I have been working in every workday... In fact, I am rather tired... The emptiness and blankess in my mind, the confusion that has lasted long still exist... Are those what life bring to me? I don't know...

     I want to chill myself out, but all my efforts are in vain, so I make no effort to cheer up; I intend to be more strong-willed, but I am knocked out by reality once again, so I don't strive for better life any longer; I plan to study English, but I have no spare time, no foreign friends to talk to, haven't established a good foundation, so I give up on myself...

    Besides disappointment, what else do I have? Besides the support from my younger sister, what else can I treasure? Besides time, what else can I seize? I am nothing in the world, just an ordinary blue-collar worker, a salesgirl among millions. Where is the way out?

    God doesn't answer my question, the crowd passing by give me no response. Then I search deep within myself and hear a voice:

    When there is no way out, find yourself  a way. Don't be overflowing with self-pity for God only help those who help themselves.

    Yes, I have find a way out. I can make things happen in my way.

    Cloud and rainstorm past are sunshine and rainbow.