone.

Hearing the adventures of the two guys, I feel adventures are not as funny as those of Tom Sawyer. They are only tragic. Not only they themselves, but also his families, are suffering from their blindfold adventures. 

I would rather be deemed as the most incapable man in the world than letting my family be tormented by such worries and cares.

So many Chinese are out of employment now. They have to make a living. It may be desperate attempts for them to make a living. Though we are deemed so low in the society, we don’t have to worry about our survival. We have a salary, though meager, to base our life on. Why not be content with our present lifestyle and give our family a stable and adequate income.

Some may say I am only shortsighted and incapable. But we are teachers, we should concentrate on our job. So long as we want to do our best in our job, where can we find time to do all these businesses?

So many people are very ambitious in our society. They think they are only competent to do more in life. They are not content with their living conditions. They are avid for changes. However the reason why they suffer so much from the speculation is that they plunged into it without careful deliberation.

I think we should take lessons from their sufferings and misfortunes. It is not bad for us to be ambitious. What matters most is we should think twice before we leap.

                        God bless me 

Yesterday I had to stay at school to watch over the students in the school dormitory. It was raining. What bad luck!

After a quick supper I put on my raincoat and trudged towards school. I felt it a pity because I couldn’t help my students with his homework at home. When I got to the school it was still early. I went to my office to switch off the computer. The leader who should be on duty that night called me that he was having dinner so I had to go to the dormitory and did my job without supervision.

I had to stay outside and went from one room to another to make sure the students were safe. There are more than 1000 students in the dormitory, so it was quite hard work. What was the worst, it was much too noisy. With the help of the worker whose duty is making sure that students are in order, I finally kept the students in order.

It was after all the students had gone to bed and fallen asleep that my job came to an end. Exhaustedly I went to my room. After reading the novel “Jane Eyre” for about twenty minutes, I went to sleep.

When it dawned this morning, I woke up and got dressed. I had to go to the playground and made sure all the students were running safely. After that I went back home to get my son to school. It only left me about forty minutes. So I had to be in a hurry. Till then my overnight duty had finished.

I felt only too tired. Fortunately there had been no students who became ill at night and I had a short but sound sleep. God bless me!

   The sudden change of the weather

Since last night it has been very cold, which will put a negative impact on our health. I caught a cold, however I managed to win it by several tablets.

Today it becomes colder. I have to warn my son not to take off his clothes too suddenly to avoid a possible cold. What is outside is a gloomy sky, which makes my heart gloomy too. No matter how I wish to keep a good composure of mind, the weather holds such a sway on my mind. Most probably it does so on others’ minds too. Neither take delight in nor feel sorry for all things beside you or the weather. Our ancestors told us so. Nevertheless, I just don’t know how to deal with it.

The school issued severe rules against using computers for amusement when we are at work. From time to time my ambition to write a blog every day is thwarted. Yet, sometimes I feel something pressing within me. I want to write them down. It is not writing for writing’s sake actually. I only want to write something, with no other purposes. It is becoming a necessary way to diversify my life, or enrich it.

Secluded in the dungeon, we have no other ambitions but to find something to amuse us. We have long been disillusioned with life as a teacher. We have been accustomed to a state of being looked down upon, which has makes us numb.

Like a jailed prisoner, we are not afraid of being insulted or humiliated since we are insulted or humiliated all day long. What is more, it is only ridiculous for us to be regarded as rebels by the leaders and we are frequently threatened by severe reprisals if we dare to do so. Our senses to rebel even a little have been completely smothered. We don’t have the least intention to do so since we are constantly under the pressure of work. We have long become obedient, numb slaves. It is our fate. We admitted it to be true long ago.

There should not be any antagonism and strife in the field of education. What can you expect from it? Only fuck stupid men want it.

I have been too tired of any such kind of things. What is the use of it?