What is wrong with human relations?

I got back home very late last night. It might be 12 o’clock after the party. What was the worst, I didn’t sleep well. I tossed and turned restlessly in bed until the dawn of the morning. So now I am feeling very tired and sleepy.

What is the reason for us to drink a lot of wine, to impair our health both mentally and physically? People are the most generous and benevolent at a party. They will try to persuade others to drink instead of themselves, though the more we drink, the more they will pay. What an absurd and ridiculous phenomenon it is!

Nowadays human relations largely rest on money. My classmate, the closest and most intimate friend of mine, asked me to have dinner in compensation for his help I asked for. The dinner cost me eight hundred Yuan. What matters is not money itself actually. I am in doubt that friendship should be built on money. I have helped him. But I didn’t ask him to pay for my dinner. I only thought that we were friends, so I had the duty to try my best to help him. It would profane the term of friendship if I asked him to pay for my dinner. Whenever I think of this, I can’t help feeling sad.

Is it true that we are living in a market economy and therefore everything should be evaluated by money? I don’t know. I only feel that something is missing when we have to pay money for a help asked or offered. Perhaps I will be seen as naïve and innocent by others. But this is my opinion on friendship. I have to console myself that there are still others who won’t help you at all even you entreat him.

I have a classmate. He is a red apple in fortune’ eye. He is quite a government official now. We have been very good friends. However, it is only because I was not as obedient and respectful after drinking some wine that he said bad words behind my back, sometimes even to my leaders, which impaired my relation with my leaders. What have become of human relations? I just don’t know and understand.