I have been keeping two little golden cyprinoids for a long time. They are just as adorable and cute as Nemo.I used to form a habit of watching them swim in the water leisurely and elegantly in my spare time. I would be amused greatly at that time.

But, just when I came to believe that the little two fishes would live for a long long time with me, I found one of them dead in the glass-bottle in this morning. I was shocked and in great pain. I was deeply down and had no mood for the work in the coming day. I have kept them for a long long time, and they have got used to the tap water in Sansha Village. What's more, it's Yuki and Leo who bought them for me in Guangzhou and brought them to Sansha all the way ...

How I wish they could keep company with me all the time...

Now only one little fish left.. A fish would be too lonely in the glass bottle.

I had two interviews today in Guangzhou. It was a really tough day!

As soon I reached home, I jumped up onto my bed at once, turned on Prince's laptop (PS. one of my best colleagues in EBL) and began to surf on the internet. I usually take surfing on the internet as a kind of relax in Sansha Village.

My own computer was broken down recently unfortunately,poor me! At this time, I would begin to miss the days when Yuk was at Sansha village! (PS. Yuk is a programmer ) He is good at repairing computers, as far as I could recalled, he once helped me solve many problems. What's more, he would never refuse when he is asked for help, as long as it is concerning meaningful matters. But, if he does refuse, then ask him for help twice at a time or he would be regretful for refusing very soon. So, maybe my computer would work very well if he is still in Sansha.

Sorry, I have talked too far away. Okay now, talk about my job interviews today. Oh, really annoying  and torturous  experience! I did not want to mention it any more. I would rather talk about what happened when I turned on the laptop in my room after the job interview. Yes, I remembered at that time that I really wanted to share my experience and needed someone to be my listener. But when I logged in my QQ and MSN account, the result was quite disappointed. I found that I could not find anyone. Maybe there would be someone who is willing to listen to my complaints, but, who ,I thought, would not be responsible for it. Poor me again..I sank into deep thoughts and an idea flashed into my mind suddently. I should find a loyal listener who would always be my side...

God bless me! Help me find the one I am looking for.And the last but not the least, bless me finding a new job! ^-^

Kept thinking of someone right at this moment at tonight. Tried to diverted my concentration on something else, like watching the TV, and doing some reading.I should learn to control myself, I said to myself, but failed in result.

I've grown up, not a little girl any more. That is what I always say to myself in the hope that I would learn to deal with matters smartly alone.

I am not a little girl any more. Again, I told myself tonight and tried to talk myself into giving up the idea of making a call or talking with others.

It is time to learn how to face it. Just keep trying and I will make it one day.

"Most people know very quickly if someone is right for them, but many try to carry on with a relationship even when they know it"s wrong. So don"t just listen to your intuition - trust it."

I would do the opposite and listen to my intuition as I am a person who always do things following the intuition.

I don’t know how deep you know this disaster.But I know you will be deeply shocked.

I don’t know how many towns were destroyed.
But I know many people lost their home.

I don’t know how does the house looks like before.
But I know the old is not able to rebuild by himself.

I don’t know how does the house looks like before.
But I know the old is not able to rebuild by himself.

I don’t know how many schools collapsed.
But I know at that time many classrooms were full of students.

I don’t know why here is a schoolbage. 
But I know it must belong to one child.

I don’t know whether this mother saw her child still alive finally.
But I know the child is the treasure of every family.

I don’t know when was this child found already dead.
But I know this mother has already been crying here for a long time.

I don’t know how many people are still under the ruins. 
But I know most of them will not survive. 

I don’t know under the ruin the hands belong to a girl or boy.
But I know the hands are eager to touch her or his parents again.

I don’t know how many people are still under the ruins. 
But I know most of them will not survive. 

I don’t know what is time now.
But I know it is a horrible time

I don’t know the exact reason why they embraced tightly.
But I know there must be some reason.

I don’t know what is the man looking for.
But I know the possibility is quite low.

I don’t know why they are crying
But I know the tear is from their heart.

I don’t know this child can survive or not.
But I know in her little heart there’s already a deep slot.

I don’t know how long did this man already speed under the ruin.
But I know he is already very lucky in the earth quake.

I don’t know what did the finger language means by this nurse.
But I know it doesn’t mean “victory”.

I don’t know the drive already escaped or not.
But I know the road was already completely blocked.

I don’t know where they are marching to.
But I know where they are coming from—home. 

I don’t know whether they can have a good sleep here or not.
But I know they don’t have other choices right now.

I don’t know how many people are here.
But I know big trouble will happen if no water and food supply.

I don’t know how did this man escaped from the collapse.
But I know it is not an easy way now and future.

I don’t know what’s the destination for them.
But I know at this time only they can help themselves.

I don’t know where here is.
But I know it is not their home.

I don’t know whether these babies can realize the tough situation.
But I know when they grow up their parents will tell them the story.

I don’t know what are they thinking about.
But I know in their mind there is still hopes.

Give your help hand,
warm the heart of the people who are in the big trouble,
support them to gain the courage of life,
and rebuild the bright future……  

The power of support is beyond measurement.

Life is boring now...

