missing

After continuting my work this year, the feeling differs from what I’m thinking of  before the Spring Festival. Is it I expected too much from others, including him, my work, my family members… I think of my families as soon as I’m in blue before, as I know that my parents loved my very much, I didn’t think so this time. They loves my sister more . So I wouldn’t ask help from them……but now, I only think of him if I’m not in myself regarding that he will be with me though we are in different places, far far away from each other. I said to him that he cares little about me once.And it's true from my feeling.But it seems changed now.

 I'm happy for he seems put great importance on me. When I was  upset,  he phoned me at once as soon as he knows though I didn't respond. Last  night, I went outside with my friends, He sent SMS to me several times, and phoned me especially when I was absent from phone and didn't reply him. I am happy not for his SMS and phone, but  for his caring  each time I went out . I know I mean a lot to him now. It makes me believe that no matter how far apart we are, my thought always find their way back to him, missing him with all my heart.