Valentine's Day

  New Roman" color=#0080ff size=3>This is my first time to come here,a good place that i keep asking myself why didn't find it earlier.Here,nobody know me,here;i can be the one who i really am;here,i can say anything i want ;here,i don't need to hide my real feeling,not only can i share the happy things but aslo the sad side of myself;here,i can be crazy.can i?

  Today is valentine's day,love air surround the whole city,but to me,nothing but one more lonely valentine's day.i woke up this morning,it's raining,looking at the raindrop on the window just like the tear in my deep heart.what's wrong with me?i should be accustomed to the days by myself.but why?

  I have been the stange country for nearly 5months,time is fleeting.everyone thinks i am a strong excellent girl,,yse,i am,i have been eager to do well in everthing since i was a little girl.in the past 5months,i can handle anything by myslf,without parents' care and all the friends' support.i tell everyone that i am happy,but they don't know that i just don't want to let them worry about me.i am growing up,i don't want to bother them anymore,i think i can deal with everything myself.however,i am just a girl,i am not as strong as i think i should be.suddenly,i find i really need a boyfriend to look after me.

  I never had a boyfriend before.i set many requirements for my future boyfriend,i take serious with my love,it's not for fun,so i won't accept anyone until i find the mr right in my life,.eventhoug,i really expect a romantic love story come to me,but i stick to the stupid requirements.in china,my good girlfriends stayed with me,so i didn't feel lonely,so i didn't care when the mr right emerged.but now,i find i really need a boyfriend,all i need is just a boyfriend,who can share the happiness with me,when i am sad,when i need somebody stay with me,he can come to me at once.damned requirements,i don't care it anymore.

  Now,a local people is going after me.i don't know why,i have no feeling.he promised to me he will take care of me forever,never tierd of me,can stand all my bad temper,when i need him,he will turn up immediately.maybe i was moved by him,i considered about accepting him eventhough my parents and all my relatives against me to find a foreigner as my boyfriend.on the new year day,this was my first new year spending without my family members,i felt so homesick,wondering in the queenstreet,i wanted to cry.i texted him,i want him to stay with me on that day,however,he didn't txst me bact till the next day,he said he went out for fun,so he didn't see the message i send.i laughed,and i am sure i don't need to think of him anymore.foreigner people can do nothing but speak honeyed words,which isn't i need.

  On the new year day,my relatives wish me can find a good chinese boy to look after me.yes,it's aslo my new year wish,where is my mr right?a good chinese boy.now i don't have much requierments,all i need is that you can stay with me when i am sad when i need you,can stand my bad temper,take care of me forever.i am tied of the lonly time,i am just a girl.......