I love her,but i don't have enough courage to speak out!

  I am a 21 years boy,to be honest,so far i never have a real gril fridnd.Recently ,i spent some time inflecting on it if it is time for me to deal with that!I nevear say a lie ,i really sedolm to think about that!I always said to myself ,don't worry ,you are so special,it is not difficult for you to find one!It seems that!Actually ,i am quite unconfident in this respect!i don't dare to say my thoughts to others,that's the problem,that problem troubles me so much,i am pretty blue ,i don't know how to do! In this vacation,i do a partime job ,i find a gril who can attract my eyes!when the first day i went to the company,i meet her,when i see her at first,i don't have strong feeling,when we separate each other,i found she had play an important role in my life!  later the boss send me to another shop,i just have a pain in my heart ,that is the pain which can't write in English words,second day ,i miss her so much ,when there is not many costmers i will remember her!Right we have separate for a month,sometimes we can meet at noon,because we need eating!haha, this is the first blog ,i am so tired today ,i hope someone who had read it ,please write bace to me ,i need your help,i like to make some english friends ,i will do more excises in the future !