Get up late and go for work every morning, then get busy with the daily work day after day. No more enthusiasm, no more fresh idea.

Think of quiting the job and make a change, in the hope of living a different life, but frustrated to find that no goal in front and do not know how to set off.

Looking at the people around, I admire that they struggle to achive their life goals, work hard, and make progresss day and day.

What can I do to make a difference?

Oh,my god! Help me! I lost my temper again today! I really did not want this happen.

What it indicated is that I am still not mature enough to deal with matters in a better way. 

I could easily lose my temper in my daily life. When I see someone do foolish thing, and I could not talk him into stopping it, I would get annoyed by that and could not think of a better way to try to solve that problem, but just pull a long face, cursing that fool. After that, complaint about it to my friends again and again. I know this would make them feel tired and bored. But most of time, I complaint to them just in order to get help and get a way from them to solve my problem. What I need is their support which would make me calm down. However, I do not know that things would turn out to be worse. My friends would feel tired of my endless complaints one day and could not offer help and comfort any more.. I feel deeply sad at the thought of it.

After the self-examination each time, I can gain my own consciousness and learn that losing temper and endless complaints would do harm to my personal development. But the most important thing is how I can control myself when I am about to fly into rage each time. Being mature is the only way, I think. Being mature, I would not care much about the trivia any more and getting angry easily is less and less.Being mature, I would think about matters in a different way and deal with them better. So, I have the disire to become mature soon...

It is late in the deep night, most people are in their sweet dreams. But now I am too excited to fall asleep.

These few days I have thought a lot and after the self-examination, I learnt to know I have to make plans for my each day if I want to make progress day by day, not only in English but also in other aspects. As a result, I got to form a habit of learning English every day and have a good plan for it. That was really a good progress for myself.

And tonight, when I was bloging some sites on the internet, I found some useful English resources. From them ,I find there are quite a lot simple and easy way for me to remember new words and phrases. Hah, it would be easier to learn English and practice English from now on.A good finding again! Thanks for my computer and most important, thanks to my clever brain!

I am still not sleepy and tomorrow I have to go to work...Poor me!

I don' t mean to make any comments or talk about anything on Edison Chen photo scandal . I thought it was their privacy and nobody has the right to interfere in this matter. Also, I do not want to bring more pressure and trouble to those inculpable people who got involved in the scandal.

But it is out of my expection that my job would get affected by this scandal.

Some stupid person put those keywords to one of the websites in Australia.It led to millions of people visiting that site. The worst thing is that the datacenter of one of our sites would be taken up a lot of space by that ! We could not log up our site and no orders were placed, although we have made the advertising..Much advertising fee was wasted..

Those stupid and boring people who gossip a lot about the Edison Chen photo scandal! It is Edison Chen's own affair and have nothing to do with you ! It is none of your business. Would you please care about your own life , okey? If you want to find something to entertain yourselves, please go to have some fun at the amusement park or see some movies at home ? If you have time to gossip on others, please gossip on your own friends who have much matter to do with you. If you have too much curiosity, please try to figure out the many mysterious events happeded in this world..You have many to do !

I would not forgive that kind of behaviour...

Today is Valentine's day, a special day for lovers. I believe that all the lovers in this world would feel happy today. Here I wish all of you happy valentine's day!

When I go out for dinner with Prince and Keven, two of my colleagues, I see many girls walking with their boy friends, smiling sweetly with beautiful flowers in their arms. Happy girls! I say to myself.

I feel happy as well, although I do not have a boy friend.I have my dear friends, which I would always feel satisfied with. 

This morning I get a small adorable chocolate from Prince, a Pisces boy, and I put it beside my computer in the office.He can always make one feel romantic, I think so. And I firmly believe that his girl friend must be the happiest girl.He knows he could not spend this special day with his girl friend today due to the job, then he went to Guangzhou to celeberate it with her before he gets to work after the Spring Festival.So considerated!

Recently I like to blog in some websites when I am free of work during office time and find Monica1981's blog very intereting!I do feel offended by her stinging words,I think different countries have its own culture and of course some of countries develop more quickly in the development trend of the whole world.But I do agree with most of her ideas.From her I learn some western culture as well.

When I was a little girl,I had learnt from many facts that girls should be independent financely and mentally.Then I have tried all my best to make it.I sticked to it when I grow up day by day.However, I find I do not make it clear to myself all through that what independence in finance and mentality exactly means.I refused to be a full-time house-wife in the future that I refused to learn to cook...Very hildish,right?

After reading Monica's article about feminism,I form a clear idea of girls' independence.The link below is for the article.

http://space.englishcn.com/54966/viewspace_17223.html

I am encouraged by some of the ideas.Take the following for example.

What does it really mean?

It doesn't mean that you should become a business woman who can earn as much as a man or even more than a man.

It doesn't mean that you should abandon the idea of being a housewife.

It also doesn't mean that you should NOT mentally love a man deeply.

It means, as an adult, you should be able to support yourself for living no matter you have a boyfriend/husband or not.

It also means women should always keep themselves happy mentaly no matter you are in love, or being dumped or still seeking a boyfriend.