I havn't written English diary for a long time. It can easy to see that I am really lack of spirit to insit on .Just like I do other things.Every time when I feel tired or feel nothing to write in, I always have excuses to get over.

Here , my mind come to ten years ago when I was still a  junior middle school studient ,who was quite good at  all assignments. Once I was grateful in the school and most of my classmates were glad to play with me , in my memories , I was a excellence student then. However, everything  has changed after I entered senior high school,I once thought it should come down to my teachers who always wrote off my enthusiasm . Now I know that all of my lost was by reason of my character .

  I didn't mean I had havn't make any goals . By contraries, I had too much goals, I always had new aims which made me don't have a clear way to make them come true.Otherwise, I hardly to do something last-ditch. Another reason I think is because I  eqrequiously care about other people's  reflection on me ,and I am afraid of offending people around me .  

  No pain no gain ! I must subconsciousnessly to supervise myself and change all my faults .I can succeed !

I don't have much money before , but I neither feel so poor as these days. Yesterday, we went to a copy building and took wedding pohots ,it took us 3088RMB.  My boyfriend has no house 、no much money ,and his job could not earn high salary. It means that 3088RMB is a major pen of money for us  .

   I don't mean to blame my boyfriend ,because we are all young ,we still have chance to strive on .What we should do is not to be afraid of poor ,but to know how to struggle in the realistic of  society.

This weekend is too dull to me . It's a long time since I got-together with my boyfriend last weekend.He was so busy during the whole week. I always chose to work out to kill time. I can't wait to see him tonight,but I know he would not come back until tomorrow. I have nothing to do  but chose to browse the nets.

   Wow ,it's not too better for me to find the Englishcn. Once I am an English learner,I used to write and read English before I come across my boyfriend. Tonght, I found that my English has nearly been given up .I browsed some English bolgs from others and know that I should not give up ,I must cheer up and go on learning .Although my job is nothing to do with English,I still think it is a good thing for me .

  OK ! Now I find a good plat to write thing, I would work hard . I am just beginning.