Perhaps others prefer writings that both make sense and are easy to read. I like this kind of writings too. Previously I used a lot of big words which may be difficult or even obscure to understand. The big words are those I find unfamiliar to me. So I try to put them to actual use in order to make them look old friends to when I may meet them the second time.
Yesterday the discomfit derived not from my anxiety in teaching, but from the Low Blood Sugar, from which I have suffering too much. For a teacher who has 15 years of teaching experience, will it be a tough nut to crack to have a lesson? Teachers in China are under a lot of pressures. we are hardworking enough. However, the leaders are not satisfied. We have to overwork a lot. I love teaching as a job. It is the unbearable pressure that squeezed the last drop of water from my the sponge of enthusiasm for teaching. I love my students. However we are under pressures from their parents too. If my students can't enter a higher school as their parents expect, we are put to blame. If our students fail to do well in various exams during a term, we are put to blame. If there are any accidents happening within the school courtyard, which may do harm to the students, we are put to blame.
Under so many pressures, some of my colleagues have been sent to hospital. What is the worse, a lot of them, me for instance, are persisting. During the May holiday this year, I was so happy to obtain a hardearned holiday, so I went to the doctor. I was advised to stay in hospital to be treated for the serious heart problem. The doctor proclaimed a death sentence to me even. He said there would be danger to my life itself if I strained myself too much, especially in my work. I felt the sky had fallen down, leaving me forlorn and forsaken and deserted at that time. My son is only seven years old. How can he survive if there is something that my happen to me? Now I am trying to relax a little in my work, and there is not some spare time for me to relax in fact. And I have been accused of loafing on the job by the leaders. I don't know what to say. My wife, who is a mathe teacher, has the same heart problem. The doctor said her heart condition was only like what an old lady might be in her sixties.
Two of my colleagues are in hospital now. One of them is suffering from breast cancer after an operation. The other is more serious, from kidney failure. The later is still in her 20s, unmarried. Her kidney should be changed. We donated some money to her for her lack of money to carry out the operation, which is costly. The work, may not be fully responsible for the wrongdoing. However undeniably overwork has contributed a lot to the worsening of her deteriorating health condition.
Dear Monica proclaimed herself to be a happy bird. That is because she has a free job and has much free time to enjoy life. For us, who are so severely pressed every day, how can we be expected to laugh at all time when our life is constantly in danger.
We should not jeer at others if they utter some grievances or complaints. Sometimes we only come here to say something to lessen the heartfelt tension. It is psychologically beneficial to them. If we acclaim openly that we are bored of the job, our job will be endangered. What can we do? That is the very reason for me to come here to say something in English. One tension told here is one tension a little lessened to me.
