So long no see,guys.i start my new semester this monday,so i have been busy with some stuff ,and then did the part-time job on the weekend,keeping busy all the week,anyway,i am coming!

   Firstly,i have some bad things to tell you guys,which i didn't think could happen to me,however,it really did!!!i was stolen by some idiot when i did the part -time job the other day!how can it happen?even nobody left the room,how can the man come in and brought my bag away??he was so "profeessional",shit!! i nearly want to kill that suck man,all my things were in the bag,my cellphone,bank card,student card and 200dollar cash which was my 4days saraly.i can't believe i work so hard to make money,he just used such stupid way to get the things which not belongs to him!!!fortunately,the cellphone was wraped by my hat,so the thief missed it.the phone was my birthday present from my friend,if it was lost,it must drive me crazy.however,everything goes back to the right way.i don't need to care too much about the 200dollar cash,on the other side,it teaches me lots of things.

   These days i am busy,but i like being busy,you know,when you make full use of the time and enjoy all the fruit,you deserve it.after 4months experience living abroad,i feel that i am growing up,not the naughty girl any more.i don't need parents' care,don't need to relay on anyone,i can live a wonderful life by myself.looking back the days past,much hard time,but more happiness.i learned one thing from the experience,in your life,the biggest barrier is yourself,if you can get over the weak one in your deep heart,nothing will be impossible to you.i thought i was good enough when i was little girl,i always got the excellent score,all the teachers love me,all the classmates envy me,and then i got the scholarship of nz to study abroad,i really thought there was nothing i can't do.when i arrived nz,i found i was nothing but a helpless girl.suddenly,i recognized,the world in my old days was so small.those days,i had lots of pressure on myself,i was nearly mad.expecially when i did the part-time job,i found i was so clumsy on everything,even the simple clearning work.i considered about giving up,i wanted to hide myself in a hole where nobody can find me.then i stayed at home,hopeless and lonely time depressed me.fortunately,i got over myself,i don't want to be defeat by the weak one in my heart.i clear up my mind,i find the confidence back,i keep smiling,i say "you can do it" to myself.you know,when you smile to the life,life will smile back to you.now,i really do well in everything.i got all "A" in my subjects,and teachers take me as the best student,in the work part,the boss of my shop likes me,as a result of my good performce,he plans to train me as manager in the shop.i appreciate the hardest time in the past,it teaches me how to enjoy life,how to be yourself.

   I said so much today,but you guys don't take me wrong,my purpose is not to show off myself,i just want to share my happiness and sadness with you,i don't know any of you,but from the last article,i read the words you left,i was moved,you are all nice people,eventhough we never seen each other before,but i have already considered you as my good friends in my life.thank you for listening my heart words,friends!i wish you guys also have wonderful experience,no matter it is success or failure,you can learn a lot,just enjoy it!

  This is my first time to come here,a good place that i keep asking myself why didn't find it earlier.Here,nobody know me,here;i can be the one who i really am;here,i can say anything i want ;here,i don't need to hide my real feeling,not only can i share the happy things but aslo the sad side of myself;here,i can be crazy.can i?

  Today is valentine's day,love air surround the whole city,but to me,nothing but one more lonely valentine's day.i woke up this morning,it's raining,looking at the raindrop on the window just like the tear in my deep heart.what's wrong with me?i should be accustomed to the days by myself.but why?

  I have been the stange country for nearly 5months,time is fleeting.everyone thinks i am a strong excellent girl,,yse,i am,i have been eager to do well in everthing since i was a little girl.in the past 5months,i can handle anything by myslf,without parents' care and all the friends' support.i tell everyone that i am happy,but they don't know that i just don't want to let them worry about me.i am growing up,i don't want to bother them anymore,i think i can deal with everything myself.however,i am just a girl,i am not as strong as i think i should be.suddenly,i find i really need a boyfriend to look after me.

  I never had a boyfriend before.i set many requirements for my future boyfriend,i take serious with my love,it's not for fun,so i won't accept anyone until i find the mr right in my life,.eventhoug,i really expect a romantic love story come to me,but i stick to the stupid requirements.in china,my good girlfriends stayed with me,so i didn't feel lonely,so i didn't care when the mr right emerged.but now,i find i really need a boyfriend,all i need is just a boyfriend,who can share the happiness with me,when i am sad,when i need somebody stay with me,he can come to me at once.damned requirements,i don't care it anymore.

  Now,a local people is going after me.i don't know why,i have no feeling.he promised to me he will take care of me forever,never tierd of me,can stand all my bad temper,when i need him,he will turn up immediately.maybe i was moved by him,i considered about accepting him eventhough my parents and all my relatives against me to find a foreigner as my boyfriend.on the new year day,this was my first new year spending without my family members,i felt so homesick,wondering in the queenstreet,i wanted to cry.i texted him,i want him to stay with me on that day,however,he didn't txst me bact till the next day,he said he went out for fun,so he didn't see the message i send.i laughed,and i am sure i don't need to think of him anymore.foreigner people can do nothing but speak honeyed words,which isn't i need.

  On the new year day,my relatives wish me can find a good chinese boy to look after me.yes,it's aslo my new year wish,where is my mr right?a good chinese boy.now i don't have much requierments,all i need is that you can stay with me when i am sad when i need you,can stand my bad temper,take care of me forever.i am tied of the lonly time,i am just a girl.......