Some say our world will end in ice. Some say it will end in fire. Emily Dickson failed to give us a definite answer as to what our world would really end in.

   “There is nothing so troublesome in the world. It is only those mediocre people who will trouble themselves.” I must be one of those mediocre people. While others are enjoying life so enjoyably, I only find fault with it and I always want to find some meaning in life.

    I don’t know what the reason is.

    However after reading a story on line, I came to realize that my early life experience, which is a little different from others’, has been the originator.

    My father’s death resulted in two immediate things, my mother became a lunatic and I a solitary drifter in the world. I was nine years old. No one cared for me. More often than not, I sat in the moonlight with my younger sister, looking far deep into the sky and immersing in solitary meditation.

    She, my younger sister, died a tragic death at the age of 20. Still inexperienced in so many things in the world, she sent a spectral phantom to me which haunted my dreams so frequently.

    It is only after my marriage and the birth of my son that I have found some pleasure in life.

    Nevertheless, my mother, who has been a lunatic all her life, kicked her last bucket in a hospital despite a costly operation. During that year that is two years ago, my grandfather, my uncle, both passed away. I was the witness of the scene who they breathed their last breath. I was confounded profoundly. Is this life? To be born, to suffer, to drop into the grave? I have no idea and no one tells me. After cremation they have become nothing but ash. There was nothing like life in it. From the earth they have been born and to thence they have return, as is told in the Bible. I am left despaired.

    What should I do? I must treasure life, for the sake of my wife and my son. However, gathering my rose while I may, that is, to enjoy life as much as I can, must be the only way out.

    Life is life. There is nothing really significant about it. Enjoying it and live it to its fullest sense, seems to me to be the meaning of life.