I am so exhausted.

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I returned to school after the funeral held for my grandfather. I wish he is living peacefully in heaven.

I have been too much bored of the unnecessary and overelaborate formalities. I had to kowtow so frequently and I was so exhausted after that. We were formed in line in white and repeated the formalities. I didn’t know what it really meant. What a feel was that we were just like monkeys, or puppets, with strings in others’ hands. It was so ridiculous.

I had to do what I was asked to do, since the formalities had been in its form for so long a time. We were expected to follow them. Any violation against them was against the hearts of my country folks. I am a member of the cottage and I didn’t want to be a rebel.

When my mother died, I showed so much reluctance to follow the rules. So many people, both from the outsiders and my family, criticized me for an arrant violation against a set rule in their eyes. Finally I could do nothing but to conform to their suggestions and did what I was supposed to do.

I am both mentally and physically fatigued now. I have to take rests during my work intervals, to refresh my mind and body.